Month: May 2013

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Is this question of my wonderment relevant to this world and how we exist or not?

This question itself should be affixed somehow above the entrance to my wonder – but how to really do this. Okay so, ‘Entrance’. Immediately a word arrives at hand that I need to look within. I am showing myself that I need to define my wonder so as to align it with reality. And the ‘passage’ of this wonderment in my mind is from one word to another, and so here is a beginning.

1) Entrance: noun: an opening, such as a door, passage, or gate, that allows access to a place.

2) Entrance: verb: fill (someone) with wonder and delight, holding their entire attention.

Here within this word that I have chosen to represent the entry of a question, the beginning of an investigation of some kind – I show myself immediately the choice between the experience in my mind of ‘questioning’, as a source of ‘delight’, or as the passive recipient of some energy ‘story’ – and the choice of directing myself in deliberate investigation. It is clear that living this word ‘entrance’ as both the noun and the verb confused I cannot stay aligned with the physical reality, responsible for my question, because I am partially aligned with energy and the temptations or enticements of entertainments in my mind.

The thing is that I did not know that I was about to write this. It had not been written and prepared already in my mind – except the point raised in the first line which was a point raised by Bernard – for which I was grateful because it seemed to me like a key of assistance and support in the endeavor of real investigation – so I take ‘structure’ here not as a prescribed plan that exists separate from me, but as the structure or the path direction of this walk developing as I stay present in the words I write.

There are two fears here: 1) The fear of spinning off into the mind-world. And 2) The fear of following a prescribed structure that I do not fully understand. To align myself with a group that aligns itself with physical reality, it is natural that I would wish my writings to be in accord and cross-referencable with theirs, and there is a source of fear, that to write like ‘this’ or to write like ‘that’, would be to lose the only structure that I trust, which is me being here writing this as I write it. To align myself with a group that aligns itself with physical reality and how to change the physical reality so that it is best for all, I have to align myself and stay aligned with my own physical reality here. Cross reference and therefore stabilization and consistency in an imaginary world is impossible.

I commit myself to develop my writing skills in the course of my writing practice so as to give myself more choice in the overall form in which I write while staying with me here in breath in awareness of my alignment with the physical reality, the single purpose direction and endeavor of the Desteni Group together and as one to synchronize with the voice of life itself in the expression of the actual real normality of equality and oneness.

I commit myself to the gentleness and patience that is in the expression of my living breath, to turn myself, to move myself into alignment with the physical reality.

I commit myself to accustomize myself to this for me new-found reality of this Existence as the manifestation of the living word, and within that to develop my realization of my responsibility within and as the words I use, transmit, accept allow within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect a positive energy experience to the word ‘wonder’, within which I have accepted and allowed myself to create systems of wavering as ‘wandering’ directionless ‘entranced’ and mesmerized within my mind, through which my questions of this world and this reality have been answered only as an experience of me for me and about me in my mind. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed my ‘entrance’ into a question or investigation to be conditioned by this word ‘entrance’ through which unknowingly I have accepted and allowed myself to give permission or ‘passage’ to myself to be drawn into the mind, and away from the physical reality here, the source of real solutions for the world.

I commit myself to make my questions of myself and of my world Real, related to reality. I dedicate my wonder to the establishment of what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear ‘spinning off into the mind-world’. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define fear as not included in the mind-world. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define fear as real, and to justify it within my utilization of it to protect me from ‘spinning off into the mind-world’, while all the time I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that in alignment with this fear, that I am not already as and in this ‘mind-world’.

I commit myself to see and realise and understand that my fear of ‘spinning off’ is a consequence of not trusting myself in being here in breath, and that the development of this trust and this stability is through practice of the breathing in real space time in which there is no access of the mind as fear, and no temptation of myself to be as mind as fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed this ‘wonder’ in my mind as an appropriate response to existence as a whole, and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become the experience of ‘wonder’ in the face of my own reality as part of this existence in which I see a million questions but do not question who I am within this, and do not see and realise and understand that who I am is who I have accepted and allowed myself to be as an experience of wonder, satisfied by energy, satisfied by resignation in the interpretation of the world as an ‘enigma’ or a ‘mystery’, or as an unanswerable question. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as an enigma or a mystery in which I have accepted and allowed myself to both justify my resignation from investigating and questioning myself, and exulting in and as a positive experience of energy as who I am.

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Day 210: Prospecting for Money

May 17, 2013 ~ Journey into Life ~ Leave a comment

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Day 210: Prospecting for Money

Making prospects. Prospecting for money – this is about moving myself in such a way so as to organize my receiving of some money, so that I can use this money to buy some food, pay some bills, continue to have a roof over my head, and for more prospecting for money, which also costs money. So this prospecting activity is about making deliberate connections into the money system in which I live, and depend upon for my physical living to continue. The reality is that when there is hardly any food, it becomes difficult to move and to work with physical energy, the body becomes depleted, and prospecting for money itself becomes practically difficult.

And so, the practicality – I print out words for advertising – my name and number for direct connection, along with skills and specific services, and place these words where people can see them – in local publications, and in shop windows, flyers to go through letter boxes, footwork, walking, talking. Into conversation I place the statements of my quest for work – in all of this there is hope of a result, a hope that feeding information into the grape-vines of my local world will bring about a meeting or an enquiry of some sort.

And so a job comes up; my function here is to be as a mediator in a way between the idea of a loft conversion and the physical reality of the actual house. In exchange for some money, I am to provide some evidence of how practically a flooring system can be fitted safely into the roof space of the house. In order to provide this evidence, what I do physically, from the top of a step ladder and using a spirit level, is to draw a single level pencil line across the surface of the plaster all around the walls of each upstairs room – from this horizontal line all measurements up into the loft space can then be made and then compared. From these measurements, the relationships between the heights of wall plates for example can be quantified exactly. The actual measured spans of future joists will determine their cross-sections and sizes. From all this information, a design for the flooring platform can then be practically costed and designed.

That horizontal line of levelness brought the whole structure of the house into a workable perspective. I was glad to assist and support in a decision making process. This took about four hours, more than twice as long as expected.

So that was how I got some money on this day. And a spin off from doing this – another job, in which I am to replace a door-frame and repair a door. I have always enjoyed making things, though I realise now that I have paid little attention in my life to actually making prospects for myself, much less in making prospects for others and with others in the wider world.

Tools.

The ‘spirit’ level is an interesting tool, you kind of have to move the tool itself, while relatively the bubble stays where it is, and then when the tool is positioned correctly around the bubble, then the straight edge of the tool is ‘level’. The relative ‘positioning’ of the bubble is according to the laws of physics, floating ‘upwards’ in the liquid in which it is contained; so that when neither end of the tool is further ‘up’ (or away from the centre of the planet) than the other, then the bubble remains stable between the two ends of the tool. It’s kind of ‘obvious’, or totally accepted, that when water settles into stability, that the surface plane, in small areas at least, is ‘level’. This level itself is defined by the stability of the gravitational field of the earth, which in turn is stabilized by the gravitational field of the surrounding universe.

Using level planes in combination with the L shaped right angle tool, produces the vertical ‘plumb line’, which is a line, as a weight on the end of a string, that points directly to the centre of the Earth.

These two lines, the vertical ‘plumb’, and the horizontal ‘level’ form the basic principles of the structure of buildings, reflecting the angles of maximum stability. There is a third factor in the stabilization of these two lines, which is the factor of ‘triangulation’. This triangulation is based on the geometrical property of the triangular form, which is rigidity. While a square or a rectangle can easily flop one way or the other into a parallelogram, and the lengths of the sides remain constant, a triangle cannot move like this. Hence triangulated struts give rigidity to building structures.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in times past within such considerations of my work and tools within the fabric of physical reality, put down and written into me layers of self definitions in my mind and body within polarities between the ‘cosmic’ and the ‘mundane’, that in seeing and realizing some form of ‘cosmic’ significance in the tools that I am using on a ‘mundane’ physical job of work, and projected myself into symbolic levels of sacred geometry and superimposed this ‘cosmic’ with a spiritualization and mystery of imagination, and then accepted and allowed myself to generate a ‘special’ energy from this within and as a personality of ‘specialness’, in which I have deliberately polarized myself into consciousness away from and above the physical equality of who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define and negatively judge the Earth, and hence the substance of myself, within my definition of ‘mundane’, as inferior to ‘cosmic’, as a lesser, and crude, as a gross manifestation of existence, in which polarity I have accepted and allowed myself as energy to seek a moreness experience of myself as standing in this world, not of the world, but from the standpoint of the mind within and as an idea of ‘eternity’, above the world, beyond the world, as a projection of being from some other place.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than others and for defining myself within and as inferiority in which I have enslaved myself to live in fear of experiencing myself as a measurement of my mind, and for not allowing myself to realise that in believing in such thoughts and definitions of myself that I have in fact chosen to believe in and to make real the illusions of my imagination over and above the actual reality of who I am in this physical existence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to postpone going out to find some work and hence get some money, choosing instead to live within an experience of hope that something may possibly ‘turn up’, or come to me, until the last moment almost when I realise that if I do not move myself then nothing will happen except the consequences of not having money, which is to jeopardize my ability to support my basic physical requirements to stay physically healthy and alive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to look at my actual relationship to money. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see realise and understand in how I stand within this, as postponement to move myself to get some money. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in a life of ‘sailing close to the wind’, in other words, living close to the reality of a prospect in which the boat capsizes – and to realise that this has been my relationship to the money system of the world, and it has been a relationship based on my own self interest, as a belief in who I am as an energy system of consciousness, as a brainwashed entity, dwelling in constructs of hope and self righteousness, within the mind and imagination, as an ‘artist’ or an ‘artisan’, with a finger up to the world system of money, and a finger up to my own responsibility as a part of this. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed this relationship to exist, to stand by in separation from my self while the consequence of who I am as this has accumulated and rolled and washed me up as it were upon some shore, to face the reality of this reality being what I have accepted and allowed.

I commit myself to stabilize my own reality within making prospects for myself in getting regular work and receiving money. I commit myself to the work of not only making prospects for myself to the work of making prospects for all in the world, prospects based on the fundamental human rights as defined by The Equal Life Foundation, prospects in the practical design and implementation of an Equal Money System, that reflects these rights, an economic system for all people in equality that is based on the value of Life.

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Day 209: Questions I wanted to ask myself, but did not Dare.

May 12, 2013 ~ Journey into Life ~ 1 Comment

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Day 209: Questions I wanted to ask myself, but did not Dare.

Since the emergence of Desteni, there has been a vast disclosure of knowledge and information about the specific nature of the mind, and the mechanics of consciousness, and the interdimensional history of Humanity, and yet when I consider my life in the years before Desteni, I realise that there were so many questions that I had about myself, that I could have simply just asked, could have focused on, but did not dare. And I realise now how much in relation to myself I lived as a victim to my definitions of myself, in justifying my own self judgements, and justifying the reasonings that made me apparently ‘right’ in my perspectives, my opinions, and trusting in my feelings as intuitions, while at the same time there was this point, that I brushed aside, that I did not dare to ask.

How was it that I came to justify this ongoing resistance in myself towards myself about myself? When I look at this I see an awareness of my self-dishonesty, the deceptive nature of my secret-mind, my investments in my strategies of my self-interest, and beneath all this, suppressed, the nature of this me, this implication of who therefore I am behind all this, that I dare not look on frankly, and this belief that my inner nature as a being was something that was finished and complete, something that could not be changed. And so back into the loop of being a victim to my definitions of myself, and fear of seeing myself within and as this disempowerment that I myself had chosen in preference to a realization of my responsibility, and hence the realization of this my opportunity to change.

So in not daring to ask myself, was also the fear that I might hear the answers, and through that be shown something of myself that I did not wish to see; and within this I lived as justified within my own resistance. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I could somehow ‘get by’ in this world without ever having to face myself, without ever having to face the essential nature of my decision as the relationship of me towards this world.

I forgive myself that have accepted and allowed myself to believe in this who I am in the essence of myself as a finished and completed object that cannot change, as something that just ‘happened’ to be the way it is, and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realise and understand that I myself have accepted and allowed these definitions and these judgements of myself, these experiences of energy as me, and hence that it is I myself that has written into me the nature of myself and thus accepted and allowed myself to live.

Within this definition of myself as victim, I have stood as by an image of myself within my mind in an ‘as if’ reality, ‘as if’ not responsible for who and what I have become, not seeing within this the obvious relationship I have made towards the world as a relationship of blame. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as this, and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realise the nature of myself as spite within this blame, or to really see and look upon this blame because if I did I would be forced to see my own responsibility as the instigator of this, and if I did I would be forced to turn away from my absorption in myself as victim at the centre of my self interest. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not allow myself to look upon and be aware of who I am as victim, because I have accepted and allowed myself to make judgements within my definitions of ‘victim’ as ‘less-than’, as ‘weak’, as ‘vulnerable’, as a ‘manipulator’, so that believing the judgements that I have written into my definition of ‘victim’, I have feared to experience myself as victim, and therefore suppressed from myself awareness of myself as the very relationship towards the world that I have accepted and allowed myself to be. Likewise I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to write into the word ‘blame’ negative judgements of ‘wrong doing’ so that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to experience myself as the very relationship towards the world that I have accepted and allowed myself to be. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to write this whole strategy of deliberate ignorance and non awareness of my own awareness into me to protect and defend my victimhood, as my ‘as if’ non responsibility for who I have accepted and allowed myself to be. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to come to trust the judgements of my mind as decisions that I have accepted and allowed to buttress this non awareness of myself.

While in my external world I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consent to an existence in which victimhood is sanctified as ‘human nature’, as a ‘given’, as a genetic/historic/evolutionary consequence that then apparently can’t be taken responsibility for and directed into change. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed for myself to stand and therefore all to stand as obstruction to self change. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to stand by and for and with a humanity that justifies self interest within an ignorance of self responsibility for the nature of self and therefore ignorance of ability to change.

I commit myself to walk myself to realization of who I am as life in this life this opportunity of life in physical existence. I commit myself to walk myself to realization of myself internally and externally in this world and this physical existence. I commit myself to utilize the tools of self forgiveness and self correction in the realization of my self responsibility in my being and becoming what I have accepted and allowed. I commit myself to utilize the knowledge and information that is shared by all and for all at and through Desteni and Eqafe to support myself and to support all in the best interests of all others as myself as I walk this journey out of consciousness and into life.

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Day 208: ‘Perfection’

May 8, 2013 ~ Journey into Life ~ 1 Comment

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Day 208: ‘Perfection’

I have defined this post before actually writing it out. I have realised that there is this point present about how I have defined this word ‘perfection’ as a working part of my life/energy experience, and how I have attached to it elements of ‘disdain’ as negative judgements, and so within this utilized ‘perfection’ as a station of self-righteousness in which I stand as superiority. I have realized how in retaliation towards ‘perfection’ that I have used the word and received the word as tagged with a ‘problem’ an unresolved conflict, one that I have protected and sustained, this would be the nature of a kind of ‘reserve’ as a ‘covered’ objection somewhere in the ‘back’ of my mind, like a ‘yes, but…’ in which I have accepted and allowed myself to brush over the point, and leave it to one side, so as to walk with ‘perfection’ into a future in which I am not actually present in actuality, but only in theory. Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify my positive experience of myself as ‘generous’, an aspect of this ‘superiority’, in overlooking my ‘personal’ objections and discomfort and hidden self-glory within and as my relationship to the word ‘perfection’.

As usual, opening up a point, it opens up a massive underworld of pre-established ramification and infrastructure of acceptance and allowance. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist on the superficial levels of a magical reality in which this object before me just happens to be here instantaneously in this moment as a part of this corporate consumer spiritualization religion in which there is no history, where objects have been sanitized and wiped clean of blood and tears of slaves, in which buying into this I have accepted and allowed myself as a working part of a money machine in exchange for a positively charged thrill of energy experience to entertain me in my upper echelon of slavery.

This is an aspect of the word ‘perfection’, as a part of consciousness, in which I have accepted and allowed the same relationship to words as objects in my reality, in which they are just present, magically, unquestioned, apparently without my finger prints and my responsibility, in which I have stood as separate from them, overlooking them, so as to get the thrill of energy. In this case, with the word ‘perfection’, the hidden contents are the personalized thrills of superiority and retaliation and small-print riders and disclaimers and exclusions, and hidden reservations in imaginary elitist samples of heaven in my mind consciousness existence in which I have accepted and allowed myself to over-ride the actuality of who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define ‘perfection’ in my mind in such a way that undermines my stand for world equality, my response ability to stand for the ‘perfection’ of humanity to stand upon this Earth in realization of our responsibility as life itself as the custodians of life on Earth for all beings here, united in the single purpose of organizing this existence in alignment with what is best for all, and in so doing, creating a physical actuality of Heaven on Earth.

I commit myself to root out the programs that I have accepted and allowed and written in the word ‘perfection’ through which I have accepted and allowed myself to give and to receive the word ‘perfection’ as a component of an energy reality of inevitable failure, and beingness in the world as not good enough.

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Day 207: Humanity

May 6, 2013 ~ Journey into Life ~ Leave a comment

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Within this definition of ‘humanity’ as knowledge and information, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify ideas of inequality between human beings as in myself.

‘Humanity’ – This word purified would be a useful and essential tool in questions that I need to answer of the context of who I am in this world – where the question of how do I see myself in the context of Existence as a whole – remains unanswered – and unanswerable – because my ability to embrace this point through who I am as who I have accepted and allowed myself to be is limited and confined by these definitions I have imposed on and then lived as words.

Hence the question comes as a big knock on the door, as a great support, where in response I am forced to show myself a perspective of myself as locked within my brainwashed reality of energy experience. And as I push this door I realize that it leads both inwards and outwards simultaneously, and that where I have been has been not Here.

I had a visitor to my house and noticing that when I use out loud the word ‘humanity’ that there is a catch of doubt, and uncertainty, a hesitation with using this word – and that then there must be something contained in this word, as part of the definition I have accepted and allowed designed and lived. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not question why it is that I have an experience such as this reaction in using this word in conversation, but have simply brushed it off, ignored it, and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that what I have written into this word is who I am within and as it, and therefore what it is that I communicate with using this word is this energy that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect and integrate within it, such as this doubt, this uncertainty, this hesitation concerning who I am within and as ‘humanity’, and therefore accepted and allowed for all within and as ‘humanity’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give to the word ‘humanity’ a negative charge of energy, which I see and realize that I have done because there is a hesitation and a resistance to myself that comes up in me when I speak the word to another being, in which I see that there is fear. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to generate and live an energy of fear within me in connection to the word ‘humanity’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word ‘humanity’ through accepting and allowing myself to define ‘humanity’ in energy as who I am as stored within me and when and as I speak the word.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed within me a fear of what another being might possibly think, and therefore how they possibly might see me, as I sound the word ‘humanity’ in a sentence of words as a perspective on the world that flows from this. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be defined by the judgements of others, and to fear the experience of myself that flows from this that I have accepted and allowed as real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to listen to the backchat that says, who the fuck are you to talk about, to use this word ‘humanity’? I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be moved by a fear that arises from the belief that I am not qualified to use the word ‘humanity’ – within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am not qualified, allowed by the systems, to talk about or use the word ‘humanity’ to talk about myself as the ‘humanity’ which I am.

Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define within the word ‘humanity’ that I must be expert in knowledge and information to be qualified to use the word ‘humanity’, that knowledge and information in the ‘field’ of ‘humanity’ is a requirement for me to speak about ‘humanity’. Therefore I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as knowledge and information when I have used the word ‘humanity’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than others, within not having extensive knowledge and information in the ‘field’ of ‘humanity’, I forgive myself within this that I have accepted and allowed myself as less than in the word ‘humanity’, and to thence experience myself as small as I stand in separation from myself within the word ‘humanity’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the experience I have of me when I use the word ‘humanity’ when talking to another being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as ‘not good enough’ to use the word humanity.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to use the word ‘humanity’ when talking to another being, as another example of this ‘humanity’ of which I speak; within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that in using the word ‘humanity’ that I am in ‘danger’ of breach of contract, or treading on another’s ‘rights’ of secrecy within the mutual arrangements of respect for each other’s bubbles, where there is an agreement with me and for all to ‘bump’ along within and as our personal realities, because in looking in another’s eye and using the word ‘humanity’ I am somehow including who that person really is within themselves, possibly against their will and their consent, beyond a boundary that they themselves are as yet unwilling to go, and then I see this in myself, and so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to face myself as ‘humanity’, beyond the boundaries that I myself have made as personalities of energy, where I have accepted and allowed myself to protect my own definition of myself as somehow sacred ground within my secret mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek for a more comfortable way in which I can avoid my negative experience in and as this word humanity when talking with a human being, in which I have accepted allowed myself to exclude my experience of myself and for the other to be excluded also so that what is being discussed or arranged is mutual comfortability in personal energy experience and nothing more.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear a confrontation or a competition in which it is my definition of humanity versus yours, in which I am right or wrong, and I am looking for more energy in superiority and winning. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be side tracked into energy as I attempt to communicate with others in my world and in this I commit myself to see and realize and understand that real communication has failed for the sake of my allegiance to who I am within this fear of confrontation with another being in relationship to who we are as ‘humanity’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define ‘humanity’ as if it is an abstract, as a concept or an idea of the mind, something that applies to all other beings with the exception of me, because I have accepted and allowed myself to exclude myself from closer scrutiny… and giving to myself this scrutiny, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realise and understand that a fear that I have accepted and allowed within my definition of the word ‘humanity’ is in the realization that within using this word I am in fact talking of myself directly as who I am and not as a picture in my mind of all human beings in the world outside and beyond me, therefore I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed this fear that I have put myself in the spot as this ‘humanity’ and into the realization of what I have accepted and allowed as this humanity as who I am, that I am in fact with no comprehension of this ‘humanity’ of which I speak because I have separated myself from me. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself in and as the way that I have lived and spoken this word to have promote a humanity that lives in uncertainty and doubt of its own reality in the physical existence.

Therefore I commit myself to walk this process into comprehension of myself as the physical reality of myself as ‘humanity’, and out of the consciousness imprisonment that I have lived within and as this word, in which I have accepted and allowed myself as ‘humanity’ as an image in my mind that is not Here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ‘envision’ a ‘humanity’ that exists in an existence in separation from the physical world as the Earth on which this group of us as physical beings live off the Earth, and by the providence of Earth, sustained by Earth, supported and dependent on the Earth, in an existence where there is no separated physicality.

I commit myself to see and realise and understand the nature of my responsibility in this existence as humanity, custodian of life on Earth.

I commit myself to purify this word ‘humanity’ that I have lived within my mind. I commit myself purify this word ‘humanity’, to stand within and as ‘humanity’ when I speak this word as myself in certainty of the physical reality of humanity as who I am and in certainty for all as me. I commit myself to communicate the certainty of me within and as this word humanity.

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Day 206: Hope and Futility

May 1, 2013 ~ Journey into Life ~ Leave a comment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to embody and to live as a pattern of energy awareness within my mind of superiority within belief, in relationship to the actual physical world and in separation from myself as part of this.

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Day 206: Hope and Futility

Here I continue this walk through Hope relationships that I have made and lived in which I became a passive observer, living as a belief within my mind.

Hope that floats above futility – here an energy cycle, of grasping onto a feeble positive, that can then be bolstered up and strengthened by imagination, which then becomes exhausted, and then is willingly overwhelmed by a surge of negativity, as ‘futility’, a word containing a mixture of beliefs – the inevitability of failure, and the reminder of the curse of being not good enough, the image of self as powerless to change, the wavering experience of beingness enslaved in energy, the uncontrollable relationships to feeling and emotion, and mostly fear. Hence ‘inevitability’ and ‘curse’ and ‘fate’, the programming, the consequence accepted in this loop, as if written in the book.

But then to the source of negativity itself – the fear of shame – the realization of the self that hides within this lie – controlled and manipulated with brief glimpses of the dirty deed, like a flash of the evidence that would be all that is necessary for the blackmailer to get some cash – rather than seeing the truth of self in the exposure, I have chosen to live as the energy reaction to that exposure, in systems essentially to protect me and defend me from who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself to an existence as a system of energy as a secret consciousness that stands on my belief in which I have accepted and allowed self intimacy to be unbearable.

Here is a set of physical reactions to a self judgement where I have listened to a backchat that has pierced through me very quickly, a short sharp shock, a global flash of adrenaline, a fear I have done wrong, the reality of which is apparently proven because I see it in my mind as if through the eyes of others. Yet what I am looking at is a glimpse of shame.

I know the essence of this thought – it is that what I just have expressed has not been a presentation of me, but a me that I would like to be seen as – so an accusation of falseness. And believing in this judgement of me as false, I experience me as false, with a sudden collapse of self trust, an experience of hollowness as if seeing myself from the outside –

I commit myself to when and as I experience this self attacking backchat in my mind, I stop, and I breathe, I realise that within this falseness accusation there is a truth about myself that I can access, rather than avoid or suppress or react to, the question such as what is it in this expression of myself that I am showing me that I want or do not have, do not allow myself to have. I do not accept this pattern any further where I flinch before my own reality, and take the same old path as who I am as a reaction to myself.

In these physical reactions, it’s interesting that clasping hands together, and bowing head, and clamped down the eyelids, are so much like a posture of prayer. Where the hands are like a physical comforter, and the eyes don’t wish to see, and the bowing head is like submission. In that moment of self judgement and the experience of fear of what I have defined as me, there is also this glimpse of shame. So here in this set of reactions I am abusing my physical body to protect myself from my own emotions that emerge in me, to shut out my own awareness of myself with physically ignoring what I see.

The prayer is as a wish that is based on the belief that I might be saved from this situation- which is my negative experience of myself – here is where I enter into hope and into imagination and make-believe, where there is this positive energy that I am seeking solace in. Solace – that which I am reaching for, longing for, within this prayer of hope. A sort of spiritualized comfort zone. A heaven type existence, where, if I really really really really believe it strong enough then I can make it real, this comfort, sort of basking and waiting in the positive experience of myself as energy within my mind.

After all, with enough faith, you can move mountains… and he that believes in me can have…everlasting life… etc. ( You can investigate this systemization of the Gospels in the Crucifixion of Jesus series in Eqafe.) I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to believe in believing itself as a virtue and for not seeing and realizing and understanding that I was justifying belief according to itself, and who I was within that, as virtuous, as righteous, with absolutely no connection to this physical reality.

In this image of God implanted in my mind and welcomed by me, as the ultimate example of superior force, an icon of elitism, sitting on a throne being waited on by angels, what is it that he is waiting for – some servicing of some kind? Or is it that he is sitting complacently in his own glory, giving to all the opportunity of worship while he does nothing? And similarly with the image of a saviour that will some day return, what is he waiting for – the programmed cycle of time to complete itself? – As was written in the book? These images are like accepted illustrations of the energy relationships within my mind – they are the stories that I had accepted and allowed to justify and fortify the energy of hope.

Continuing….next post

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