Day 434: A Simple Loophole in the Plan of Consciousness

Sharing here first a couple of extracts from the recordings, and then some openings that subsequently came to me unfolding self forgiveness statements after listening to two recent Eqafe Life Reviews: Consciousness Shift and the Death of the Physical, and Programming and the Physical.

These recordings come through the Portal spoken by a being recently passed over – a being that had during his time on Earth a super evolved consciousness – now shares with us how drastically the physical reality had been missed: through how he had defined his body, through how the words through which he’d made these definitions had upheld through his life his separation from himself and so from direct relationship to physical reality.

“The point that I am making throughout this entire recording is that there is no programming, no relationship that is interfering so much with your relationship with your physical body with real-time moments – with what is real in a moment as an experience within yourself. The only programming that’s interfered with anyone having a relationship with their physical bodies… are the bad the ugly the nasty thoughts and inner experiences and emotions that you have with your relationship with your body and this physical existence…

“…Surely, the Creators of existence didn’t want beings to have relationship with the physical bodies, because the physical bodies being the source, the life source of consciousness, of the mind, didn’t want an equal and one relationship between the being and the physical body, because if that equality and oneness would merge there would be a power surge that would happen on very deep levels within the being/body relationship and the power would therefore go essentially go to the beingness and the body, and that’s not what the creators wanted. They wanted power to go to the Mind Consciousness System. So they, rather than in any way creating relationships between the being and the body, instead, they further evolved the Mind Consciousness System: they were afraid that if they even programmed relationships between the being and the body, that those relationships could be altered and changed by the body itself or by the beingness itself on some deep level. They just instead created – no relationships – and just ensured absolute separation between the being and the body, by evolving the Mind Consciousness System. So what this means: you’ve actually got direct access to a relationship with your physical body, direct access. But what is overcomplicating it is your relationship with your Mind Consciousness System – is not even allowing you to see it. “

“…So the more difficult you are finding it to be more aware and present with your breathing, with your body, the substance and the feel of the physical, really resting in the evening, being able to have a pace in which you live in your everyday life moments – it’s simply a cross-reference of the extent to which you are still channeled into a relationship with your Mind Consciousness System.”

(Extracts from Programming and the Physical.)

When I asked myself: What is my relationship to my body? These words, ‘It’s a sack of shit’, came into my awareness:

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed this thought to exist within me, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed this thought to define my relationship with my body, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed this separation to exist, to interfere with my access to a direct relationship with my physical body. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed a relationship to my mind within this thought, that I have chosen an interpretation of disgust, an experience from a programmed judgement and a posture of superiority, I forgive myself that I have chosen and accepted a programmed version of reality instead of a relationship to my physical body. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be content with an emotional relationship about my physical body in place of a relationship that is direct and real. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed this definition of ‘a sack of shit’ to exist within me. I forgive myself that having accepted and allowed this definition of my body, that I have then accepted and allowed myself to use the body as a sack of shit, allowing it to be constantly overwhelmed by all the shit that I am busy thinking in my mind and all the excitement and conflict of emotion that I generate through that thinking that I then accept and allow myself to suppress and hide within it. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed a bullshit answer from some thought within my mind to a question I have asked myself that is genuine and real. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed in consequence to listening to this backchat of my mind that I have accepted and allowed the experience of giving up on asking further: believing in this ‘sack of shit’ response I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear what I might find. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed reluctance in myself to look at how I’ve used the physical as a dumping ground of secret shit. I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to question this. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my body as an organ of suppression for the convenience of who I am as channeled through the programs of my mind. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the body for not being good enough to suit my expectations as and in my mind, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the body that it cannot meet the extent of my intentions as and in my mind. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed a background normality in my relationship to the body of blame and irritation. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed a normality for me in my relationship to the physical world of my body in which I am separated from it. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in my own assumed superiority as the mind towards the body, in which I have accepted and allowed myself to respect the body as my vehicle, or as my slave, or as my property, and yet not respect or consider my body as a life, a living world, the source of life that gives to me this physical existence. I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to consider that in walking out of consciousness there is nowhere else to turn to but to the source of life within me.

 

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Day 433: Redefining the word Live (6)

…continuing from previous post:

The Value of Life is Life! And yet if I have defined Life according to the perceived limitation of Death, then Value itself is harnessed and compromised, and limited the same. Increments of something infinite are also infinite, therefore the value of a single moment of Life – is immeasurable – but shifted into minutes and seconds and degrees, it is an increment of limitation shadowed by Death.

If my heart sinks at the prospect of the underlying meanings of Defeat, and the depths of programming that established its existence, then to where might it expand in the realization of the unlimited nature of Value itself, this word that came into existence without condition, without constraints. What sort of difference to my existence could I make for me if I were to purify this word for me, to really take it in to me, to own this word, to thoroughly become this word, to have it in the starting point of me?

So, something new for me, in the process of redefining Live, an experiment: isolating the element of Value in my imagination, and checking in with me throughout the day from time to time the effects of having Value present. Isolate: because the word has always been for me attached to other elements, never just as is. Something that I have found so far is it is very energetic, in the sense of wanting to jump up and do things. Looking at this, I realise how much I have in my complacence of acceptance and allowance also accepted and allowed preprogrammed Value, pre-attached to things.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to shift into experiences through feelings, and thence into decisions of doing things and not doing things, where I believe that therefore I must feel a certain way because programs in my mind dictate if Value is attached or not.

 

 

Here are some references to current Eqafe recordings that have supported me in these points:

Death Defeatism and Life

What Dimensional Beings see of the Physical

Money Energy and Your Creative Force

 

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Day 432: Redefining the word Live (5)

When in January this year the word Defeat came up in various series of the Eqafe recordings: What went down in me? – The word itself in my mind seemed to throw ahead a daunting shadow, and with a sinking feeling in me – I recognized that signature of something I’d accepted long ago as part of me, it carried with it a solemnity, like news of death, of something irreversible – and I did not want to listen to the interviews.

Instead I went with the imaginary fears that told me I did not want to hear the details of the autopsy, the reports of the post mortem, I did not want to hear reminders of this thing that I’d accepted, and defined into my existence long ago, and so by implication it was also like: “Let me overlook this fact of part of me I’ve lost. “ Or else, “It’s too late now to summon up the energy to undo this thing I’ve lived so long…” Where in both these statements I wearily reiterate expressions of who I am within and as Defeat.

So an interesting insight here for me, that in redefining Live I find the Courage to look into these feelings that came up in me in connection with Defeat, from the perspective that this word too I had defined into and as a part of Live, and through that became determined to live it out. In redefining Live I am more focused on the nature of the spark, whereas in a perspective of Defeat, the downer was that Life had gone.

Checking out the etymology of the word Defeat, a bare and simple horror opened up, partly that a word exists for this, and partly where the meanings of the word originate: with who I am in Life, as undone, not do, not is.

Defeat was in that point I was looking into a couple of Journey Days back when in a moment that I did not take myself for real, but took instead my own reality as dispensable in some way or another, and so going into that familiar complacency of me – as an expression of a lesser self – here is an example of a momentary little giving-up that in a life of repetitions accumulates into and becomes established as acceptance of Defeat.

Going into that moment I can see I face the choice of standing up for me or not, and in that habitual not, letting it slide into the streamlining of all the well oiled justifications – that was all together my belief in me as my sincerity – in being reasonable, considerate of others, though not of me – together as – that lesser self of me – but looking at the moment of the timeline where the choice was there – I realise now that I did not see it as a choice at all but as a reminder of an unwelcome fact, a fatal snag about the fact of being me, that place in me that I would always come to, and then quickly find excuses not to stay, to not look into closely.

Talking with someone who had also faced such moments, they told me this: that they had found a sort of irritation with themselves that grew and grew and had become a great support for them. That was where my ears pricked up: that in all of this there might be a solution for me, the possibility of being irritated with myself, like I could Do with some of that!

Some Self Forgiveness statements with reference to these points:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed Defeat as written into who I am in Life, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Live Defeat.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to look at how I live, have lived, the word Defeat, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to look at how I have accepted and allowed Defeat. I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to recognize that acceptance of Defeat within my life is an expression of how I have defined my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become resigned towards my limitations, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to turn a blind eye to my responsibility within my acceptance and allowance of this resignation, till the point where I just perceive the feelings of the disempowerment, interpreting it in my mind as just part of who I am. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed ‘just part of who I am’ as an excuse inside myself so that I do not have to push myself to expand myself and open up my own potentiality, and take the risk of change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live within and as a corrupted form of Care, in which I have embodied a personality of Care that takes all beings around me in my life into consideration with the exception of the reality of the self of me; I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe within this that my Care was real, and within and as that reality, that who I saw myself as being was also real. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed as this caring character to be quietly getting away with constant self neglect and self ignorance, and self abuse, as a way of smoothing out relationships in my outside world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed a way of life in which I allow myself to get away with my own bullshit, underneath the guise of this bullshit Care. I forgive myself that I have accepted who I am as an expression of this bullshit. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed living in this way for me to then be allowing and accepting a level of this ‘getting away with it’ in others around me in my life, being tolerant as a personality, finding reasons excuses and justifications for them all as an extension of this faked up Care. I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to see realise and understand how within this I am responsible for spinning and maintaining the structures of the Matrix.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed for my definition of Care to include covering up for other people in my life, overlooking bullshit when I see it, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in fear of a future event in my imagination in which being direct with other people will cause reactions back on me in which I too am challenged in my bullshit. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being direct with people in my life. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to express actual Care in being direct. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed around me of one and all together swiftly moving on.

I commit myself to challenge these fears that I have accepted and allowed in me in all these matters, where I have accepted these configurations of Defeat as part of Live and Life.

I commit myself to foster if I can this hint of irritation at myself on the ground of my reality amongst the play of different characters and personalities, because I see and realise and understand that this letting myself get away, to nowhere, with it has formed a somnambulating way of being, where I have not learned to put my foot down with myself and take the risk of causing friction with these personalities.

I commit myself to learn from these bare bones of the etymology of the word Defeat, that I can utilize them with my redefinition of Live, with taking the opportunity presented by the physical existence, with instead of Self as Defeat, as undone, not do, not is, to change me to Self as Feat, as Fact, as Deed, as Made, as Do, as Done, as Is.

 

 

Here are some Eqafe references and support to the opening up and walking of the word Defeat:

Kryon: The Acceptance of Self Defeat

              Defeat is me Versus Life is Me

  Atlanteans: Self and the Nature of Defeat 

                        From Defeat to Independence

                         Defeat: Your Voice of Sounding Strength

                         Sounding Self Forgiveness For Defeat

                         Defeat: Making the Self Forgiveness Real

Quantum Systemization:

                          The Design of Defeat

                           Defeat: Practical Support

 

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