August 2014 – Adam's Journey Into Life

Human Rights and the Equal Life Foundation • Desteni.org • See: The Equal Life Foundation Bill of Rights Living Income Guaranteed: The Proposal

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Continuation of previous posts Day 237 and 238: Realizing and Living my Utmost Potential

I can see how abandoning trust in me, that is in accepting and allowing myself to deliberately let go of the actual truth of me here as the central reference point of my reality – at the time – seemed expedient – seemed almost like a cunning plan – where in letting go of the process of cross reference with me, seemed in my mind like a solution – I could then become the appearance of a self in line with the expectations of others in the locality of my family, such as my ‘father’, as representing my progenitrix, as the programmed path of my life where all that was required was to walk along and renounce the truth of me.

Thus within this I had accepted and allowed a state of latency – a sort of brooding experience somehow always there, behind myself – and within this I carried along with me a fear of my own potentiality that lay beyond the impositions of my ‘father’, that lay beyond the conflict of tearing me away from him, a freaky world in which I had no definition.

Were this ‘I’ that is being spoken of to be the mind of humanity itself, what then? Where tucked up safe inside, the guilt of self betrayal festers as a guarded secret, where beings peep out through the apertures of consciousness, into an experience as a world where the truth of self is inconceivable, and where actual self respect does not exist.

This is the context in which it is an astounding fact that ‘What is Best for All’ as a principle of Life and Living is kind of unheard of in the history of the world – where – considering this – suddenly a glimpse or a fragment of perspective of a brainwashed civilization for which the basic common sense of our substantial equality here with each other as beings on Earth – has been accepted and allowed as excluded, unconsciously redacted, to be written out of the scope of our reasoning. Rather than being the starting point in our discussion of where to go to from here in a quest to find solutions for all of us and for all life on Earth, instead it is denied or shunned or shrugged off by consensus.

A self responsible Humanity is absolutely unknown – this is the era in which we begin to direct the evolution of ourselves – in every detail – there are no spiritual paths, there is no programmed transcendence – I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I loosen up my bonds, then I will just somehow gravitate to where and what I was supposed to be, or to potentially become – I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to see that this belief is in itself another programming in which I have looked forward into a future comfort zone of waiting for a change to happen, that having made a little effort that I can then ‘sit back’ and let things take their course.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to look within the ‘sitting back’ and seen the physical expression of the word ‘comfort’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to gravitate towards a comfort zone as a positive energy experience within my mind, and that I have accepted and allowed myself to over ride the truth of me for the sake of this experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the loss of this experience of myself within and as this comfort zone. I Breathe. I forgive myself that I have defined the word ‘comfort’ with attached to it a positive energy experience as who I am within comfort, within which I have accepted and allowed a limitation of myself to stay within and as the mind. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be defined and to be directed by the energetic contents of this word, and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to utilize this word so as to protect and justify a positive experience as myself within and as the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in a negative energy as fear in relation to the loss of comfort, a negative experience that I have utilized to veto a decision that I have made to move myself within the physical, so that I can continue to live this word ‘comfort’ as I have accepted and allowed it to be.

I commit myself to slow myself down within my breath, and to deliberately ask this question of me of what is actually the truth of me in this moment in this situation, to give myself this gift of space for me to be here in patience and in awareness that I can deliberately step by step strengthen my self trust within this.

I commit myself to redefine the comfort that I have lived within and as – on a practical level – that checking with my physical that I am in fact relaxed – so that I can move efficiently, or rest efficiently, and checking also that in comfort I am not going into ‘sitting back’ within and as my mind for the purpose of an energy experience.

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Human Rights and the Equal Life Foundation • Desteni.org • See: The Equal Life Foundation Bill of Rights Living Income Guaranteed: The Proposal

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Day 238: Continuation of: Realising and living my utmost potential (1)

Here in this post I explore some of the issues of self sabotage that I have accepted and allowed within the principle of realizing and living my utmost potential – in which I have projected an idea of myself into a future where I believe I am already living it. By ‘Exploring these issues’ I mean also at the same time, directing them towards and in line with life as what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have existed as a personality in which I have animated and embodied a ‘future’ image of myself in my mind – and then in the physical world from this made reference to who I am as according to my intentions and plans– I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have lived for and as an experience of positive energy, not here, and not anywhere really but as a hope filled fiction of what I may be or might be or possibly become, and within this ‘may’ or ‘might’ be, positive appraisals of myself as becoming one and equal to what believe I should be, or believe I am expected to be, rather than learning how to live self forgiveness in my breath here and walk in patience the points in which I see and realize and understand that I have within them aligned myself into and as the energy rather than the physical reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within this personality react with impatience towards the actual real pace of changing the points within the physical, and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe within this that who I am within and as this personality is capable of instant change and adjustment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have utilized the energy of hope as a transitional vehicle to make a shift out of a bad feeling and into a good feeling, rather than self honestly looking at the nature of the bad feeling and seeing what its contents are, and simply walking change. Within that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear what I may or might experience through looking at the bad feeling.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become addicted to these good feeling as ‘me’, that I have therefore sought out methods of creating or initiating bad feelings in myself so as to generate this hope, and thence maintain the good feeling experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to established methods of dealing with or coping with or managing my energy reality, that I have accepted and allowed the automation of such things to the extent where I am kind of bemused or upset when a vicious backchat comes up in my mind carrying the words that, having been tested over and over again, will guarantee a bad experience of myself, like a short sharp shock that will in the course of events lead me back to hope, and back to the future.

The mergence of hope energy into the word future is complete, because how can hope exist without a future, and since the nature of hope energy is positive, a construct in my mind of ‘the future’ has become conditioned by this hope. The nature of a future in which somehow everything has become ‘alright’, in which the present reality has been transcended, without the work or effort towards it, is magical. And here is a projected reality in which ‘everything is alright’ simply according to a feeling experience in my mind without a reference to what is actually taking place as me in physical reality.

Okay so I am writing-on here, because I see realise and understand how that which I ‘might’ or ‘may’ write within my mind can only come from this imaginary placement of me from within and out of this future vision of me – where in actual reality this image of my future as who I am is far and far away from where I actually really in fact am – where having been shown the information, I have just absorbed it and integrated it in and as my mind and not walked through it for myself, but skipped that part, so that experiencing myself in physical reality interacting with the people in the world, and seeing myself in reaction to it, and to them, then I have gone into an experience of disappointment with myself, that I see myself as less than what I hoped myself to be. And so within this delivered myself into the programming of not-good-enough for me. Why delivery – because the experience that I have accepted and allowed within who I am as not-good-enough is a bad feeling – and according to this system design, just as the vicious backchat, a component in the hope and future cycle in which I eventually sign back into this suspension, or procrastination of my own reality.

There is another component to this system, which is self pity. When I lay self pity energy beside the energy of hope, they seem quite similar, they are both kind of positive and transitional, so that accepting and allowing a suddenly harsh self judgement as real, I have accepted and allowed the self pity comforting experience to bring me down, to hold me to embrace me, and within that ‘down’ experience, to foster hope.

This is where I find myself as lagging behind my self-process, somehow futuristically caught up into a reluctance to step into that which I really am here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to merge the future as a simple physical time space potentiality with an emotional experience of hope, as an aspect or zone of consciousness, in which I experience as me an imagined or idealized version of who I am. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as an emotional experience within the world of my mind.