Human Rights and the Equal Life Foundation • Desteni.org • See: The Equal Life Foundation Bill of Rights Living Income Guaranteed: The Proposal
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Day 235: Liking and not liking as tags of me
This is about understanding what the game is, and who I am within and as the game – specifically – the game of ‘liking’ this or that – my tendency to by any means – make myself feel better – and within feelings being a positive energy – the tendency to – to what – to remain and to become and be defined by feeling energy. My ability to do such things at the centre of this game is the actual power dynamic that I have lived as me, believing in this game, living it, immersed in it, not seeing it for what it is, but seeing it through the medium of itself – so that even formulating these words ‘I’ ‘would’ ‘like’ it to be clear – within this ‘would’ word, a positivized future where I have seen clearly through the games, and have my feet on firm ground in an imagined ‘actual’ reality, a future where the writing of it out is simply easy and unobstructed, uncluttered by resistances and reactions to my words, my sentences – where within the game, I see myself again within the positivizations that I have attached a feel-good as an expression of my power to finding a solution to myself – so that even in seeing the game for what it is, I continue to play it.
And seeing my writing as the expression of the solution that I have already reached within this ‘future’, I then abandon it – because I do not get the essential good feeling – that I have defined with ‘self realization’ – but what do I get instead but a multiplicity of realizations that do not fit together, a multiplicity of reactions – where each sentence gets abandoned in the middle, as if I have opened up again Pandora’s Box – and the projected solution of the end of the sentence, where the sentence simply ends, and the meaning is contained within it, finished, clear, a simple statement seems impossible. Thus I make my entrance mid-sentence into scrambled interference, distraction, and diffusion, and into the negatives of giving up on myself where gradually I develop hope of finding another angle, like a new pathway into the investigation that does not lead into a dead-end.
Okay I see what I have done here is to write out a little of the drama that plays out in the sentence writing process. I remind myself that this is neither ‘wrong’ as in not the point, irrelevant, nor, cool as in positivity, that I have had a realization of what is going on – that I have seen something in myself – that I have made some ‘progress’ – defined as ‘good’ – that I have succeeded in demonstrating to myself that intimacy with myself is possible – that – yippee, hope for ‘me’ exists – but instead of these obsessive or automatic relationship connections with energy – I stay within the matter-of-fact-ness of looking at, seeing what it is, or seeing some of what it is, a part of it. Yes, self intimacy is possible – not to throw a party over this – but to breathe instead – this world of physical breath within and as a part of physical reality is a different world, a world I do not know, a world in which I do not know myself, a world in which there is no reference to the experience of me as energy-power to make-feel-good within my mind – in the world of energy experience this unfamiliar neutral place is like a nothingness.
Continues
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