Day 333: Diligence in Breath!

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Day 333: Diligence in Breath!

 

I made the decision to investigate the contents of the word Diligence in the sense of who and how I’ve been and so become within it and in relation to it, and in this sense the investigation has been like opening a door and walking through it, and discovering nothing that I expected, not just a few points here and there requiring checking and correction, but instead like this really massive room, with this huge machine installed in it, like an engine of some kind bolted to the floor, as the inner engineering of this word, that I had accepted and allowed within me with all these moving parts and strange components.

 

And there have been moments where I wanted to just turn around and check the door and see what word was actually written on it, entertaining an idea that it might have been the wrong door or something. And in moments like that there is also this familiar experience of me, as standing on the brink of things and not going further, and within that experience, an acceptance of myself as that.

 

And so with the word Diligence, and allowing me to authorize the structure of this investigation, I go into a new process of gathering up the information that I already have in the realization that yes there is much more, but going further into more is in a way a distraction of trying to make the investigation perfect, and looking at a future in my mind of having all and everything at my disposal, which is one of the patterns that I have come across in writing this; and also there is that I realise now that in walking through these points since 316, that Diligence has become for me quite changed, clearer, lighter, simpler, and that the factors or components that I’ve looked at in myself has already released me to some extent from the accumulated reluctance that was there before unseen by me in the form of energies and conflicts within the subsidiary words of Diligence.

 

Like for example: Gian proposed for me a diligence in breath: and my reception of this new meeting of two words had a natural lightness and simplicity, through which I could kind of see an inkling of what this redefinition of this word could be and become for me.

 

 

 

 

Find out: What is Soul

What does it mean, this  Redefinition and living of words?  Self Creation : SOUL 

 

 

http://www.facebook.com/groups/journeytolife/

Here are the instructions to the process of accessing our life-force, our beingness, our physical bodies and walking through the mind and consciousness.

EQAFE: ‘The Crucifixion of Jesus’, has been a great support to me because hear within these interviews, presented through the Portal, the actual teachings of Jesus, rather than the ones that were to be, after his death, tweaked and twisted into the four approved versions of his life as the Gospels. How the political message of Equality and the reality of Equality and Oneness were skewed into a religious mantra so as to suit the interests of the system.

The Quantum Mind

This series is for a serious student that cares about LIFE and endeavour to understand how creation functions in fact and in specific detail.

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Day 328: Perfect Dread

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Day 328: Perfect Dread

Releasing the energies within definitions of myself that I have accepted and allowed to exist within the word Perfect

Sounding the word Perfect: Dread comes up in me.

And in describing this, an image like coming to a clearing in my forest home and seeing a shining form of sacred geometry that has suddenly appeared from out of nowhere: It does not fit my world in any way, and yet I try to measure up to it, and somehow incorporate this thing that has appeared. What has entered into me is like the possibility of separation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in fear and in anxiety and dread when the word Perfect comes up in me. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word Perfect with emotional energy, and so turn the word into a negative experience. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make a relationship towards the word perfect as a relationship towards my negative energy, in which I have separated myself from it, and then experience myself as less than it, and as a measurement of not good enough towards it. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the word Perfect to control me, and how I experience myself, and to control my actions, where I am accepting and allowing me to give up on what I am doing because the word Perfect has come up in me. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to this. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the word Perfect to remind myself of a history of failure. I forgive myself that I have accepted allowed myself to define this history of me as and in an absolute. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in judgements that I have made of me comparing the efforts that I make for me to Perfect. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear myself in the light of Perfect. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in my perceptions of Perfect that I see in the outside world, in which I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge up Perfect outside me with positive feelings of energy. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to spiritualize the word Perfect with ideas in my mind of Heaven and Transcendence. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in Perfect Solids as if they were real, when I can see for myself that no such things exist in physical reality. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be awed within my perception of Perfect as in Beautiful. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed an outflow of my perception of Perfection as a polarity of my consciousness.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have Perfect exist in me, and yet not me in it. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe an absolute within my mind as real.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself through fear of my experience of myself as what I have accepted and allowed to exist within the word Perfect, that I have accepted and allowed this fear as a form of safety, where I have feared what might happen to me in an experience of myself in which I have defined myself with being not good enough and in being as an extension of what I have accepted and allowed myself to define within my mind as failure.

 

In relation to these points, see Atlanteans 427 Perfection: Getting Back to Yourself 

 

Find out: What is Soul

Investigate this free Redefinition and living of words,  Self Creation Insights: SOUL 

 

 

http://www.facebook.com/groups/journeytolife/

Here are the instructions to the process of accessing our life-force, our beingness, our physical bodies and walking through the mind and consciousness.

EQAFE: ‘The Crucifixion of Jesus’, has been a great support to me because hear within these interviews, presented through the Portal, the actual teachings of Jesus, rather than the ones that were to be, after his death, tweaked and twisted into the four approved versions of his life as the Gospels. How the political message of Equality and the reality of Equality and Oneness were skewed into a religious mantra so as to suit the interests of the system.

The Quantum Mind

This series is for a serious student that cares about LIFE and endeavour to understand how creation functions in fact and in specific detail.

The FREE DIP LITE Course available to All – simply sign up and start-http://lite.desteniiprocess.com/ This is a powerful free introduction to real self-exploration, and self realisation using the Desteni tools, with online support. This really is an opportunity of a life time.

Day 326: Perfect Disruption

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Day 326: Perfect Disruption

 

Today it’s like I’m grappling for control; that Perfect trap was kind of sprung, regardless of my knowledge and information about it’s workings; although recognizing this has been a step for me. I mean this is programming and hard wiring that I am experiencing here, real time, where I have ventured into my own project for myself in support of me, to a certain depth and in a certain way, and then gradually what’s crept up on me is anxiety and fear about not getting it right, and my attention has gone into the expectations that I imagine in my mind as being that of others. And so I stop for a moment and breathe, and step away from this a little.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to listen to the backchat of: This is all too much for me, of: This feels so bad, of: I can’t stand this, of: This is just a waste of time, of: I’m so useless, of: Everything is going wrong.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that maybe I just simply cannot have this Diligence in my life, and to believe that maybe that this is just not ‘me’, or not for me. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see realise and understand that this is me saying maybe I should just accept my programming.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within these maybe’s to be fostering a doubt in me, to undermine my trust in me. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be listening to the backchat in my mind that accumulates into a giving up on me.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consider that maybe I can accept this giving up on me just as I’ve done repeatedly throughout my life, to believe that giving up on me maybe might not be so bad. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that this giving up on me is part of who I am that can’t be changed. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to listen to the backchat of: Self Forgiveness will not help me here, that all this stuff is too ingrained.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consider that distracting myself from the negative energies that I am experiencing maybe what is best for me, that going into positive experience maybe might just be supportive for me. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare experience of feeling bad, to experience of distraction, and through that to have made a judgement that it is better to be oblivious in the mind than to be facing what is really going on within me.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in anxiety, as fear of what might happen in the future if I continue with this path I’m walking. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that this path I’m walking maybe wrong, and maybe leading me into being completely lost.

 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine people in my mind within the context of comparison, within the focus of blame. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to assault these beings for the sake of my assertion of a false reality. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in fear of what might happen if I were to step out of this box of personality, and to let go of my insistence of a world of separation. Therefore when and as a person comes up in my mind I commit myself to breathe and to recognize them in equality with me as I would want for me with them. I commit myself to stop this sabotage of my opportunity in this life to live for real.

 

I commit myself to not react to the realisations that I have about the fact that I am walking different processes, that I am aware of, such as with the word Diligence, and also now with Perfect, and in the background for a while a process with the word Structure. I commit myself to not accept and allow myself to become overwhelmed by this.  

 

 

 

 

 

Find out: What is Soul

 

 

Recommended: series on Perfection, The Atlanteans

 

 

Investigate this free Redefinition and living of words,  Self Creation Insights: SOUL 

 

http://www.facebook.com/groups/journeytolife/

Here are the instructions to the process of accessing our life-force, our beingness, our physical bodies and walking through the mind and consciousness.

EQAFE: ‘The Crucifixion of Jesus’, has been a great support to me because hear within these interviews, presented through the Portal, the actual teachings of Jesus, rather than the ones that were to be, after his death, tweaked and twisted into the four approved versions of his life as the Gospels. How the political message of Equality and the reality of Equality and Oneness were skewed into a religious mantra so as to suit the interests of the system.

The Quantum Mind

This series is for a serious student that cares about LIFE and endeavour to understand how creation functions in fact and in specific detail.

The FREE DIP LITE Course available to All – simply sign up and start-http://lite.desteniiprocess.com/ This is a powerful free introduction to real self-exploration, and self realisation using the Desteni tools, with online support. This really is an opportunity of a life time.