Day 326: Perfect Disruption

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Day 326: Perfect Disruption

 

Today it’s like I’m grappling for control; that Perfect trap was kind of sprung, regardless of my knowledge and information about it’s workings; although recognizing this has been a step for me. I mean this is programming and hard wiring that I am experiencing here, real time, where I have ventured into my own project for myself in support of me, to a certain depth and in a certain way, and then gradually what’s crept up on me is anxiety and fear about not getting it right, and my attention has gone into the expectations that I imagine in my mind as being that of others. And so I stop for a moment and breathe, and step away from this a little.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to listen to the backchat of: This is all too much for me, of: This feels so bad, of: I can’t stand this, of: This is just a waste of time, of: I’m so useless, of: Everything is going wrong.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that maybe I just simply cannot have this Diligence in my life, and to believe that maybe that this is just not ‘me’, or not for me. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see realise and understand that this is me saying maybe I should just accept my programming.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within these maybe’s to be fostering a doubt in me, to undermine my trust in me. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be listening to the backchat in my mind that accumulates into a giving up on me.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consider that maybe I can accept this giving up on me just as I’ve done repeatedly throughout my life, to believe that giving up on me maybe might not be so bad. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that this giving up on me is part of who I am that can’t be changed. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to listen to the backchat of: Self Forgiveness will not help me here, that all this stuff is too ingrained.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consider that distracting myself from the negative energies that I am experiencing maybe what is best for me, that going into positive experience maybe might just be supportive for me. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare experience of feeling bad, to experience of distraction, and through that to have made a judgement that it is better to be oblivious in the mind than to be facing what is really going on within me.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in anxiety, as fear of what might happen in the future if I continue with this path I’m walking. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that this path I’m walking maybe wrong, and maybe leading me into being completely lost.

 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine people in my mind within the context of comparison, within the focus of blame. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to assault these beings for the sake of my assertion of a false reality. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in fear of what might happen if I were to step out of this box of personality, and to let go of my insistence of a world of separation. Therefore when and as a person comes up in my mind I commit myself to breathe and to recognize them in equality with me as I would want for me with them. I commit myself to stop this sabotage of my opportunity in this life to live for real.

 

I commit myself to not react to the realisations that I have about the fact that I am walking different processes, that I am aware of, such as with the word Diligence, and also now with Perfect, and in the background for a while a process with the word Structure. I commit myself to not accept and allow myself to become overwhelmed by this.  

 

 

 

 

 

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Recommended: series on Perfection, The Atlanteans

 

 

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~ by adamsblogs on October 13, 2016.

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