Day 239: Self Trust Self and Latent Being
Continuation of previous posts Day 237 and 238: Realizing and Living my Utmost Potential
I can see how abandoning trust in me, that is in accepting and allowing myself to deliberately let go of the actual truth of me here as the central reference point of my reality – at the time – seemed expedient – seemed almost like a cunning plan – where in letting go of the process of cross reference with me, seemed in my mind like a solution – I could then become the appearance of a self in line with the expectations of others in the locality of my family, such as my ‘father’, as representing my progenitrix, as the programmed path of my life where all that was required was to walk along and renounce the truth of me.
Thus within this I had accepted and allowed a state of latency – a sort of brooding experience somehow always there, behind myself – and within this I carried along with me a fear of my own potentiality that lay beyond the impositions of my ‘father’, that lay beyond the conflict of tearing me away from him, a freaky world in which I had no definition.
Were this ‘I’ that is being spoken of to be the mind of humanity itself, what then? Where tucked up safe inside, the guilt of self betrayal festers as a guarded secret, where beings peep out through the apertures of consciousness, into an experience as a world where the truth of self is inconceivable, and where actual self respect does not exist.
This is the context in which it is an astounding fact that ‘What is Best for All’ as a principle of Life and Living is kind of unheard of in the history of the world – where – considering this – suddenly a glimpse or a fragment of perspective of a brainwashed civilization for which the basic common sense of our substantial equality here with each other as beings on Earth – has been accepted and allowed as excluded, unconsciously redacted, to be written out of the scope of our reasoning. Rather than being the starting point in our discussion of where to go to from here in a quest to find solutions for all of us and for all life on Earth, instead it is denied or shunned or shrugged off by consensus.
A self responsible Humanity is absolutely unknown – this is the era in which we begin to direct the evolution of ourselves – in every detail – there are no spiritual paths, there is no programmed transcendence – I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I loosen up my bonds, then I will just somehow gravitate to where and what I was supposed to be, or to potentially become – I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to see that this belief is in itself another programming in which I have looked forward into a future comfort zone of waiting for a change to happen, that having made a little effort that I can then ‘sit back’ and let things take their course.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to look within the ‘sitting back’ and seen the physical expression of the word ‘comfort’.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to gravitate towards a comfort zone as a positive energy experience within my mind, and that I have accepted and allowed myself to over ride the truth of me for the sake of this experience.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the loss of this experience of myself within and as this comfort zone. I Breathe. I forgive myself that I have defined the word ‘comfort’ with attached to it a positive energy experience as who I am within comfort, within which I have accepted and allowed a limitation of myself to stay within and as the mind. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be defined and to be directed by the energetic contents of this word, and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to utilize this word so as to protect and justify a positive experience as myself within and as the mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in a negative energy as fear in relation to the loss of comfort, a negative experience that I have utilized to veto a decision that I have made to move myself within the physical, so that I can continue to live this word ‘comfort’ as I have accepted and allowed it to be.
I commit myself to slow myself down within my breath, and to deliberately ask this question of me of what is actually the truth of me in this moment in this situation, to give myself this gift of space for me to be here in patience and in awareness that I can deliberately step by step strengthen my self trust within this.
I commit myself to redefine the comfort that I have lived within and as – on a practical level – that checking with my physical that I am in fact relaxed – so that I can move efficiently, or rest efficiently, and checking also that in comfort I am not going into ‘sitting back’ within and as my mind for the purpose of an energy experience.
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