Day 336: Gathering the Information: The word List

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Day 336: Gathering the Information: The word List

 

 Seeing and realising that through my experiences of lists drawn up for me by someone in authority about what I should be doing and in what order I should be doing them, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have connected a negative emotional charge to the word List.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in a negative experience within myself when I see that making a list of things for me to do in support of me, and in support of clarity within me, that I then avoid this structuring of self support, because I have accepted and allowed myself to react to negative energies coming up inside me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed that even though I am proposing making a List for me of things that I might do which altogether will assist me to make real changes to me and support me in making clear to me the various points of sabotage that I have accepted and allowed, that still the charges that I have accepted and allowed to exist within the word List have an influence and affect on me in terms of giving up on me for the sake of my negative relationship to List.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to store in List reactions to coercion, to control, to obligation, and connections to who I am within refusal, retaliation, and rebellion, and within these connections also fear of conflict in the consequences of disobedience and childish naughtiness. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed that in making lists for me that I have given up on my own plans for me and then formed judgements of myself as having Failed. I forgive myself therefore that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the experience of these negative judgements of my failures to arise within me when I consider for myself to make a structural list of things that I need to do for my own benefit.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the facts that I have discovered to exist within me with further emotion: to charge the fact that I have believed the failures to be real as seen through my self judgements, that fact that I have accepted and allowed this experience of who I am as having failed to follow up my plans, to exist within me, not just simply as a neutral fact that I can therefore work with, but as a fact that is charged with energy such as guilt, that even though I see and realise the fact to be real as what I have actually done, believed, accepted and allowed, to through the guilt then allow myself to hide myself from the realities about myself that I have found within me.

 

Therefore I commit myself to release these emotional contents that I have accepted and allowed to exist within the word List, as part of the definition of who I am within the word, because I see and realise and understand that if I am to use the list as a neutral tool of self support to organise myself, to organise my approach to me that if I accept and allow myself to not remove the sabotage that I have accepted and allowed to exist within it, then I am indeed accepting and allowing my own pre-programmed failure to carry out a structured plan that I require within this current project of redefining Diligence in my life, and actually practically changing who I am within and towards Diligence.

 

 

Continuing next time…

 

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Day 335: Diligence and Gathering the Information

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Day 335: Diligence and Gathering the Information

 

Gathering the information together: I find that in ‘facing’ the point of gathering the information together I have already created a resistance – that I should ‘face’ it, and so within that, retain an option of turning away from it. There I am again on the threshold of myself as who I am.

A summary of things has got a simple maths to it that adds up to plainly how it is in me, as a group of contradictions that I have somehow got along with, with various tricks of suppression, and so never put together. And there is an anxiety that arises in me with this contradictory wanting to change and yet at the same time fearing actual change, and then demanding that I must know in advance what it is that may unfold, and fearing the reality that in seeing it all together that I will no longer be able to sustain the lie because I am aware of it. And like putting dominating personalities together in a room designed for one, there is a fear of conflict.

Anxiety also comes up as a reaction to seeing myself going into a groundless positivity, as a vision of me changed, that somehow magically I have accomplished change, and within that, a fear of the future in which I see it all collapsing. And also there I see at the starting point of this magic leap, a desire to escape from what I have been looking at that is parts of me.

So, practically, there is the tool that I have picked up along the way, which has been a step in redefining me within the word and sound of No: that in using No I have found a means of conveying value to a Yes supporting me within myself, a me that grows more tangible, and that is here quite practical because with breath I have used it as a means to coax myself to simply look through stuff I’ve written in the past, and take the step of putting it together.

As also with the word Structure, and seeing how I can direct myself in using this in practicality, such as in taking these various written posts and putting them together: doing such things as making lists for example. And an aspect of fearing structure that I noticed a while ago was how it was that when I was young and spinning stories about what happened that would serve in my mind as an excuse for what I’d done, that I came to fear the structure that is expressed in natural common sense, as in adults to a child, simple questions, that would expose me in dishonesty. So here again, bringing structure to myself with things like lists, and simple questions in support of me.

 

 

 

Continuing next time…

 

What does it mean, this  Redefinition and living of words?  Self Creation : SOUL 

 

 

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Day 334: Interlude: A sketch of a poem.

 

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Day 334: Interlude: A sketch of a poem.

 

A memory from Earth: For such two words to be placed beside the other, what kind of processing must have been evolved, such as in the mining of what exotic ore, extraction of what essence, what chemistry of words that placed just so would make it possible for such a question to persist? Truly with the thickness of a shadow this ego abrogates substantiality, brushing over field and hay, content within a vehicle that is merely ever only reference to something real. Same question in a way as in how and what I am in breathing breath, attempting to define this word with all the technology of the mind together focused on this action that is central to my life on Earth, and finding that in how I have lived each word that they cannot really grasp the question or grasp the realization that the question represents.

 

That question was as a gift to me: and within that gift at the same time an experience of myself in gratitude, that was gratitude itself, the gift.

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Day 333: Diligence in Breath!

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Day 333: Diligence in Breath!

 

I made the decision to investigate the contents of the word Diligence in the sense of who and how I’ve been and so become within it and in relation to it, and in this sense the investigation has been like opening a door and walking through it, and discovering nothing that I expected, not just a few points here and there requiring checking and correction, but instead like this really massive room, with this huge machine installed in it, like an engine of some kind bolted to the floor, as the inner engineering of this word, that I had accepted and allowed within me with all these moving parts and strange components.

 

And there have been moments where I wanted to just turn around and check the door and see what word was actually written on it, entertaining an idea that it might have been the wrong door or something. And in moments like that there is also this familiar experience of me, as standing on the brink of things and not going further, and within that experience, an acceptance of myself as that.

 

And so with the word Diligence, and allowing me to authorize the structure of this investigation, I go into a new process of gathering up the information that I already have in the realization that yes there is much more, but going further into more is in a way a distraction of trying to make the investigation perfect, and looking at a future in my mind of having all and everything at my disposal, which is one of the patterns that I have come across in writing this; and also there is that I realise now that in walking through these points since 316, that Diligence has become for me quite changed, clearer, lighter, simpler, and that the factors or components that I’ve looked at in myself has already released me to some extent from the accumulated reluctance that was there before unseen by me in the form of energies and conflicts within the subsidiary words of Diligence.

 

Like for example: Gian proposed for me a diligence in breath: and my reception of this new meeting of two words had a natural lightness and simplicity, through which I could kind of see an inkling of what this redefinition of this word could be and become for me.

 

 

 

 

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Day 332: Incoherence and Structure and the Poet Personality

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Day 332: Incoherence and Structure and the Poet Personality 

 

… continuing this series of posts in which I am looking at my relationships to the word Structure.

 Accepting structure for myself to use for me has been one of the gifts of writing out my mind, where I have been giving shape to goings on within me using words.

 So: looking back at how I saw my mind when I was young, I saw how much of what I once accepted in my mind as ‘joined up’ thought, had really been more like fragments of phrases and significant seeming words in loose association, with the occasional realization of this incoherence, when I had for a moment stepped back, but towards which I then reacted, and within reacting, stepped back in again, where I then defined and judged myself as having a shattered mind, and within that, something wrong with me, with emotions of disappointment, self pity, loss, and shame.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to participate in these emotions, in looking at my consciousness and seeing its incoherence and then believing that my mind was shattered; and that I then accepted and allowed myself to experience these things that came out of a disappointment in who I found myself to be, as a tragedy within myself, as someone that is irretrievably broken, and so therefore useless and without any prospects, and somehow in the system of the world, as inapplicable.

Within that I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to create a starting point for a personality out of this: taking off the peg the long black coat, the dark depressed poet figure, drifting along the roads without direction, sort of glorious in tragedy, in which I channeled into hope that maybe I could utilize these incoherencies of isolated words, and hide away the inconsistency I saw, because although the words that swirled around within my consciousness did not fit together in any formal way, all the same I realized what powerful effects they had upon me: shifting my moods, exerting strong influences on me, triggering yet more incoherence, and more emotion, and yet through the eyes of the poet personality, seeing the words as being radiant with mystery. And in poetic solitude, I would dwell on single lines, mesmerized for hours, hoping to evince some inner essence out from them, and within that, hoping to eventually communicate some unfathomable thing.

Here is an example of some structures that I accepted and allowed to fall into place, stemming from emotional reactions to how I found myself to be, and beliefs I jumped into, looking into my consciousness, accepting and allowing what existed there as me, defined within and as emotional and feeling energies, as conflict and confusion, as swirling backchat and inner dialogues, and haunting memories, and how within all of that I was attempting to give structure, shape, consistency, to all of these ‘I am’ this and that reactions and beliefs, and unite them into some coherence, that then gave rise to living out that personality at times, trudging the road, living out the drifter, of being driven, without direction, living out a metaphor, and then a shape, a narrative of not having self direction.

 

 

 

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Day 331: No, again, and again, and again, an aspect of Diligence

 

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Day 331: No, again, and again, and again, an aspect of Diligence

 

In the situation of learning, as in gradually reconditioning my mind and reconditioning my relationship to my body, so as to understand more and more through words how Toleration has been a key word in my acceptances and allowances of the patterns of the mind, and how through self forgiveness of, as in taking responsibility for these tolerations, I have in fact being substantiating my being within saying No, and sounding no within myself and resounding it throughout me over and over like a general directive of how I stand in relation to a pattern of my mind, this I have found to be effective.

 

And saying it audibly for my ears to hear and for me to feel the physical sensations of the resonance throughout my body, I have found it to be a useful tool for tuning the tonality of my voice to be a more effective permeation of the resonance within my body. A stream of no’s tweaked real time thus I have found to be a grounding, and within that I have found a space in which to step back a little from some upcoming directive of the mind, such as in the re-emergence of a pattern that is seeking for a foothold.

 

With this No as my prerogative, and only mine, then in the event of that recorded No that comes up in my mind, I am seeing how it obviously does not directly come from me in standing here but is a no that is a programmed no, that is really implicitly a yes towards the mind. That yes towards the mind is very often in me not a stated yes but more implicit, it is like a representation of a giving up and giving in, like as in I accept this and so allow this to be so, or to be what is happening with me, it is like that slightly hidden point when I give, and underplay my permission for it, go along with it, such as with an addiction, it’s an ok, Just this Once, rather than experience the vacuum of a no that I have not yet learned to handle, that might lead me into something different, and something new for me.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Day 330: System and Structure

Day 330: System and Structure

 

Structure: Something that I realized, or released really, within my relationship to Structure in the sense that I let go of one relationship to it, and in doing so allowed myself to see many others that had not been clear. And that one relationship was that I had fastened on to this word as a point of blame within which, yes, there were and are reactions and energetic charges, and inflations of significance, in connections to learning and discipline, to formal education, and formality, and feelings of constriction, and coercion, and yet what I realized was that there was like a whole rest of the world of Structure that were and are as neutral and innocent of these charges, and seeing all this I saw how much these personal reactions formed really quite a minor part.

 

But in seeing Learning, and practical learning in the sense of process and walking life, expansion of being and taking up directive principle, these sorts of things, I see now how I fastened onto Structure as something I must take a closer look at, as if structure itself was a major problem, when in fact it was more like my reactions to having structure imposed on me, rather than me being the one to support myself in giving structure to things. And this is similar to my reactions to a situation in which I I am accepting and allowing the perception that who I am is being defined.

 

So it’s like this release experience in my relationship to Structure is more like my letting go of my relationship of being a victim to it, through which there have been like residual fears within it, that have made it difficult to really look at, and within which I have been very much the constrictor of myself.

 

Something that led up to this, or developed out of, was a visualization of the mind, as a multiple experience of different displays of images going on in my head, that I was wanting to stop, and it occurred to me that I could visualize it as a TV: a box with a screen, and that in having framed, or given shape to this experience in this way, that I could then direct which channels or programs I wanted to watch and also turn it off. Since trying out this method a few times, I found something interesting, which was that I could not turn it off all at once, but if I took a looked at the programs that were on, I could immediately put a name to them, these news flashes, entertainments, soaps, discussions, serials, channels; naming them such as, ok yes, Adam Local News, or ‘The Future of Tomorrow, or ‘Guess what’s going on with So and So’, or ‘All our Favorite Worries Show’, and recognizing them thus, and naming them, then I could go, Ok I do not want to watch that, and then one by one I could turn them off. And if some program came back on I could put a name to it, and turn that off as well.

 

And what I realized about this was that in visualizing these things in support of me, that what I was doing was adding structure in support of me, giving something that seemed quite nebulous, a shape, giving things that seemed quite random, names, or headings, generally containing things that seemed quite overwhelming.

 

Further into this I came to this point: that with the thoughts and images in my mind there is something similar going on, where let’s say an energy of some kind is floating about in some nebulous way, and my mind gives to it a shape, makes it tangible, provides an outfit for it, makes a story for it, adds to it a structure that will catch my interest and my engagement with it.

 

That system is structure also is a point that I have not really seen before, in this light at least, or from this angle, and within this my relationship to structure as one of retaliation that comes from my perception of it being imposed on me, in the various forms of systems of the mind and patterns, and where within this I can learn instead to be the one that gives the structure to me, in support of me.

 

 

 

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Day 329: Towards Self Diligence

Day 329: Towards Self Diligence

 

The context here being an extension of recent posts (start 316) exploring how I had designed into my life a sort of alienation to Diligence, not seeing the hidden contents of it till I began to write it out.

There is a whole normality experience that comes out of how we have defined ourselves in World, a sort of normality that wraps us up in a foggy edged perception of things, just getting things done, just going from A to B, just allowing a blank distraction to preoccupy ourselves, walking the same paths, having our own familiar thoughts, not exactly being here, the whole experience of the world that we have defined is kind of unremarkable, there is a sort of grey dullness to it all.

I was looking at my own experience of this that I have lived, that gives me understanding of it, having walked into this greyness and with having walked back out of it: and something that I noticed was how when I was young when I was as it were laying the foundations that would later form the definitions of the word World, was all the programmings of spiritualities and religions in which there was asserted a wider context to it all, that I then accepted into me, in which there was a degradation of the physical reality as a less-than-ness.

Once I saw the physical reality through a frame or a filter of normality, where, through the programmings of spirituality, and religion, it was as if it were a degraded realm of existence, or as a lower order of being; in my mind I then lived in physicality as a form of exile, or as if it were a chore almost, within and as an atmosphere of disdain and resent, towards physicality itself.

This perspective of the world had become a part of my ingrained normality, the terms in which I lived it, being as superior to it, within which I was comfortable within the arrogance of believing that I could easily define the word World, and Life, within and from the locality of my received opinion, and so it went unquestioned. Flowing out of this, the word Practicality had a similarly lower order of significance, in which standing for ways and means in which things were to be done within the physical world, it became for me, similarly tainted.

In personal revolution: such as taking up a practical approach to what I find as ‘me’ that I have become, and seeing and realizing how it is that words and how I have defined them are the functioning components of my mind, rather than as references to something else, then Practicality itself, the word, and its relationship to Physicality I will have to purify, that is removing these internal word designs that I have accepted and allowed that still have influences on me.

 

 

See: Day 316: Moving Patience: Diligence: a Structured Plan

 

 

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Day 328: Perfect Dread

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Day 328: Perfect Dread

Releasing the energies within definitions of myself that I have accepted and allowed to exist within the word Perfect

Sounding the word Perfect: Dread comes up in me.

And in describing this, an image like coming to a clearing in my forest home and seeing a shining form of sacred geometry that has suddenly appeared from out of nowhere: It does not fit my world in any way, and yet I try to measure up to it, and somehow incorporate this thing that has appeared. What has entered into me is like the possibility of separation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in fear and in anxiety and dread when the word Perfect comes up in me. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word Perfect with emotional energy, and so turn the word into a negative experience. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make a relationship towards the word perfect as a relationship towards my negative energy, in which I have separated myself from it, and then experience myself as less than it, and as a measurement of not good enough towards it. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the word Perfect to control me, and how I experience myself, and to control my actions, where I am accepting and allowing me to give up on what I am doing because the word Perfect has come up in me. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to this. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the word Perfect to remind myself of a history of failure. I forgive myself that I have accepted allowed myself to define this history of me as and in an absolute. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in judgements that I have made of me comparing the efforts that I make for me to Perfect. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear myself in the light of Perfect. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in my perceptions of Perfect that I see in the outside world, in which I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge up Perfect outside me with positive feelings of energy. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to spiritualize the word Perfect with ideas in my mind of Heaven and Transcendence. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in Perfect Solids as if they were real, when I can see for myself that no such things exist in physical reality. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be awed within my perception of Perfect as in Beautiful. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed an outflow of my perception of Perfection as a polarity of my consciousness.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have Perfect exist in me, and yet not me in it. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe an absolute within my mind as real.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself through fear of my experience of myself as what I have accepted and allowed to exist within the word Perfect, that I have accepted and allowed this fear as a form of safety, where I have feared what might happen to me in an experience of myself in which I have defined myself with being not good enough and in being as an extension of what I have accepted and allowed myself to define within my mind as failure.

 

In relation to these points, see Atlanteans 427 Perfection: Getting Back to Yourself 

 

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Day 327: People Saying Words

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Day 327: People Saying Words

  

People saying words: I find this quite extraordinary, and within this for me there has been a long time fascination: it led me in my twenties into studies of psychology, and eventually into the practice of psychotherapy. Within my fascination there were dimensions of believing that there was some form of jumbled up telepathy going on within my reception of people’s words, and their physical expressions that took place at the same time. And within this training I felt like I had found a place for me in which I could utilize this sensitivity in support of people and at the same time find an application of who I was. Within all of this there was this feeling of there being ‘something more to this’ that was pervasive in the background of my life, and as I look at it now, I see that this was also a dimension of my fascination.

The fact that was familiar to me was that simply asking only seemed to be like touching on a membrane that was ultra sensitive and which would then immediately contract. And in this interaction it seemed to me that I could not push my personal curiosity on this point, but only quietly develop in the art of listening in a way, and make a receptive space in which the essence of the words being used might eventually feel more safe and comfortable to venture out.

While from the other side of this, within being the one being asked, I have experienced my own conditionality, which was in a contract or an expectation of mutual respect of boundaries of secret minds, in which a curiosity similar to my own might seem to prod and probe, and show me in a way my whole unfamiliarity within my self of who I am and how specifically I actually stand within my very words, and that in that unfamiliarity with me a fear of exposure of this relationship to me that I do not wish to see, an experience, like an outside view of my own suppressions, as an experience of the inner consequence of secret mind, and fear of who I am exposed to me as a participant, and within what I saw as being the dangerous forefront of real time communication.

More exactly how and in what ways that I have not known myself has become abundantly more clear in the practical processes of redefinition and the living of words, through which this experience of emptiness with regards to how I have or not defined myself in words is no longer for me so much subject to reaction, but more a sign of so-far-unexplored; and yet this fascination in Communication remains and deepens in the question of exactly what goes on here in this conversation where both of us are in Communication on so many levels, and also not at all on others, in which who we are in each moment as sequences of words in which who we are and what we are living of ourselves in sounds along the timelines, sort of tumbles out, where as I have seen for myself how many constructs and experiences may be contained within even just a single word.

 

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