Day 355: Standing and Reunion

•December 4, 2016 • Leave a Comment

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Day 355: Standing and Reunion

 

Those Failure programmings: that in letting go of constructs that I had consented to and hence walked a toleration of who I was within them, as contained within the experience of Failure, the Word, what I found surfacing within me was a series of dreams that were like in summary me expanding into different experiences of Reunion. Here were further confirmations coming up of how I had gone into separation from people that were here in my life and how I had walked paths away from these relationships and into rejection of myself within them and from them, and so on an essential level what I realized was how I had begun on walking a path of Reunion with myself. Or showing myself rather, that now I have given myself the opportunity of doing so. And I do so choose this.

 

Fascinating how the strike of lightning bolts of self judgement and self definitions made in judgement and shame can mutate the branching or the splitting of the tree as it were of a life. With the possibility of access of Self Reunion there follows out of this: Ok I can now step out of this my old relationship with this my physical body, and so begin to make a new relationship that stands within forgiveness and equality. That realization was also the glimpse of tangibility in Honour, like in opening the door to a possibility of a unity of self expressed within and as a different language.

 

I am aware of here that what I am writing out are simply reflections of potential, but what is real is that in redefining me in Diligence, in support of me, and continuing to do so, that through redefining for me a path to walk myself is in a way a How-To for me to support my own expansion, and what comes up next is more a What-to word that is in Challenge. In continuing to walk Diligence, it becomes more ingrained as a blueprint for me as I start walking other words that have been existing in me, buried in some way, within for example this word Challenge, and within that, what I have extracted so far, is the word Drive.

 

Where what discovery of self that I made in opening up the word Failure, the most essential in this was my refusal to accept myself in seeing me for real in not standing for me in personal relationships where obviously I had chosen to go for expressions of self dishonesty as a personality, but rather than supporting me in asking for forgiveness or giving to me forgiveness of myself, and so stood with me in seeing this mistake, I had chosen instead to walk a path of separation and walking-out-on self and others, where the entirety of my mistake in choosing to embody this personality had then remained as protected and justified and where possible directed into blame of the other person. So it is that through the self forgiveness of these layers of Failure that these points both of Standing and Reunion kind of re-emerge within me.

 

… Continuing the process of walking Challenge, next post …

 

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Day 354: Dis-coveries in Challenge

•December 2, 2016 • 1 Comment

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Day 354: Dis-coveries in Challenge

  

From the almost programmed saying: ‘Who I am in Word and Deed’  – if slowed down – comes an extraordinary Question: Who Am I in fact in Word: what have I in fact been living as myself within this Word that plays out into Deed? Supporting us to investigate such a question for ourselves: comes the School of Ultimate Living. 

 

… so continuing here in a process of redefining who I am in this word Challenge …

In releasing Failure, previous post, so also releasing me to enter into, occupy, and look at how I’ve lived myself in Challenge – as in having cleared the slate – to an extent – with using Self Forgiveness as a tool of both release and of self support, and of opening, and exploration, and dis-covery, that now I can begin to see both how it is that I have made a mountain out of Challenge, and at the same time how it need no longer be this way.

But: yes, to an extent: How much have I really in fact cleared the slate? Because I know how easily I leap ahead into a place that is not real, suddenly seeing the expanse of Challenge as a pristine land in a way, as a vision of how I might experience myself without the impediments that I have for so long accepted and allowed. In seeing this, there is a practical caution in reminding me how it is that I can so easily make of something into a positive energy experience, where in partially releasing me from all the negatives, I have opened up a gift that is a glimpse of future self, that is pristine yes, because it is as yet unwalked, and I have then polarized the whole experience, and then confused that new experience with actual change.

Looking into the etymological history of the word Challenge, I find it interesting to learn how Challenge gradually evolved from out of what is now Calumny: false or slanderous accusations, and to see an evolution of the meanings of the word into modern usage, defined as a ‘difficult task’. Reading about this, what came to mind was the challenge of a sentry to a traveller arriving at the city gate, or in a debate, the challenge of false statements, and appeal to facts. There is a practical doubt being cast, and a demand to prove the veracity of a thing, or to demonstrate the reality of it. It is like the signal for a testing process.

As a prototype for a working definition of Challenge, being as a signal for a testing process, this seems quite cool to me, meaning: quite neutral. It is not necessary for a doubt to be reacted to on an emotional level, whether internally or in everyday reality. When looking into me there is a level of trust that I have established where I can doubt myself within awareness of the patterns that I’ve lived, and my awareness of my tendency to slip back into them, and so be cautious in a practical way. Such as here in this example where having released to some extent the Failure content that I had defined as who I am within the word Challenge, I see how I am then seeing Challenge in a new light, as this boundless pristine space in which I can apparently simply now write out a new experience for myself.

So now, looking into this: What had been the nature of the positive experience that I had at first accepted and allowed to exist in Challenge? That is before I had become involved in and emotionally stressed out in the systematic testing processes of school, and education? When I look at this I see how much I had absorbed when I was young: Adventure stories, comics, TV series, where Exploration of new lands, new planets, new technologies, new dimensions, new forms of travel, these were things that thrilled me. Though curled up in an armchair, or lying on my bed, reading books and comics, the word Challenge was this positive experience in my mind, while at play, Challenge figured very much: climbing higher up the trees, jumping off the shed, digging deeper holes towards the centre of the Earth, and things like that.

Challenge was like the driving force in an adventure game, it became the narrative of adventure, where obstacles came up and would be overcome, and they were all a part of it, and within the breadth of the adventure as a whole, there were practical moments, such as in making a plank bridge to cross a stream, the plank would need to first be tested out, well naturally, the plank would be challenged, to see if it would work. The raft would need to be challenged to see if it would sink or not.

So here, as a method of self support in finding out for me what Challenge was for me, how I first defined it, and how I lived it, I am literally de-scribing it: pulling out the words that went together into it and as a part of it. And so now here come words that I had not been aware of in this definition, as within an exploded diagram: Drive, Adventure, Exploration.

 

Continuing next post… and as I continue I may well loop back into closer focus onto the points and information that I’m raising here and gathering, within this post and in the previous one.

 

 

What does it mean, this  Redefinition and living of words?  Self Creation : SOUL 

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Day 353: Challenge and Releasing Failure

•November 30, 2016 • Leave a Comment

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Day 353: Challenge and Releasing Failure

 

Daring to actually take a look into who I am within and in relationship to the word Challenge, and how I might embrace this word and live it.

 

And so first of all, opening with the word Daring, I am acknowledging the fear that I have attached to living the word Challenge, and how I have defined myself in Challenge as having fear of embracing Challenge, and seeing that I have responded to the word Challenge, not by embracing but rather instead avoiding it, and up till now, avoided looking into these moments where I have accepted and allowed myself to be avoiding it.

 

So yes, daring to venture into challenge in the realization of the existence of fear around it and in it. What fear? I mean: Fear attached to what? What I see here is a point in which in avoiding seriously taking up a challenge, that I am making sure that I do not open up even the slightest possibility of experiencing myself in Failure. So for me it looks like avoiding challenge is like a strategy to make sure that I do not enter into the experience of failure, and that how I have defined myself in Failure has played a big part in my relationship to Challenge.

 

And also seeing  already that I have as yet very little intimate relationship to Challenge itself, because of the connection that I have made to Failure, where Challenge in a way has acted like only the lid to the Pandora’s Box of experience of Failure. This is not how I would want it to continue to be, and even in these moments of actually approaching these points I see already how Challenge might become so much more than this for me, where already it is opening in a way, as I begin to see how it is that I have accepted me as being defined within it.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word Challenge to the word Failure. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have exist inside the word Challenge the word Failure.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word Failure to an emotional experience, to a negative energy experience. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word Failure to an experience of myself in which I have accepted and allowed myself to be defined as Failure.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see how it is that I have stored inside me memories of me as failure and connected all of them into an experience of myself that I have suppressed within me, of me as failure.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less-than, as inferior, as worthless through this definition of myself that I have accepted and allowed of me as being failure. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that being-failure exists.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the thought of failure, together with the memories of failure to come up within me when and as I see a challenge. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let these thoughts and memories and fears to become a controlling influence in my decisions and actions.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the word Failure to exist within me as a judgement and a definition of who I am as being inferior, less-than, and worthless.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed Challenge to refer to Failure, and Failure to exist as a reference to a hidden reality within myself of and as a Failure. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide this belief away inside me, and so this part of me that I have judged.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide this definition of myself away from me, so as not to experience this part of me, by making sure that I do not respond to Challenge by embracing it, where in embracing Challenge I would imagine in my mind that I am opening a trap in which I would inevitably experience myself as Failure.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the experience that I have connected to the word Failure to be affecting me whenever I push myself to do something new, and that even though I might push myself to do it, that still I am accepting and allowing the fear to be there.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to embody a personality design to ease me through a moment in which I am avoiding Challenge, and continuing to suppress the fear of failure, by rising above such things; seeing it through a frame of being superior to competition and it’s elements of winning and losing.

 

Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate myself in justifying my reaction to Challenge by defining Challenge into Competition only, and so not seeing how really that my main concern within this is to avoid the emotional experience of Failure. Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to indulge in competition only in a cursory way.

 

 

 

As I look into this point of Failure and question how it is that Failure came to have for me such intense emotional roots, what I see is memories of Failure in personal relationships where I experience myself as having Failed to live up to another person’s expectations, such as examples of someone that I am depending on in some way to be approving of me, and that in having done something or said something, I am seeing myself as having failed to meet their expectations, and then them within reacting, seeing themselves as having been wrong about me, or disappointed in me, and then suddenly being changed and being dismissive of me, that point right there I have accepted and allowed as being a devastating and shameful realization experience, where I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word Failure into having failed to live up to another person’s expectations of me; seeing that I have in fact completely blown it, by being for a moment who I am as some personality or other that is not truly me.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within the experience of Failure to live up to an other beings’ expectations of me, for me then to become trapped in this experience, in which it is as if I am imprisoned in it: in which I am only released from this when the whole experience gradually eases off. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be waiting in this imprisonment experience of my own worthlessness for this experience to be lifted from me. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear within the experience of Failure, in which I am existing as a worthlessness, to be fearing also the experience of being trapped within the systems of the mind, and to be waiting till the systems of the mind release me, because I have so completely given up my power of self direction.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to see that in Failure within failing to live up to another being’s expectations of me that I am accepting and allowing myself to be defined according to the approval of others, and that in this experience of Failure what I am seeing is my own Failure to be standing with and for me in who I am with reference to myself, and that in this Failure that I am apparently seeing a hole in which I do not exist because I have never actually given to me the time and the attention that I have instead sought for in the approval of others, within which I have become dependent on a positive experience of myself as who I am, rather than a real genuine experience of myself within me, that I can in fact nurture for myself. Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience myself as nothing in a negative sense, when I have lost the approval of others, having Failed to live up to expectations, and within this seeing realizing and understanding that I am experiencing the consequential reality of having Failed to stand for me.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to avoid to see that I have failed to stand, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realise that in failing to stand that I therefore have no standing.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to instead of taking responsibility for myself in not standing, that I have instead accepted and allowed myself to judge myself in being as something that has no standing and that I have accepted and allowed myself to define as being a failure. I forgive myself therefore that I have accepted and allowed myself to define failure in myself as a reason for, as a form of blame for why it is that I do not stand.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to decide within myself to not simply see me not standing, but rather instead to see me within the consequence of this as ‘having no standing’ that I have then accepted and allowed myself to define as being Failure, as ‘something’ that I do not have. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed as real my judgements of me in not standing, and that through accepting and allowing judgements of me that I have accepted and allowed a guilt experience connected to me not standing, and within this guilt then accepted and allowed myself to fear responsibility.

 

  

…Ok I’ll continue with this next post.

 

 

 

What does it mean, this  Redefinition and living of words?  Self Creation : SOUL 

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Day 352: How I’m Walking Me in This

•November 28, 2016 • Leave a Comment

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Day 352: How I’m Walking Me in This

 

On being asked a Question: a Request to share HOW I am walking me in this, my process, now. My immediate response was this: That it’s like on some level I am walking my process ‘any way I possibly can’ and kind of making it up as I go along, experiencing support from everywhere, and within that feeling strengthened.

 

So, here, looking at who I am within my immediate response, and so first of all, acknowledging that these reflections are coming from a Question that I may not have asked myself, and so, acknowledging that the Question itself is offering a different angle onto things. And in myself I am grateful for a different angle, because I realise that there are so many questions that I do not ask myself, questions that may throw a new light onto things, especially where I’m liable to get some perspective stuck and so be unaware of a tunnel vision that I may be in, and as.

 

This morning as I awoke, this phrase, ‘Any way I can’ was somehow lingering there, as if washed up on the shore (uh oh, another note for me: ‘washing up’ in a different dimension) of a night of processing in dreams. And in ‘Any way I can’, I noticed that there was a tone of urgency, where it’s like: Ready or not, here I come. As if in playing games of Hide and Seek there has come this point of Enough.

 

I mean, just in writing out these words, I am in a way splashing out references to whole as yet unwalked processes, left and right, (there I go again lol) and yet aware that also I am writing this point here in focusing on ‘Any way I can’ with reference to How within the how of me in walking process now. And so there is this element of urgency; that there is not endless time in this physical life, and so I must take the understandings that I can work with here, and practically apply them, not in the perspective of years and months, but in the access to reality of me that is in moments.

 

Such as in the process of redefining and living words: where in deciding in me, in support of me I realized how Diligence would be required by me to facilitate a physical learning, expansion, growth, process: that I must therefore redefine this word and who I am within it to actually live it, and make friends with it in a way, to bring it intimately into me, to understand and realign the contents of it, so that for example I can make a tool box for myself with which as me to efficiently apply a focus on these moments.

 

And something that I’m finding in this redefinition process that I am beginning to realise, though not yet fully understand, is how in making Diligence my own, I have through ‘any way I can’ applying what I have been shown created for myself an access to self honesty. Where in accessing this new part of me, as diligence, there are not any longer lingering objections and complaints, resistances, and within those, fears or emotional constructions; because I have through any way I can made clear these things and set the tools to suit me personally, and where I find as I go along that there still remains some difficulty, that I am stable enough now to make further adjustments, and so refine my own stability.

 

So, what within ‘making it up as I go along’ in How I am walking process now? There is a reference here to how I have removed many limitations that I have through life imposed on me, such as within this very point of my relationship to words, and who I am within and as them, and then how I chose to be within the very substance of them, where ‘making it up as I go along’ is how I have chosen in a way to redesign my own resources for me and in support of me.

 

So in this ‘making it up as I go along’ is not a point of ignoring or disregarding guide-lines, or walking separately to others, but partaking of the exact same principles and applying them for me, through me, where in listening to and hearing new information and perspectives onto things, that ‘take-away’ for me is that part that I can work with and apply for me, that I can build on, use, and walk in my everyday life.

 

That ‘experience of support from everywhere’ I cannot as yet go into very much – but it is an experience of synchronicity with the many beings who are walking in their own individual lives and ways and paths, the same principles of Life – and are sharing their perspectives – where in this experience of support – it is as if we all are looking from the same location somehow – and indications of this kind of show up all the time for me in the Eqafe interviews and Journey to Life blogs and vlogs, in everyday life, in diverse ways. And simply that this synchronicity exists, is for me a constant point of support.

 

 

 

What does it mean, this  Redefinition and living of words?  Self Creation : SOUL 

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Here are the instructions to the process of accessing our life-force, our beingness, our physical bodies and walking through the mind and consciousness.

EQAFE: ‘The Crucifixion of Jesus’, has been a great support to me because hear within these interviews, presented through the Portal, the actual teachings of Jesus, rather than the ones that were to be, after his death, tweaked and twisted into the four approved versions of his life as the Gospels. How the political message of Equality and the reality of Equality and Oneness were skewed into a religious mantra so as to suit the interests of the system.

The Quantum Mind

This series is for a serious student that cares about LIFE and endeavour to understand how creation functions in fact and in specific detail.

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Day 351: A Moment during Washing Up

•November 27, 2016 • Leave a Comment

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Day 351: A moment during Washing Up

Though my mind tells me there’s nothing to write about today, yet I am anyway kind of writing my way in here, while at the same time writing me out, yes, and out also of this blank layer: there was something that I realised while doing the washing up, which I usually enjoy, having got my hands into hot water, and what I realised was to do with an energy that came up in me while I was handling a soapy plate, and the energy that had come up in me was clearly an impatience.

And I stood back for a second to have a look at this energy that was kind of busy rattling about inside me, and I noticed that there was a thought in my head saying, Yes, but what else, what else is there, what else can I have, as if some kind of energy reward or comfort of some kind was required. It was as if a vacancy or a lackingness had suddenly opened up that needed to be filled, as if maybe there was some urgent mission that I had forgotten about, and needed to be reminded of, that I was maybe missing something, or at least these were the sort of thoughts that were kind of reaching for attention.

And yet as I stood there, standing back for this moment, I noticed something really interesting as well; that this energy of impatience rattling around did not in fact have any direct connection to the actual washing up, and that that was a connection that I would usually supply, getting swept up in all of this, where what I saw was that in a moment like this I would habitually feel the impatience, the frustration also maybe, and then immediately blame the presence of this energy inside me on to the physical event of washing up. But it was that the washing up itself had really nothing to do with it. Seeing that, it was very easy to release this impatience, and in a way, seeing how it was in fact redundant, not having been connected up with blame, it was already released; it needed to be validated.

As well as this, with the thoughts that came up in me I had already turned my head, looking toward a radio set, a possible distraction entertainment option. So it was kindly no thanks to that as well, and so I released my neck muscles that had already turned my head. And I then allowed myself to continue with this physical process of the washing up, and enjoy myself within it.

It was like I suppose in a way that my mind wanted to be part of it, to be involved, to have a say, through me within a habitual framing process of what is going on: like with words: such as for example defining what is going on as a ‘chore’, and with such framing, then my mind could easily supply a range of thoughts and energies with which to trigger further reactions and conflict games, and means of involvement.

So here in the context of living diligence, in which I am simply physically keeping abreast of time, with attending to the tasks and details that crop up as part of a physical day: the element of Impatience arises as an undermining factor to that diligence, along with a corrupted definition of work. Seeing these things, I see how also how inadvertently I’m testing out this new diligence in my practical life.

 

 

 

What does it mean, this  Redefinition and living of words?  Self Creation : SOUL 

School Of Ultimate Living: Facebook Page

 

http://www.facebook.com/groups/journeytolife/

Here are the instructions to the process of accessing our life-force, our beingness, our physical bodies and walking through the mind and consciousness.

EQAFE: ‘The Crucifixion of Jesus’, has been a great support to me because hear within these interviews, presented through the Portal, the actual teachings of Jesus, rather than the ones that were to be, after his death, tweaked and twisted into the four approved versions of his life as the Gospels. How the political message of Equality and the reality of Equality and Oneness were skewed into a religious mantra so as to suit the interests of the system.

The Quantum Mind

This series is for a serious student that cares about LIFE and endeavour to understand how creation functions in fact and in specific detail.

The FREE DIP LITE Course available to All – simply sign up and start-http://lite.desteniiprocess.com/ This is a powerful free introduction to real self-exploration, and self realisation using the Desteni tools, with online support. This really is an opportunity of a life time.

Day 350: Unforgivability

•November 25, 2016 • Leave a Comment

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Unforgivability and resistance to Self-Forgiveness and releasing self from guilt.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that unforgivability exists.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself in what I have said and done with defining who I am within this judgement as being unforgivable.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the judgements that I have made of me within my mind as being real, and through judging who I am as unforgivable, that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience me as unforgivable, and so have within myself accepted and allowed a darkness in my life that is not necessary.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself in believing unforgivability to be real, that in applying this to me, that I have drawn a line across my life beyond which forgiveness of myself is impossible, and so have disempowered myself.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to through this judgement of myself as unforgivable, to have accepted and allowed myself to believe the experience of guilt to be as something I deserve. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be serving guilt as a part of who I am.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make me feel better about myself and comfort me in defining who I am as guilt, because I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must be in some way good to be punishing myself with bad feelings about what I have said or done.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself through believing in unforgivability that I have disempowered myself of the ability to make the decision in myself to forgive myself, to release myself from guilt and so instead to learn from what I’ve said or done.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become accustomed to my experience of myself as guilty, and to believe in judgements of myself as good in being the punisher of myself, and so within my mind to be on the side of what is right.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in righteousness in relation to who I am within accepting and allowing myself to participate in guilt.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in judgements of myself as good, in punishing me, as something real.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist forgiveness of myself in guilt for fearing that I might lose the good that I have believed as me, and defined myself within and as, in being the punisher of me.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within resisting forgiveness of myself in guilt to be attempting in my mind to validate unforgivability.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed unforgivability as a place in which to hide myself, as a place in which to validate my disempowerment of myself, so that I can continue in my comfort zone that I have accepted and allowed myself to make for me in my experience of guilt.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed a fear of loss to exist in me in forgiving me for accepting and allowing myself to participate in guilt, and so a fear of loss within releasing me from guilt.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify my perceived unforgivability and thence the outflow of my experience of guilt, because within and as my own damnation of myself I have created in my mind a fear of my responsibility.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to see the ways in which I have validated participating in fear of seeing and realizing my responsibility, through protecting who I am remaining in a comfort zone of guilt within my mind.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience myself within and as being judgement of myself, in damning me, condemning me, as being with and as religious programming within my mind that I have accepted and absorbed as being real. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed within this an absolute superiority within myself in relation to that part of me that I see within my mind as having crossed the line that I have made into and as unforgivability.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed in believing unforgivability as something that exists, to also believe that there are exceptions to self forgiveness, and within that to be standing as and for conditionality in self forgiveness.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there are exceptions to self forgiveness. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself in believing that there are exceptions to self forgiveness, to validate my own resistances to forgiving me in guilt, and so within that making decisions in my life in which I decide for not forgiving me, but brushing it aside, because I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that this will be useless and will not work.

 

Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in spite towards myself in judging me for making an attempt to do something that is not possible, to stand beside belittling myself as being foolish to be considering releasing me from guilt.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realise and understand the nature of who I am within resistance to forgiveness of myself in guilt.

 

I commit myself to learn to be aware of me within the moment of making a decision in my life, to with diligence slow me down and expand the moments of decision in my day, to give me space to be considering what it is that I am making a decision for: to really take a look at – and see – who I am accepting and allowing myself to be within this moment of decision, and where I am accepting and allowing a decision that I know is within the intentions of self interest and energy reward, that I know will lead to consequence, and that I realise that I have trained myself to cope with in my comfort zone of guilt, rather than taking a different new direction of myself within my life.

 

I commit myself to redefine myself within who I am and how I see myself within making mistakes, that instead of automatically leaping to judgements of myself, and that in making a mistake I can see that in support of me that I can learn from this, and that yes I can see flaws in me in what I have done and said, and so in the consequence of what I have become from this, and that yes I am in fact guilty in the sense that I am responsible for what has happened, but I can learn from this mistake, and not allow myself to chastise myself in this with the energy and emotional construct of this guilt.

 

 

 

See Eqafe’s Self Forgiveness series, and Self Forgiveness on the Experience of Guilt 

See: Eqafe’s Atlanteans series starting: 123 Understanding Guilt

 

 

What does it mean, this  Redefinition and living of words?  Self Creation : SOUL 

School Of Ultimate Living: Facebook Page

 

http://www.facebook.com/groups/journeytolife/

Here are the instructions to the process of accessing our life-force, our beingness, our physical bodies and walking through the mind and consciousness.

EQAFE: ‘The Crucifixion of Jesus’, has been a great support to me because hear within these interviews, presented through the Portal, the actual teachings of Jesus, rather than the ones that were to be, after his death, tweaked and twisted into the four approved versions of his life as the Gospels. How the political message of Equality and the reality of Equality and Oneness were skewed into a religious mantra so as to suit the interests of the system.

The Quantum Mind

This series is for a serious student that cares about LIFE and endeavour to understand how creation functions in fact and in specific detail.

The FREE DIP LITE Course available to All – simply sign up and start-http://lite.desteniiprocess.com/ This is a powerful free introduction to real self-exploration, and self realisation using the Desteni tools, with online support. This really is an opportunity of a life time.

Day 349: Diligence in Decision Making

•November 24, 2016 • Leave a Comment

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…Part of an ongoing process walking the word Diligence 

 

 

 Day 349: Diligence in Decision Making  

In slowing down, more slowing down, and in Patience, another depth of patience, where there comes a moment in which the energy is not there: who I am within myself within this patience is like a stranger to myself. I am not used to following this path, I am not used to an experience of me in which I do not have the usual references, where my dishonesties toward myself would be almost naturally supplied, such as walking in my well-practiced paths of instant self avoidance.

 

Staying with my breath I find a quality of slow that I can kind of latch on to that is for me an aspect of Patience. I realise now that that sort of ‘latch’ is like a reference too, and that in becoming more familiar with it I can practice this and so make this accessing of patience a faster process.

 

With Patience like being a component part of Diligence, and Diligence itself being like a package of supportive words, standing with Care, Purpose, and Work, my practice as it stands is to bring this new diligence through into my life in the small moments, and the potential that I see for me is through practice having instant access to this word, with it’s combined dimensions.

 

Such as within exploring patience while at the same time embracing who I am in Care, as redefined, so that rather in that habitual moment of instantly deciding for avoidance of myself, that I can with patience give me time to take who I am within myself into consideration, where it is like I am learning to apply diligence to my decision making processes.

 

 

See: Atlanteans, The Avoidance series, and 278, Avoidance: Not So Honest, Actually 

See this SOUL video: Ignite your Utmost Potential

 

 

What does it mean, this  Redefinition and living of words?  Self Creation : SOUL 

School Of Ultimate Living: Facebook Page

 

http://www.facebook.com/groups/journeytolife/

Here are the instructions to the process of accessing our life-force, our beingness, our physical bodies and walking through the mind and consciousness.

EQAFE: ‘The Crucifixion of Jesus’, has been a great support to me because hear within these interviews, presented through the Portal, the actual teachings of Jesus, rather than the ones that were to be, after his death, tweaked and twisted into the four approved versions of his life as the Gospels. How the political message of Equality and the reality of Equality and Oneness were skewed into a religious mantra so as to suit the interests of the system.

The Quantum Mind

This series is for a serious student that cares about LIFE and endeavour to understand how creation functions in fact and in specific detail.

The FREE DIP LITE Course available to All – simply sign up and start-http://lite.desteniiprocess.com/ This is a powerful free introduction to real self-exploration, and self realisation using the Desteni tools, with online support. This really is an opportunity of a life time.