Day 234: Conflict in Expression

Human Rights and the Equal Life Foundation  •  Desteni.org  • See: The Equal Life Foundation Bill of Rights    Living Income Guaranteed: The Proposal

 

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Day 234: Conflict in Expression

 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in anxiety reactions in my mind, rather than staying with and as me here in breath.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to shift into anxiety as I am about to start writing, and then to shift into a positive projection of myself as a personality of who I ought to should or might or may be impersonating to represent myself.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate from me and become possessed by a personality made of qualities that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I ought to, should might or may be have or want to have.

 

I forgive myself that having accepted and allowed myself to shift into and to embody this personality creation, that have then created for myself an inner reality consisting of who I am as that which I have positively judged, admired, or been awed at.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as this personality to then have a purpose in existence of gathering, initiating, activating energy as an experience within the confines of my mind.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become the manifestation of this purpose within and as the physical written expression.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself within and as this personality to seek out and scan for opportunities for creation of or experience of positive energies or else to utilize positive judgements so as to create positive energy experience in my mind.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to the physical fact of writing me.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to slip into impatience with myself when I am in a place or situation such as in this writing.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to generate a fear within this personality, a fear of the actual reality of the physical world, to fear the processes of real response, the processes of cross-reference.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within and as this positive projection of me personality, to fear not getting the specific kinds of energy that the qualities of this personality require.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to through making attachments of positive to words that I equally accepted and allowed a negative underworld to exist.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to generate back chats of negative responses and judgements of me, and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in them, and to react to them, and within and as that reaction, giving up on me.

 

 

Continues 

 

 

 

Creation’s Journey to Life : Day 503: Zero-Point and Other Points – Evilution – Part 1

Heaven’s Journey to Life:  Relationships and Death Day 481

EQAFE:

http://www.facebook.com/groups/journeytolife/

Here are the instructions to the process of accessing our life-force, our beingness, our physical bodies and walking through the mind and consciousness.

EQAFE: ‘The Crucifixion of Jesus’, has been a great support to me because hear within these interviews, presented through the Portal, the actual teachings of Jesus, rather than the ones that were to be, after his death, tweaked and twisted into the four approved versions of his life as the Gospels. How the political message of Equality and the reality of Equality and Oneness were skewed into a religious mantra so as to suit the interests of the system.

The Quantum Mind

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Day 233: Wrong and Guilt

Human Rights and the Equal Life Foundation  •  Desteni.org  • 

See: The Equal Life Foundation Bill of Rights

Living Income Guaranteed: The Proposal

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Day 233: Wrong and Guilt

 

 

Ok so continuing from Opening Wrong, the previous post – the word wrong connected to the sense of having lost control in a hostile environment – hostile because of my own hostility towards it, in separation from it , this movement forward of or advances of my imperial interests in energy resources – and within this all – awareness of my crimes against humanity, the crime against self – *enshrined – *protected – in *unforgiveability – where really it is a fact that I have attacked reality – but rather than seeing this and facing it and questioning it – I have resorted to guilt, and participated in the feeling bad experience and self pity.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see or be aware of this pattern in which a short sharp activation of the word wrong as a violent self attack, an immediate *denial, then activates the guilt and prepares the way into the transition of diminishment into the self pity, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed this pattern to exist within the dimensions of the word wrong.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the emotion of guilt to the word wrong. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience guilt within the word wrong.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to utilize patterns of guilt within the judgement of myself as ‘wrong’ and focus my attention on the energy experience of this wrong – rather than to question what is the reference of this, what is it that I am accepting and allowing to be done, is it in alignment to the real reality of equality and oneness – if not so I commit myself to change, to change the pattern of it, re–align it. I commit myself to re-define wrong from out of values of energy in the mind to have practical reference to physical reality. Within this I redefine wrong also as an imperative to change.

 

I commit myself to withdraw my focus from the energy in wrong, and to remove it, realign it with the physical.

 

[Some words that have come up here: *enshrined – that is like a little housing for a statue of a god – I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the elements of a network of religious energy values to connect into the word wrong.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to set above me an image of myself as *unforgiveable whereas in reality I am holding onto the experience of guilt and fear of my responsibility in this – I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that this real forgiveness I am withholding from myself.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word unforgiveable into the word wrong and to define them both in negative energy

 

Another word: *protected – I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to self manipulate myself within the deception of ‘being (that is) protected’ – without self responsibility – when what I am accepting and allowing myself to be determined in is protection of the energy and protection of the fear, and protection of the guilt experience, with its seeds of hope, as future positive experience.

 

And: *denial – I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word denial – into and as No – to the word wrong. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make a nexus of constructs of denial within the word wrong. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in negative energy to a *glimpse of who I am within and as wrong. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect to No a placeholder for some required justification or excuse.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to the word No and to take it personally, and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realise and understand that this personality activation is a system of energy values that I have accepted and allowed within and connected to the word wrong, and that as a consequence of this my experience is determined by this energy.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to superiorize myself to existence in positive energy within the choice to deny reality, to deny all and everything if necessary in the service of self interest, and consciousness survival, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed such a point to exist within me as me within the word no connected to the word wrong.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define no as a self justified last bastion of defence. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed no to stand on its own without reference to anything, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed within the word no a finalized judgement.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react as no connected to wrong as a whole system throughout my physical both as the shockwaves of the intense judgement and the following positive diminishments of self pity.

 

And a *glimpse: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to set a limitation on my awareness of my self, and to have justified this with accepted fear – a *glimpse of who I am as wrong – is this a vision of me within a total experience of absolute self hatred – a sort of inverted revulsion – and within this glimpse only, a fear of this experience. ]

 

 

Continuing into the content of the word wrong coming next …

 

 

 

Creation’s Journey to Life : Day 503: Zero-Point and Other Points – Evilution – Part 1

Heaven’s Journey to Life:  Relationships and Death Day 481

EQAFE:

http://www.facebook.com/groups/journeytolife/

Here are the instructions to the process of accessing our life-force, our beingness, our physical bodies and walking through the mind and consciousness.

EQAFE: ‘The Crucifixion of Jesus’, has been a great support to me because hear within these interviews, presented through the Portal, the actual teachings of Jesus, rather than the ones that were to be, after his death, tweaked and twisted into the four approved versions of his life as the Gospels. How the political message of Equality and the reality of Equality and Oneness were skewed into a religious mantra so as to suit the interests of the system.

The Quantum Mind

This series is for a serious student that cares about LIFE and endeavour to understand how creation functions in fact and in specific detail.

The FREE DIP LITE Course available to All  – simply sign up and start- http://lite.desteniiprocess.com/ This is a powerful free introduction to real self-exploration, and self realisation using the Desteni tools, with online support. This really is an opportunity of a life time.

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Day 232: Opening the word ‘wrong’.

Human Rights and the Equal Life Foundation  •  Desteni.org  • 

See: The Equal Life Foundation Bill of Rights

Living Income Guaranteed: The Proposal

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Day 232: Opening the word ‘wrong’.

 

Expectations – I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that when I project expectations onto myself from others, as in relationships – I go into processes of defining who I am to be, or what I am to represent in place of me – to meet those expectations – that – if I behave like this or that, then they or the other will behave like this or that, and through this deception, I will get what I want.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see how in this I have accepted and allowed a design of control to manage the relationship, and how in this I have protected myself from the fear of loss that then effectively remains suppressed within it – fear of loss generated within the belief that who I am, the ‘real’ me, is not good enough, not acceptable, not worthy, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within these beliefs and judgements.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realise how believing in these wants, this lackingness, is the result of this rejection of myself by me in which I have decided to not rather instead give to me these things, but have sought them in relationships so as to get them, to fulfil these needs that I myself have abdicated my own responsibility for creating.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear experiencing the definitions of myself that I have accepted and allowed, as not good enough, not acceptable, not worthy, and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself through this accepted fear to have held onto and to have developed and evolved a positive projection of myself, a simulation of myself, an act, a personality, as an energy solution as a set of expectations of me that I then project into my relations with others.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself within and as this systemized relationship design to have accepted and allowed myself to be somewhere in the background of my own life.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself within and as this systemized relationship to have abused other beings in my life, not seeing them, not meeting them but manipulating and controlling them as energy resources.

 

It is within these realisations of aspects of who I really am within relationships that I start to see the significance in my mind of the word ‘wrong’. How it is that in routine scans by consciousness of the day’s events, that in sudden starts and realisations – that I might have said or done something ‘wrong’ – that I might have exposed some secret aspect of the real me – I see and realise and understand how it is that the word wrong has accumulated such a charge of negative energy to it, how it is that the word wrong might function as a useful tool of energy extraction within the mechanisms of this consciousness.

 

I see and realise also how it is that there is a tendency like a current within myself when I am tired and exhausted of the positive energy experience setting-up of me being this image of myself that is not me, that brings me back into a base line negative experience of myself, steered and guided with negative self judgements as back chats, internal conversations, imaginations, all steering in the same general direction of self diminishment, towards this ultimate experience of me as wrong.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself in fearing the collapse of my fabrications of lies and self deceptions that I have not seen or realized that within this fear I am both within and as a personality as this fragmentation experience of energy, in fear of its survival, in fear of losing its existence. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect into the word wrong a fear of non existence, and thus defined wrong into an absolute in which there appears to be no limit to the fear.

To be continued…

 

Creation’s Journey to Life : Day 503: Zero-Point and Other Points – Evilution – Part 1

Heaven’s Journey to Life:  Relationships and Death Day 481

EQAFE:

http://www.facebook.com/groups/journeytolife/

Here are the instructions to the process of accessing our life-force, our beingness, our physical bodies and walking through the mind and consciousness.

EQAFE: ‘The Crucifixion of Jesus’, has been a great support to me because hear within these interviews, presented through the Portal, the actual teachings of Jesus, rather than the ones that were to be, after his death, tweaked and twisted into the four approved versions of his life as the Gospels. How the political message of Equality and the reality of Equality and Oneness were skewed into a religious mantra so as to suit the interests of the system.

The Quantum Mind

This series is for a serious student that cares about LIFE and endeavour to understand how creation functions in fact and in specific detail.

The FREE DIP LITE Course available to All  – simply sign up and start- http://lite.desteniiprocess.com/ This is a powerful free introduction to real self-exploration, and self realisation using the Desteni tools, with online support. This really is an opportunity of a life time.

FIND OUT WHAT DESTENI STANDS FOR