Day 308: The word: Righteous

•May 12, 2016 • Leave a Comment

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Day 308: The word: Righteous

 

The unnoticed and hence unquestioned cramping and distortion of the scope of words in our life plays a big part in depth of communications in the world, and hence in world conflict, world insanity, world incoherence. Seeing that this is a reflection of the consciousness within me that I have accepted and allowed to stand in compliance and conformity with the consciousness of the mainline of the world, the task is here to open up the nature of the consciousness that is contained within the word, and bring questions to it, strengthening ourselves as we learn to stand within and as the question, the last question in the programmed world: Who Am I in relation to this: and what have I accepted and allowed myself to be within this?

 

So many words I gathered up and absorbed and accepted into me as I walked the gridlines, as it were, without a critical perspective, and then went forward into life using these words that I had gathered up as tools of my reality, as found within me, in ‘making do’ with who I found myself to be within them, as part of them, and using them within me in constructions of reasonings, not realising how in any way that in accepting and allowing the limitation of my first experiences of words within my understanding, how I had accepted and allowed a limitation to the scope of my understanding of myself, and within that understanding, keys to access self direction and deliberate self change.

 

 

This word: Righteous. My first experiences of the word righteous as I began to recognise it in my life was in the context of religion, where ‘righteousness’ describes an inner and an outer ‘walking with’ acceptance of a scripture, of a way to be, that is good and right. So considering the provenance of the word ‘righteous’ in my life, what then of it, if I do not accept the scripture any longer, do not accept the values of ‘good’ and ‘right’, having seen that they do not extend into physical reality, do not accept the mind construct of a hierarchical reality, what then of ‘righteous’? It is not that it ceases to exist within me, applied, subsisting only in the world unfolded by the scripture, having no application, because there is the underlying religion of myself, in which experience of myself as ‘righteous’ is as a proclamation of who I am in ‘walking with’ acceptance of the scriptures of my personalities, self images, self programs. And there is an accumulated positive energy experience that I have connected to this self assured self proved self integrity.

 

An illustrated book that I had accepted and allowed to exist within the word righteousness: Images entitled: ‘Fire and Brimstone’, ‘Divine Wrath’, ‘Piousness’, people on raised platforms, pointing at things, the religious ego acting out assumptions of superiority and authority, and written into this, examples of righteousness defined as a willingness to emulate the laws and sayings of the Scriptures, to stand within and as these sayings of ‘How to Live’, sayings of the ultimate reward in tenacity of faith and belief. That standing ‘right’ within the laws of God, one stands in righteousness. So, also, seeing a person acting out on images of self as more important, superior within being right, teaching or preaching or pontificating – there I believe that what I am seeing happening in my perception correlates to these images in my mind that I have labeled, ‘righteousness’. Writing out some of the content of this word as I have allowed it to exist within me, I realise that within the religious context of how I had absorbed the word, I had also taken into me ‘self-righteousness’ as a ‘sin’, and within that, elaborate pre-established justifications of judgement. There was no example of a word within my mind that expressed a relationship of alignment to myself and to the world and reality with it and as it, only this word righteous, based on this religious mind value of ‘right’, having been defined within belief. I can see that looking into me and finding no experience of ‘righteousness’ (as such) going on within me, how then I might have believed it.

 

I am seeing that I have accorded a negative value to self righteousness. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge self righteousness as something ‘bad’ or ‘wrong’, that in seeing self righteousness within me that I have thus accepted and allowed myself to veil it from me with this reference to myself at core within it as being bad or wrong, and that I have accepted and allowed myself to project, blame, and judge others in my world in being ‘self righteous’, as less than who I am.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed for all of this to become systemized as a pattern within me, so much so that I have accepted and allowed such statements as: “I have overcome self-righteousness”, or “I have transcended that.” While all the time not seeing how in all the many ways that I cling to my personal systems, and within myself insist upon the integrity of what I have accepted and allowed, and so I see that as an expression of that insistence I have in no way overcome or transcended self righteousness.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attach this bad judgement definition of myself in self righteousness; I see and realise and understand how through this that I have within this accessed a shame of me as bad, and that I have accepted and allowed this reaction to myself to distract me from looking at what systems, structures or designs that I am standing in defense of here, and so direct myself to question such defense, and so move myself towards solution. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in shame as a reaction on seeing myself in a memory acting or speaking in self-righteousness.

 

Thus looking into who I am within accepting the scripture of the backchat, believing that I have overcome, or transcended self righteousness – to learn from this that I can choose to instead of ‘overcome’ or ‘transcend’, to embrace myself within this, that instead of seeing and reacting to evidence of my identity as bad or wrong, I simply look at evidence of what it is that I am showing myself.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to see that ‘self righteousness is bad’ is also an expression of self-righteousness that I have taken into judgement, intrinsic to the judgement, that I am personifying judgment in my inner world, standing on a platform of self righteousness that is an energetic experience of myself in standing integrated as an image of myself within my mind.

 

 

(Eqafe refs: Redefining Integrity: Reptilians 170, 171 )

 

 

 

 

 

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Day 307: ‘Stark’ Reality

•April 29, 2016 • Leave a Comment

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Day 307: ‘Stark’ Reality

A familiar dream or film scenario: an opening of the eyes type of a moment, into a seeing of an underlying ‘stark’ reality, and in the impact of seeing, an added dramatic dimension, a reaction to what has been realized or found or discovered, or for a moment, disclosed, a sort of glimpse with an energetic trigger. Whether I imprinted this from the film world, all those thousands of repetitions of the discovery/disclosure of the body scene, that is then attached to a woman screaming, and intense emotion, or whether I had drawn such material from my own unconscious mind: a repeating nightmare from when I was young, when I would dream that I had just remembered that I had murdered someone and left the body in a cupboard, and the impact of the nightmare would then cause me to wake up…

As in the dream example there is a point that arises in the process of this writing: this waking up of me within a world of words that I find myself to have conditioned and programmed throughout my life without awareness of my own responsibility within and as the definitions of myself that I have stored within them, and so without responsibility for the multiple experience of myself that follows. These are all like micro disempowerments in a macro disempowerment, these singular self-dishonesties of belief in who I am as an emotion or as a feeling in relation to a word, and then somewhere haphazardly and incoherently in relation to this physical world.

All of this around this ‘familiar’ dream or film scenario that I began to write about, and the central feature of this being a moment of seeing an underlying reality, the ‘stark’ reality of who I am within this memory, or this imagination, a moment of self-honesty, in allowing myself to simply look on who I am, no more no less, and then the stark reality of my reactions to this, in which there is no simple looking on any more but instead a shift into experience as who I am as and with the energies of reaction, such as shame, and further to that reacting to this shame with disempowerment. That I stand before this shame in disempowerment; that is real, that is something I can change. I can breathe and I can stand in stability to face this shame and question who I am towards it.

And so: to take this word here, ‘stark’ that goes with ‘stark reality’. Investigating who I am within and towards this ‘stark’ that I have used in my mind to qualify ‘reality’, I find that I have included into ‘stark’ a connection with ‘lacks of’, such as in a landscape, being stark, it lacks the trees, the soil, that in my mind I have judged as lacking, and so within this judgement have added to the reality a component that is not there, and so have interpreted a landscape as having this lack within it that only exists within my mind. In my mind I have a imagined a world without my decorations and embellishments and rose-tints as being ‘bare’ and inferior.

What then, as I face the ‘stark’ reality of the world in which in every place I look, I find this lacking, not realizing how I have entwined into the world this lacking that I have lived in ‘stark’, and in myself, in seeing the stark reality of me, I have already programmed into this an experience of lacking, and within that a path into reaction and fear of what it is that I am seeing. And so therefore taking ‘stark’ and clearing out these tendencies, to have ‘stark’ stand for a no-more-and-no-less-than-ness. And sounding ‘stark’ I bring in ‘start’, that in awareness of a stark reality I realise and understand that here I start reality, can start a change, from this point of seeing myself no more no less, that within the stark reality of myself I see my actuality in an actual world, embrace myself within that actuality, and that from this point empower myself to change what I am actually doing so that I am living in assistance and support of me, can connect actuality to actuality and therefore start to actually move.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the ‘stark’ that I have accepted and allowed myself to attach to my perspective of the reality of myself; what it is that I actually really and in fact am living and resonating and so exemplifying in this life. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to condition the word stark with a negative energy such as seeing in ‘stark’ an intrinsic lackingness as an imposition of who I am defined within myself as judgement of myself. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the word stark as I have rendered it thus within my mind to then function as a cover or disguise of who I am from me in subordination to a fear of self-honesty. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed this moment of reaction to myself as a trigger into overwhelming energies, in which I have habituated myself into disempowerment as a comfort zone, and within this, not accepting or allowing myself to look upon what I am doing.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Day 306: How Responsibility gets a Bad Name.

•March 25, 2016 • Leave a Comment

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It was like a turning point in my life when I was forced to consider who I am in relation to responsibility. I mean when I first came across the Desteni Material in all its many forms, the point of self-responsibility, those two words together, sort of dawned into my awareness, representing like a vital key to my whole experience of being here in this world, like a stable bridge from a reality projection of myself as a spectator, to the world of a participant, towards being deliberately responsible in becoming a living awareness. And yet seeing, realizing and understanding this to be the case, the word ‘responsibility’ remained in some way polluted in my mind with a negative charge: it seemed in some way like a burden or as a bitter pill, or else like the hot seat, or even, the dock, containing like the validation of my criminality. Something that I had not considered within all this was the nature of the cultural soil from which I had sprouted, the framework of reality presented by the media, by the education systems, by the testaments and scriptures, by the consciousness systems of my parents and the generations that went before: that I grew up in the midst of this, absorbing the examples of it all, examples of a culture coming out of a starting point of blame, that when things went wrong there was always the reaction of a pointed finger, a being to be targeted, diminished, or punished. Validating that ‘it was not my fault’ I learned to use the resources of my imagination to play the game, concoct excuses, and deflect the blame elsewhere. It was as if I had willingly inherited a structure for me to live within that was specially designed to deny and suppress responsibility. Who I am as the bad one in the blame target as the one responsible is how literally responsibility gets a bad name. I forgive myself, seeing how I am responsible, and within and as that responsibility for the programs I have subscribed to, and written and elaborated in my mind, that then I can choose to change these things that trigger how I live and how I experience myself, that is in forgiveness giving back to me I live responsibility and chose here to deliberately change my self conditioning that I have accepted and allowed as real. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to validate blame, by accepting and allowing that who I am is bad as the target of blame. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed this mind value of ‘bad’ as something real, that I have connected it into who I am as a living reality. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the word responsibility to exist within me as an energetic entity, as a trigger of reaction. Therefore I continue to walk this process of releasing myself from the spells of words that I have accepted and allowed as components of my mind, and with the word responsibility I continue to clear the word, as new layers within it become apparent to me, or are shown to me.

 

It is not only for me in the sense of this singularity, but for me in the wider sense – of everyone as me – that is also swept up in this exact same consciousness: to deliberately walk out of it – and share how this can be done – and through this spread the realization that in common sense it must be done; our self directed walk into awareness, in which seeing how all exist within the same Mind Consciousness, then all steps shared expand as ripples outward. For those who can now allow themselves to investigate the practicalities of this walk out of consciousness and into living awareness and what this means, and for those who are actively doing this, and need support: Come to Desteni.

 

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Day 305: The Support of Life Reviews

•March 11, 2016 • Leave a Comment

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“ Essentially I never bothered to question or introspect or investigate within and throughout my life, because I was under the impression that you are who you are, that’s kind of what your fate is within and throughout your life, and you’ve got to make do with who you are.” From: Life Review, Can Your Emotions Change Your Body?. “It was like, this was me – this is how I am experiencing myself – therefore – this is me.”

 

Anyone who has given to themselves the opportunity to listen to and hear the Life Reviews on Eqafe will have had many self realisations. Even though each of us is unique, the systems that we adapt to and elaborate and personalize in our lives as layers of consciousness – in this shared environment of the Earth – are often similar – so that in the instance of a sharing of how it is with one being will often be evoked a realization in another – and a new perspective of one’s own life will then facilitate an opening, an expansion, an understanding, a solution – and so by extension of sharing – a faster process of self realization for everyone.

 

Here is an example of this: it was through the sharing of a being of their Life Review that I realized that in my life also I had existed in and as the exact same supposition – derived from an impression – I realized and remembered how it was that I had accepted and allowed the thought to persist within me – a belief – that I am just what I experience myself to be, and therefore must, will have to, somehow, make-do with that.

 

How did this play out for me in subsequent creations of relationships to aspects of myself? In for example being susceptible to being overwhelmed by emotional energies, I instituted systems of control and repression and tension in my physical body, and breath, and ways and means to avoid situations in which I might cause conflict, because, in conflict such as a spark of anger suddenly expanding throughout me, in which I would lose control, and then according to my memories, my history of experience, then be crushed or shouted down, and then in judgements, become defined as unacceptable, a process in which my own anger resulted in the destruction of relationships of the respect of my friends, and me experiencing myself as – in the eyes of the world and then me – as unacceptable. What grew out of this – what was it – a sort of existential horror in a way – that such a thing could, and seemingly did, exist. And so because of this belief I tiptoed around in my life, in a way, being careful not to wake such energies inside me, while at the same time believing in this core of unacceptability as the finished ‘what I am’ that I must ‘make do’ with – being fated thus – and that I must therefore make it secret and hide it.

 

There were many consequential issues and points and eventually systems and patterns of thought and behaviour that spilled from this belief: decisions that I made based on the belief that I am just what I experience myself to be; it was from out of this foundation that I then justified an approach to my own life that included and protected this belief as-if reality about myself, and this approach included strategies of avoidance of myself as life, so that, given the situation, I could get along, somehow. Looking at this I can see how little room I gave myself between my awareness of myself and my awareness of my experience of emotion, there was no room for stepping back, there was no room for a sense of agency within it all and there was no room for a question to be opened up, and unfolded. Instead there was my acceptance of a binding into and as the current experience that was provided for essentially by this belief.

 

 

 

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Day 304: Meaninglessness, and Changing who I am Within ‘Audacity’

•February 14, 2016 • Leave a Comment

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Looking at a moment when rather than facing and stabilizing myself before a task that needed to done, I had instead gone into guilt, and was hovering over in a way, pressing the entertainment button on it all; I noticed how I was accepting and allowing a search process to be going on, a reaching out for a formulation of audacity, or for possible ways I might be able to embody this, not from a starting point of supporting myself to face this task, and who I am within and as it, and in disregard for all the energy distractions that were coming up – which would be supportive in a real audacity – towards the systems of my mind – if that word audacity itself had not become so wired with energy designs.

 

So not from a starting point of supporting myself to face this task, but from a starting point of attempting to realize a personality, to materialize a definition of ‘audacity’ that I held within me, to become and move into an embodiment of that. As in accepting and allowing a judgement of myself defined as not good enough to even begin the task, or as unworthy of the effort, and then an experience of how I had defined myself within this, and then in this pattern gone into guilt; it was in relation to accepting and allowing the play out of all of this, that ‘audacity’ came up, kind of looking for a backdoor through which I justify both denying and then changing the entire context of the situation, so that I can continue to fool myself that I am feeling good, when in point of reality I am not happy with myself at all, and I am alarmed at what I have accepted and allowed myself to become within my own self judgements.

 

So this is about using a word for an energy maneuver and allowing it to become defined within this function, where the exact same word if cleared of energy designs could instead be used and lived in the exact same situation in support of self and in support of Life.

 

Promulgated through the media comes this trickle-down effect of personality example. From out of absolute power and absolute corruption now comes a mutated form of audacity: as a flagrant flaunting of the law, as power expressed as righteous supremacy, as having miraculously transcended accountability. We see on screens politicians wriggling amongst their lies, and then when cornered becoming stone-faced in absolute denial – hold it there – that was the specific frame, the memory clip as an example of the ‘audacity’ that I was accepting and allowing myself to put myself in reference to within my mind.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to dare to look upon and see my own wrath that I have put on me, but have instead projected this onto an image in my mind of another being. I forgive myself that I have stored this image in my mind as a trophy of blame and a source of energy. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look upon this image on the screen, and define it in a damning judgement, saying the words, Such Audacity!

 

Now looking into this word, I see how it first appeared during the writing of the previous post, in which I was looking at the choice of defining that which I was attending to as a processing of what I had become – as Art – and I can see now looking at this that what I saw in Art that attracted me was differing expressions of audacity.

 

Walking into Life, like stepping stones into a matrix, I took on and absorbed definitions of myself, word by word, not seeing realizing or understanding that the energy designs within the words would synchronize and lead eventually into a structure that was separate from Life, which was as a system of reactions to myself within my mind.

 

So here in this blog, looking at a moment in which a lockdown of the resulting programming had occurred, in an epiphany of who I am as ‘lost’ in meaninglessness, in which I had succumbed to experience of myself as a working constellation of beliefs, beliefs of who I am derived from comparison with others, who I am in relationship to the energies inside of me, who I am within and as these patterns into which I have awarded an offering of my own authority, and through that means responded to the voices of these patterns as if to an expression of leadership in my mind.

 

And so, in the accepted and allowed context of my world, examples of audacity stood out for me, as I scanned my repressed world, as precious objects. Here were contained the blueprint lessons to be memorized absorbed and inwardly digested. A demonstrated disregard for energy beliefs, non recognition of the fear initiatives that accompanied authority, moments of cheek or impudence. Within all of this it seemed to me there was a chink of light; I was not aware of looking at the point that ‘audacity’ was a fact of word, that it could not be un-existed, could not be eradicated; but instead, this understanding filtered through, as if through frosted glass, an emotional screen, and so what I looked at was a light of hope, I saw a demonstration of a world in which experience of lightness, fun, enjoyment, laughter, play, invention and creation, remained inviolable to this version of ‘authority’ as I had accepted and allowed it to exist within my mind. And within all of this there was an awareness in myself that I could not as yet embrace, which was as a glimpse of my potentiality as my own authority within and as myself, not as a point of competition but simply as a quality of this immediate existentiality with reference to how each and everyone had opened up their eyes and found themselves to be.

 

Audacity: as a suppression of guilt in which I have accepted and allowed myself to swell into this-is-me glorification, self justification, and, I don’t care, I am just doing it anyway. Within this, passively accepting and allowing this gesture to hold sway where this audacity is no longer as a manipulation strategy of a moment, but has become ingrained, has become the page from which I intend to go on; I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to embody this emotion of audacity, to embody a ‘leadership’ placement of myself as an energy point, as a personality within my mind, as an illusion of empowerment in which I have twisted that guilt that I have accepted and allowed, so as to yield an apparent victory over energy, and connected into and as an image of who I am as ‘freedom’ within my sovereign state of ego.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in notions of winning and losing in relationship to the energy experience of guilt. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am empowered within this audacity relationship to guilt. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define accumulation of energy into the word empower. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give my responsibility as power over to guilt, through which I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to diminish and enfeeble who I am to guilt, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in fear of being overwhelmed by guilt. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate myself into a righteousness of superiority as an accumulation of positive energy through fear of the experience of guilt. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed this self manipulation to become as a personality.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define ‘leadership’ with this experience of myself within and as ‘audacity’, in which apparently I take back ‘control’ and become as a conflict of energy. I see realise and understand that within and as this conflict of energy that I am not in fact leading myself or leading my life in any way but instead I am accepting and allowing me to be lead by energy addiction as this personality of audacity. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge audacity when seeing it in the outside world, I forgive myself that I have given to audacity a negative charge, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself within and as audacity.

 

I forgive myself that I did not accept or allow myself to see that in the situation of guilt that I was looking for audacity as a way to free myself to be able to move myself, be able to address the guilt, see what judgements of myself I have accepted and allowed as real, and what judgements of myself have in fact been real in relation to what is best for me in support of me and of others. Therefore in audacity, I can use audacity to support me, in a moment of following the audacity pattern, instead I lead myself, I take a breath, I stabilize myself. In breath here I lead myself in life.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit and confine ‘audacity’ within having defined the word in judgement, and through this, seen it as an expression of spite or anger only. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to condition the word audacity with my relationship experience and blame towards and as the energies that arise within me.

 

I commit myself to realign ‘audacity’ with physical reality in which the simple boldness of a gesture comes from a starting point of trust in self as life, in support of life. I commit myself to realign ‘audacity’ with simple movement of the body in the flow of breath and life that is without regard to the systems of the mind control, such as stepping through the fear.

 

continuing… 

 

 

EQAFE:

http://www.facebook.com/groups/journeytolife/

Here are the instructions to the process of accessing our life-force, our beingness, our physical bodies and walking through the mind and consciousness.

EQAFE: ‘The Crucifixion of Jesus’, has been a great support to me because hear within these interviews, presented through the Portal, the actual teachings of Jesus, rather than the ones that were to be, after his death, tweaked and twisted into the four approved versions of his life as the Gospels. How the political message of Equality and the reality of Equality and Oneness were skewed into a religious mantra so as to suit the interests of the system.

The Quantum Mind

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The FREE DIP LITE Course available to All – simply sign up and start-http://lite.desteniiprocess.com/ This is a powerful free introduction to real self-exploration, and self realisation using the Desteni tools, with online support. This really is an opportunity of a life time.

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Day 303: Meaninglessness and Significance

•February 12, 2016 • Leave a Comment

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Putting up these paintings through this blog: I am glad to show these paintings in parallel to this investigation into meaninglessness, there is a sense of completion in this, the right place for them, because in a way the painting process, and much of how I shaped my life followed from this point of meaning-lessness, the paintings themselves came out of a process that I had instigated with this evolution and confinement of myself into and as the systems and words which I have been describing in recent posts.

 

Where seemingly living self unknowingly through the filter of these words as I had accepted and allowed them to be, at the time I could see no other way but to investigate the consequence of these things that had come up in my life with the word meaninglessness.

 

I see now, the passion was more connected to it being a matter of life or death for me unconsciously to investigate this meaninglessness, to rescue myself from this in a way, while at the same time, not being able to articulate how it was that I had got here. So like in a way, having a large part of self trapped within a box labelled meaninglessness, is going to hold some fascination and attention. So it was that I gave a high priority to this process of investigation.

 

The fact of there being a preprogrammed channel in the system which was called ‘Art’ was convenient to me, and I realized that I could use it as a cover: finding as it were a loop-hole in the system where I could pass off processing/investigation of who and what I had become, confined within this systemization of meaning-lessness.

In my mind what I was aware of at the time was ‘meaninglessness’ holding great significance, something that should be investigated, that should be brought into distinct focus, I felt I was at the brink of a discovery. Sketching out a subtlety of texture of some kind that would enhance projection, I was looking for a form of meaninglessness that was redolent with possible interpretation.

 

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not see and realise that within this idea in my mind of designing a texture through which unconscious projections would become obvious, I was seeking out some evidence for me of having meaning, some means through which to find it, not seeing the significance of the fact that the evidence of me was always immediately before me within my very perception and projection overlay on things.

 

Continuing next post…

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

EQAFE:

http://www.facebook.com/groups/journeytolife/

Here are the instructions to the process of accessing our life-force, our beingness, our physical bodies and walking through the mind and consciousness.

EQAFE: ‘The Crucifixion of Jesus’, has been a great support to me because hear within these interviews, presented through the Portal, the actual teachings of Jesus, rather than the ones that were to be, after his death, tweaked and twisted into the four approved versions of his life as the Gospels. How the political message of Equality and the reality of Equality and Oneness were skewed into a religious mantra so as to suit the interests of the system.

The Quantum Mind

This series is for a serious student that cares about LIFE and endeavour to understand how creation functions in fact and in specific detail.

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Day 302: Meaninglessness and ‘Lost’ ‘Control’

•February 7, 2016 • Leave a Comment

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 Reference –>Here to the Atlantean perspective/series on the system of meaninglessness.

 

Continuing this series of posts from Day 291, and the decision to bring ‘lost’ into and as an energy source within a system of meaninglessness, and a further look into the semantic world or network of memory, experience and self definition that I had installed into the word ‘lost’.

 

A reminder of the critical experience (from 293): “…over summer, at the end of school when all the kids I hung around with were going off to different universities, and a comparison came up: they have all got futures, I have not: I have got no future. Their different futures are expressions of their different meaning – therefore: I have no meaning – and so I accepted and allowed myself to go into the experience of myself as meaninglessness…”

  

‘Control’

A sense of having lost control: in which ‘control’ had been defined in maintaining various definitions of self, to be integrated into an illusion of self, definitions that were determined by my interpretations of the experience of me through the eyes of others: that was the sense of control that now seemed ‘lost’, so that experience of this became an element of ‘lost’ within my mind.

 

Writing this I remember thoughts I had at that time, perspectives in which I was looking at an image of myself through the eyes of those around me, such as in imagining my own death, and being buried in the ground, and then, gone, ‘lost’ from the view of those around me. Accepting and allowing this imagination in my mind, I then accepted and allowed this experience of ‘lost’ to then invade and occupy how I had accepted and allowed myself to be in ‘death.’ My simulation of death within my mind then involved this consequential experience of ‘lost’ that played out of the loss of this definition of control.

 

A memory of a thought in which I was busily defining things long time ago serves to show me a couple more aspects to this: that in this graveyard scene there was much self pity, and also blame towards the people who would apparently walk away and return to their own meanings purposes and lives. Having integrated an illusion of self that was based on projections onto others, the victim role was kind of implicit, and then the option of blame; now that I look at this I see how bringing judgement into it might have been required. Judgement as I had defined it in my experience of life had been an expression of authority and control, coupled with anger and fear inducements: how better else in my mind experience, within and as this paranoia, could I bring about and enforce some black and white simplicity into this grey experience of fear and multiple emotion that I had invested into lost? Control through fear and blame had been the context of my childhood, and in what seemed to me to be an emergency situation, I reverted to it, almost as a natural tool or tendency in my inheritance. This to me at this time was simply the 101 of how to assert control in a tumultuous situation.

 

How this judgement had an impact on me was through comparison of my being to the beings of others and their ‘worth’, was that I had arrived suddenly into and as a formulation of myself as worthless within this meaninglessness, this was like a lightning strike, in my perception this was like a catastrophic experience. Within this, my respect for me fell down like a stone. What were the constituents of this catastrophe? Looking into this I see through the eyes of who I was in that moment, seeing the ‘End of The World’ closing in on me, and a feeling of collapse into nothingness, within the realization and belief that All had been a fabrication.

 

 

Continuing next post…

 

 

EQAFE:

http://www.facebook.com/groups/journeytolife/

Here are the instructions to the process of accessing our life-force, our beingness, our physical bodies and walking through the mind and consciousness.

EQAFE: ‘The Crucifixion of Jesus’, has been a great support to me because hear within these interviews, presented through the Portal, the actual teachings of Jesus, rather than the ones that were to be, after his death, tweaked and twisted into the four approved versions of his life as the Gospels. How the political message of Equality and the reality of Equality and Oneness were skewed into a religious mantra so as to suit the interests of the system.

The Quantum Mind

This series is for a serious student that cares about LIFE and endeavour to understand how creation functions in fact and in specific detail.

The FREE DIP LITE Course available to All – simply sign up and start-http://lite.desteniiprocess.com/ This is a powerful free introduction to real self-exploration, and self realisation using the Desteni tools, with online support. This really is an opportunity of a life time.

FIND OUT WHAT DESTENI STANDS FOR

Human Rights and the Equal Life Foundation • Desteni.org • See: The Equal Life Foundation Bill of RightsLiving Income Guaranteed: The Proposal

 
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