Walking the Dimensions of the Postponement Personality, and personalities in support of Postponement.
Continuation from previous posts, starting at Day 139
Superiority to the Mind
Two Eqafe interviews have been massive support for me in the context of this Day*, they are: Quantum Mind 32, and Reptilians 59.
*Well actually this ‘day’ has involved and taken a few days in physical space-time in which I have gone into inner turmoils in my mind, experiencing overwhelmingness, and inferiority and just spaced out confusion before the vastness of the mind, which altogether I realize has been like another aspect of postponement of my own realization and facing of myself, and so postponement of a solution for humanity and life as whole.
So in taking responsibility for being actually in fact ‘awake’, see last post, I went back and merged into energy experience as who I am within feeling good about myself and liking me that I had got to this place where I could actually stand by me within my own responsibility as this.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in feelings such as elation and victoriousness as I begin to understand and to deprogram the programs that I have accepted and allowed myself to live as a system of energy within and as my mind, and that I have used and in fact welcomed such feelings to feed a personality of superiority as who I am as yet another system of energy without seeing or realizing or having an awareness in this shift from the process of walking myself out of these systems to actually walking again within myself as the system, and so have sabotaged and manipulated myself and postponed my own self realization of myself as physicality in exchange for a moment of experience as feelings of victoriousness against and in separation from myself and from my mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself within and as ‘winning’ as in believing that I have validated proved and made real myself as superiority and that I have accepted and allowed myself to give to me a reward of praise as positive energy in the forms of feelings such as victoriousness and elation.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in an energy experience in which I have accepted and allowed myself to become distracted from what I am actually doing which is learning how to walk myself out of this energy experience by walking through it as myself in equality and oneness with myself rather than out of this energy experience by winning against it or beating it or rejecting and suppressing it which is what I have accepted and allowed as this superiority as who I am in a relation towards my mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become as superiority itself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to as superiority accept and allow myself to participate in other energy experiences such as winning and being more than others as also more than my own mind and in winning or getting the ‘upper hand’ in a competition, war, battle, fight, skirmish, or tousle or any form of conflict with my own mind, because I see and understand and realize that the automatic nature of the programs that I have written from within their own developed and evolved energetic awareness of themselves will be to resist and to fight back for their own survival as energy so that my only course is to walk through these programs with them and as them and reprogram myself as I go realigning myself in oneness and equality with these programs as myself and as the mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, as superiority, accept and allow myself to be as separated from equality and oneness as life and as the physical because I see that in this I have accepted and allowed myself to be as and to remain as a system of the mind and written into energy as who I am.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, as this illusion of superiority, believe that I have control over my mind and can deconstruct these personalities as if they are not me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize and understand that in going into competition with my mind in which I have a wish to validate myself as superiority that I am in fact accepting and allowing myself to become possessed by jealousy in which my fear of loss is connected to a fight about authority which is ultimately a fight against myself within my mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to become as superiority as who I am because I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself and to define myself as inferiority and therefore have experienced myself as this and have feared to face myself within my own experience as this, within which I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own capacity for fear.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to experience myself as superiority in which I exist as a positive experience of myself that rises above and transcends the experience of myself as negativity and inferior which I see as being down below because I have accepted and allowed myself to believe this inferiority to be real.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in feelings because I believe these feelings to be real and as evidence and support of what it is that I wish to make real which is this definition of myself as superiority.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, as superiority, believe my judgements to be real.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be as superiority because I believe this to be a place or a position in which to stand in which my judgements can be real.
Therefore I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek to control reality through superiority as superiority in judgement in my mind, and for not seeing and realizing and understanding that what I have done is to find a way as an energy awareness that I can believe my judgements to be real.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize and understand that the reality that I believe myself to have apparently lost is the reality that I myself have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate in going into energy experience in separation from myself within the mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek for and search for this reality through the means of validating this me as superiority of judgement that I have accepted and allowed as who I am within the mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that reality is something that I can figure out or reconstruct within my mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that superiority exists in physical reality, therefore I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as something that does not in fact exist in physical reality but only as a relationship of energy as illusion in my mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that superiority exists and so within that, winning, competition, and inferiority and losing to exist also, and within that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to as superiority give my consent to games of energy and of polarity.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in games of polarity as energy in relationships of separation to the mind in which I go to first superiority and then to inferiority towards the mind in which I have accepted and allowed myself as victorious and in control and winning and then as powerless defeated and overwhelmed, while in both of these extremes I have accepted and allowed my feelings and emotions as evidence of this being real.
Within this I have accepted and allowed myself to avoid my own process of learning how simply breathe and walk stability as myself as one and equal with each program of the mind that have been according to my own design so that I can practically walk by changing each program one by one and breath by breath and walk myself thus from energy into equality and oneness as the the physical and as who I have the opportunity to become as actual life.
Therefore I commit myself to walk in breath and as stability and not allow myself to participate in feelings of and about who I am within my own process in relation to the mind and I commit myself to not allow myself to participate in judgements of my progress in this process because I see and realize and understand that in accepting and allowing myself to participate as such I simply activate more personalities of energy, so that all that I am doing in effect is postponing my own process by going into experience of energy and games of distraction in my mind.
I commit myself to continue on this walk through the personalities as I see and realize and understand that this ‘superiority toward the mind’ came up as I entered into walking the ‘I don’t care’ character which is a character that justifies postponement and constructive cancellation of realization of who I am within this moment as responsibility to life.
So therefore I commit myself to breathe and in and as stability investigate this ‘superiority’ that I find connected to the ‘I don’t care’ system of energy and automated thought as a character that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by within and as my mind.
continuing in next post…
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