Day 290: A Spurious Freedom

Communication Errors 12: A Spurious Freedom

 

Been looking at previous posts; the various discontents that I have lived in relation to ‘authority’, and how I had defined within and as this relationship/experience as a personality, a construct of ‘freedom’ in my mind, in which I have accepted and allowed ‘freedom’ as a positive resource, as an expression of ‘winning’, while at the same time, the word ‘authority’, with a multiple of negative wirings, and negative experience in diminishment, and subjugation and subservience, and losing. Within all of this, the ‘freedom’ that I have sought to defend and protect, I have done so in the fear of losing it, and within this fear I have not looked at this, that I have never actually ‘owned’ this ‘freedom’, that it is not a quality that I have discovered to exist within me, that I am one and equal to, but that it is rather as a collection of ideas and aspirations in my mind, an idea of ‘me’ within a state of freedom, a state in which my preferences reign supreme. And seeing and realizing this ‘freedom’ that I have lived to be a spurious freedom, as a kind of main anchor of this personality, then it sets off a tremble in me, so deep into the flesh that I have lived this. As a unit of Humanity, here is a pattern or configuration of a wider disempowerment.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to incorporate this conflict into my flesh, into the substance of myself, that I have accepted and allowed a regime of self-hostility to continue to exist within me, that I have accepted and allowed a make-believe that I can escape from this within my mind as referencing a freedom that is not real.

 

Such as in the dreams of Electric Sheep, in which two replicants discover how they share exact same dreams and memory implants, that they thought were intimately theirs alone; an image of a bird spread-winged against the sky, as an experience of freedom, or the ripples of a flag, tethered in a breeze, where freedom merges into victory, and the mind experience of righteousness merges into ‘God’. So many of the song lines of the sixties carried off this ambiguity of echoing the psalms while at the same time pining for love, for oneness with self through the means of a relationship. As a teenager in those times, I absorbed the music the mood, the stance, the programme. A decade of economic boom, born from out of war, a decade in which going to the Moon did not seem like a mad idea, a decade in which for the new generation everything seemed possible. These were like the cultures out of which I emerged, that bringing to me now, I see how much the constructs of this personality reached into the constructs of the times, and that gradually I remove the nested gold-fish bowls, like Russian Dolls.

 

 

 

 

 

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Day 289: Communication Errors 11: Discipline

Communication Errors 11: Discipline

…continuation from previous post

 

Discipline: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lump this word into my stand as obedience to a pattern in my mind that is retaliation to authority.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give value to hesitations that come from judgements, arguments in my mind, against my own best interests, in which I have accepted and allowed for me to give up on respect for me within my efforts, and from there gone sliding into ways that undermine my worth as life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into participation in judgements of my mind, in which I blame the mind for bringing up these hesitations in me, when I have in fact programmed my mind to give me early warning and precaution, and protection from a realisation of myself as subservient to authority.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give to inconsistency a positive value of energy, that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in an idea in my mind of superiority as a beingness that is separate from and antagonistic to the gridlines of the system.

And so I commit myself to undo the charge of energy that I have wired into the word discipline. I see and realise and understand that within my relationship to the word discipline, that I have created a relationship to the physical world that I can only see it through the eyes of my own self interest, as who I am within and as reactions of energy within the confines of my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put into practice an expression of irritation and of anger and blame as in a deliberate ignorance of the nature of this physical reality in which my effort made in practice and in practicality involves the repetitions of actions in consistency.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge these repetitions of actions that I have seen and realized to be practical and necessary steps, that I have accepted and allowed a fear of boredom as an imposition on my self direction; within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attempt to live a life of constant entertainment, without regard for self or for others.

I commit myself to redefine this word discipline as I have lived it, because I see realise and understand that in discipline, I am simply putting into application a Plan, that involves a series of actions, nothing more or less. The Plan is not something that just floats around in space, it is the How within the application of my Purpose. If the purpose fades, then the plan goes adrift, the series of actions are questioned, judged, interrupted, postponed. I commit myself to slow myself down and see in self honesty the nature of this hesitation; a moment in which all that I have lived within my energy addiction seems to have Authority, seems to outweigh my self respect within my purpose of change of me towards Reality, that is in accord with Life.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to see that through the eyes of this resistance, then my imagination adds a layer of drabness to my vision, that is an illustration of my fear of boredom, that is a step within comparison, to then colorize as entertainment, the immediate reward of all the energies involved in who-I-am-as ‘Freedom’, free to break the discipline of the walking of my plan, in which what I have aligned to is suspension of self respect, and a step into line with the authority that I have invested in this personality.

Seeing realising and understanding that this sacrifice of self respect is something that I have accepted and allowed and come to tolerate as a condition of my ‘freedom’; therefore when and as this hesitation comes along in the walk-through of my Plan, I stop and I breathe, I stabilize myself in breath. And I use this space to commit myself again to my worth here as Life, in which my commitment to myself also carries this same worth, and within and as this worth that I can stand in self respect.

 

 

Cool perspective on discipline: Just Do It

 

 

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Communication Errors 10: Authority and Discipline

Communication Errors 10: Authority and Discipline

 

Continuing here from previous posts examining the trigger point as some perceived indication of ‘authority’ and the rising experience of fear and anxiety converted to blame such as into ‘I don’t care’ and ‘fuck-you’ – into superiority and righteousness as who I am as a personality system in contempt of authority.

 

Misalignments in the attributes of authority as: Discipline.

 

When the word ‘discipline’ came into my life, it was always in the context of being in trouble, I had done something wrong, I should get some ‘discipline’, I should get some discipline ‘drummed into me’, I should be sent away to get some discipline because of my badness. Within this, I accepted and allowed myself to connect the word ‘discipline’ to a bad experience, and to target blame for this experience upon, first my father, and then later on authority.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word ‘discipline’ through the eyes of judgement and blame, as an attempt or plan to impose control over who I am. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to include within the word discipline memories of experience of imposed discipline and reactions of irritation and anger and retaliation where I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am being controlled. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define discipline with negative energy and that I have associated it in my mind with punishment.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself within the definition I have lived of ‘discipline’, to have separated from myself, from my self direction where rather than standing and walking as myself I have instead gone into self victimization in judgement of discipline.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that discipline was something that would be imposed on me. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge discipline as negative, as hostile to who I am.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react with spite towards discipline and that I have accepted and allowed myself to deny discipline into my life because I have seen it in my mind as an attribute of authority, the authority that I have accepted and allowed myself to place in contempt.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to apply discipline in my life, for me, in my own best interest. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist ‘discipline’ and to participate in fear of loss of who I am as opposed to it in which I can instead participate in feelings of ‘strength’ as ‘righteous’ as a positive experience of energy, in winning in my mind, by placing authority in contempt.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am ‘free’ within this positive experience that I have made within this opposition to ‘discipline’.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to superiorize myself into arrogance as a path or personality of self interest based upon my successful suppression of who I am within the multiple reactions and retaliations toward ‘authority’, as I have accepted and allowed myself to define it in my mind.

 

I commit myself to redefine who I am in and as authority as discipline within and as self direction, where when and as the word discipline comes up, I stop and I breathe. I make sure that I am clear that I have no reactions within me, no reference to contempt. It is simple that I direct myself, that I am the authority of my self direction. As the authority of me, I commit myself to learn how to embrace the word ‘discipline’ as part of me, and realise that I am free to impose discipline on myself in support of me, as a tool that I can use to support my own best interests.

 

 

 

 

EQAFE:

http://www.facebook.com/groups/journeytolife/

Here are the instructions to the process of accessing our life-force, our beingness, our physical bodies and walking through the mind and consciousness.

EQAFE: ‘The Crucifixion of Jesus’, has been a great support to me because hear within these interviews, presented through the Portal, the actual teachings of Jesus, rather than the ones that were to be, after his death, tweaked and twisted into the four approved versions of his life as the Gospels. How the political message of Equality and the reality of Equality and Oneness were skewed into a religious mantra so as to suit the interests of the system.

The Quantum Mind

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Human Rights and the Equal Life Foundation • Desteni.org • See: The Equal Life Foundation Bill of RightsLiving Income Guaranteed: The Proposal