Day 306: How Responsibility gets a Bad Name.



It was like a turning point in my life when I was forced to consider who I am in relation to responsibility. I mean when I first came across the Desteni Material in all its many forms, the point of self-responsibility, those two words together, sort of dawned into my awareness, representing like a vital key to my whole experience of being here in this world, like a stable bridge from a reality projection of myself as a spectator, to the world of a participant, towards being deliberately responsible in becoming a living awareness. And yet seeing, realizing and understanding this to be the case, the word ‘responsibility’ remained in some way polluted in my mind with a negative charge: it seemed in some way like a burden or as a bitter pill, or else like the hot seat, or even, the dock, containing like the validation of my criminality. Something that I had not considered within all this was the nature of the cultural soil from which I had sprouted, the framework of reality presented by the media, by the education systems, by the testaments and scriptures, by the consciousness systems of my parents and the generations that went before: that I grew up in the midst of this, absorbing the examples of it all, examples of a culture coming out of a starting point of blame, that when things went wrong there was always the reaction of a pointed finger, a being to be targeted, diminished, or punished. Validating that ‘it was not my fault’ I learned to use the resources of my imagination to play the game, concoct excuses, and deflect the blame elsewhere. It was as if I had willingly inherited a structure for me to live within that was specially designed to deny and suppress responsibility. Who I am as the bad one in the blame target as the one responsible is how literally responsibility gets a bad name. I forgive myself, seeing how I am responsible, and within and as that responsibility for the programs I have subscribed to, and written and elaborated in my mind, that then I can choose to change these things that trigger how I live and how I experience myself, that is in forgiveness giving back to me I live responsibility and chose here to deliberately change my self conditioning that I have accepted and allowed as real. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to validate blame, by accepting and allowing that who I am is bad as the target of blame. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed this mind value of ‘bad’ as something real, that I have connected it into who I am as a living reality. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the word responsibility to exist within me as an energetic entity, as a trigger of reaction. Therefore I continue to walk this process of releasing myself from the spells of words that I have accepted and allowed as components of my mind, and with the word responsibility I continue to clear the word, as new layers within it become apparent to me, or are shown to me.


It is not only for me in the sense of this singularity, but for me in the wider sense – of everyone as me – that is also swept up in this exact same consciousness: to deliberately walk out of it – and share how this can be done – and through this spread the realization that in common sense it must be done; our self directed walk into awareness, in which seeing how all exist within the same Mind Consciousness, then all steps shared expand as ripples outward. For those who can now allow themselves to investigate the practicalities of this walk out of consciousness and into living awareness and what this means, and for those who are actively doing this, and need support: Come to Desteni.


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Day 305: The Support of Life Reviews



“ Essentially I never bothered to question or introspect or investigate within and throughout my life, because I was under the impression that you are who you are, that’s kind of what your fate is within and throughout your life, and you’ve got to make do with who you are.” From: Life Review, Can Your Emotions Change Your Body?. “It was like, this was me – this is how I am experiencing myself – therefore – this is me.”


Anyone who has given to themselves the opportunity to listen to and hear the Life Reviews on Eqafe will have had many self realisations. Even though each of us is unique, the systems that we adapt to and elaborate and personalize in our lives as layers of consciousness – in this shared environment of the Earth – are often similar – so that in the instance of a sharing of how it is with one being will often be evoked a realization in another – and a new perspective of one’s own life will then facilitate an opening, an expansion, an understanding, a solution – and so by extension of sharing – a faster process of self realization for everyone.


Here is an example of this: it was through the sharing of a being of their Life Review that I realized that in my life also I had existed in and as the exact same supposition – derived from an impression – I realized and remembered how it was that I had accepted and allowed the thought to persist within me – a belief – that I am just what I experience myself to be, and therefore must, will have to, somehow, make-do with that.


How did this play out for me in subsequent creations of relationships to aspects of myself? In for example being susceptible to being overwhelmed by emotional energies, I instituted systems of control and repression and tension in my physical body, and breath, and ways and means to avoid situations in which I might cause conflict, because, in conflict such as a spark of anger suddenly expanding throughout me, in which I would lose control, and then according to my memories, my history of experience, then be crushed or shouted down, and then in judgements, become defined as unacceptable, a process in which my own anger resulted in the destruction of relationships of the respect of my friends, and me experiencing myself as – in the eyes of the world and then me – as unacceptable. What grew out of this – what was it – a sort of existential horror in a way – that such a thing could, and seemingly did, exist. And so because of this belief I tiptoed around in my life, in a way, being careful not to wake such energies inside me, while at the same time believing in this core of unacceptability as the finished ‘what I am’ that I must ‘make do’ with – being fated thus – and that I must therefore make it secret and hide it.


There were many consequential issues and points and eventually systems and patterns of thought and behaviour that spilled from this belief: decisions that I made based on the belief that I am just what I experience myself to be; it was from out of this foundation that I then justified an approach to my own life that included and protected this belief as-if reality about myself, and this approach included strategies of avoidance of myself as life, so that, given the situation, I could get along, somehow. Looking at this I can see how little room I gave myself between my awareness of myself and my awareness of my experience of emotion, there was no room for stepping back, there was no room for a sense of agency within it all and there was no room for a question to be opened up, and unfolded. Instead there was my acceptance of a binding into and as the current experience that was provided for essentially by this belief.





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