Sharing here first a couple of extracts from the recordings, and then some openings that subsequently came to me unfolding self forgiveness statements after listening to two recent Eqafe Life Reviews: Consciousness Shift and the Death of the Physical, and Programming and the Physical.
These recordings come through the Portal spoken by a being recently passed over – a being that had during his time on Earth a super evolved consciousness – now shares with us how drastically the physical reality had been missed: through how he had defined his body, through how the words through which he’d made these definitions had upheld through his life his separation from himself and so from direct relationship to physical reality.
“The point that I am making throughout this entire recording is that there is no programming, no relationship that is interfering so much with your relationship with your physical body with real-time moments – with what is real in a moment as an experience within yourself. The only programming that’s interfered with anyone having a relationship with their physical bodies… are the bad the ugly the nasty thoughts and inner experiences and emotions that you have with your relationship with your body and this physical existence…
“…Surely, the Creators of existence didn’t want beings to have relationship with the physical bodies, because the physical bodies being the source, the life source of consciousness, of the mind, didn’t want an equal and one relationship between the being and the physical body, because if that equality and oneness would merge there would be a power surge that would happen on very deep levels within the being/body relationship and the power would therefore go essentially go to the beingness and the body, and that’s not what the creators wanted. They wanted power to go to the Mind Consciousness System. So they, rather than in any way creating relationships between the being and the body, instead, they further evolved the Mind Consciousness System: they were afraid that if they even programmed relationships between the being and the body, that those relationships could be altered and changed by the body itself or by the beingness itself on some deep level. They just instead created – no relationships – and just ensured absolute separation between the being and the body, by evolving the Mind Consciousness System. So what this means: you’ve actually got direct access to a relationship with your physical body, direct access. But what is overcomplicating it is your relationship with your Mind Consciousness System – is not even allowing you to see it. “
“…So the more difficult you are finding it to be more aware and present with your breathing, with your body, the substance and the feel of the physical, really resting in the evening, being able to have a pace in which you live in your everyday life moments – it’s simply a cross-reference of the extent to which you are still channeled into a relationship with your Mind Consciousness System.”
(Extracts from Programming and the Physical.)
When I asked myself: What is my relationship to my body? These words, ‘It’s a sack of shit’, came into my awareness:
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed this thought to exist within me, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed this thought to define my relationship with my body, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed this separation to exist, to interfere with my access to a direct relationship with my physical body. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed a relationship to my mind within this thought, that I have chosen an interpretation of disgust, an experience from a programmed judgement and a posture of superiority, I forgive myself that I have chosen and accepted a programmed version of reality instead of a relationship to my physical body. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be content with an emotional relationship about my physical body in place of a relationship that is direct and real. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed this definition of ‘a sack of shit’ to exist within me. I forgive myself that having accepted and allowed this definition of my body, that I have then accepted and allowed myself to use the body as a sack of shit, allowing it to be constantly overwhelmed by all the shit that I am busy thinking in my mind and all the excitement and conflict of emotion that I generate through that thinking that I then accept and allow myself to suppress and hide within it. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed a bullshit answer from some thought within my mind to a question I have asked myself that is genuine and real. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed in consequence to listening to this backchat of my mind that I have accepted and allowed the experience of giving up on asking further: believing in this ‘sack of shit’ response I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear what I might find. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed reluctance in myself to look at how I’ve used the physical as a dumping ground of secret shit. I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to question this. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my body as an organ of suppression for the convenience of who I am as channeled through the programs of my mind. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the body for not being good enough to suit my expectations as and in my mind, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the body that it cannot meet the extent of my intentions as and in my mind. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed a background normality in my relationship to the body of blame and irritation. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed a normality for me in my relationship to the physical world of my body in which I am separated from it. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in my own assumed superiority as the mind towards the body, in which I have accepted and allowed myself to respect the body as my vehicle, or as my slave, or as my property, and yet not respect or consider my body as a life, a living world, the source of life that gives to me this physical existence. I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to consider that in walking out of consciousness there is nowhere else to turn to but to the source of life within me.
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