Day 301: Freedom

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Day 301: Freedom

 

Freedom: how is this word to be other than decorative or weaponized unless it is lived? Coupled with ‘Democracy’, it has become like a brand name that seems to justify and normalize the killing of human beings using high explosives. How so? What has gone so wrong in our world and our shared reality in which “Something rotten in the state of Denmark,” does not immediately lead us to examine what is actually in fact rotten in our minds that leads this way?

 

Applying something akin to the Propaganda Model upon our self media broadcasts of our own minds; what kind of behavior and thought and deed would we expect to arise from out of an independent pattern of energy awareness inside of which we are let’s say totally somnambulant, in the furthest reach of separation from our awareness of ourselves as the responsibility within it, in a state in which it is all ok to give authority into the hands of corporation as personality and personality as corporation?

 

The reality of our collective mass consciousness is that we are the microcosmic units of it, while the words that are the components of it all resonate without and resonate within. Bringing back the question: in which the Propaganda Model may assist us – the question arises out of a realization of how much and to what extent is our very reality being packaged and presented to us by ourselves in our own perceptions – by our personalities of consciousness – not with reliable reference to physical fact as source material – but more with reference to unchecked stories, memory impressions, and who and what we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be within and as experience, as the essence of the words that we write into the scripts of our reports.

 

Reality: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to store inside this word a system of who I am that stands for limitation. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have wrapped existence into a package, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept the designs of wrapping of my culture, in which I have accepted and allowed that all the ends of the world are folded neatly in.

 

Continuing…

 

 

 

 

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Day 300: Meaninglessness, Lost, and Freedom Mind Spin.

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Day 300: Meaninglessness, Lost, and Freedom Mind Spin.

 

 

A direction: From meaninglessness to a hereness, a connection to all, an intimacy.

 

From who I am within and as meaninglessness to who I am in awareness of myself and in awareness of the relationships and scripts that I have written for myself within this word, all coming from decisions that I have made of who I am within and as emotion, where as described last post I made the decision to bring ‘lost’ into and as an energy source within this system of meaninglessness.

 

Continuing, with an exploration of the contents of the word ‘lost’ as defined into a system of meaninglessness – in which I support myself deliberately within and as ‘exploration’ – In which, rather than being in constant reaction to myself I am on the ground, taking steps of investigation into ‘lost.’

 

In my life, today, now 1st of February 2016, to log it down into physical time record – I write this to support myself – in living ‘persistence’ as who I am in physical time – because so much I still live out a mind experience of time, or a time on hold while in the mind everything apparently must stop to look at this or that and then have exist within that pause, an image of foreverness.

 

So: deliberately here coming back from that, with something like, Remember Life, this physical existence that is here? With my hand resting on the certainty of this table top, with this incremental physical time, life-time, and so within that a reminder to myself to not just only remember this but to slow down into it and live it.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed ‘there is no time for physical life’ to exist within my mind as I am drawn towards some ‘important’ point, or some attraction of some thought, or the attraction of some fear of loss that I have accepted and allowed with regards to some fleeting realization that I see in my mind as being reabsorbed into the oblivion.

 

Seeing how it was that I had included ‘freedom’ as a positive spin of ‘lost’ and ‘meaninglessness’, opening up as yet another point as I write these posts, is like an example of how in my life now still operate this meaninglessness as I had formulated in myself when I was young; where in the sound of ‘No’ as spoken in my mind in current time, I see how these connections span my life, in which as a reminder, all my life is here.

 

Saying No, a refusal, in the advent of a responsibility, such as No, I’ll do it later, and, ‘Not now’: I noticed how within that reaction was like taking up the opportunity to assert who I have accepted and allowed myself to be within and as ‘Freedom.’

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define freedom with feeling good, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define freedom with not being controlled by structures or plans. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself define freedom with doing exactly ‘as I like’, and that I have accepted and allowed this ‘like’ to be equal to feeling good.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to assess the responsibility before me in terms of how good I might feel. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to responsibility with a fear of loss of the good feeling in my mind that I have accepted and allowed myself to live within and as, and that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into judging what it is that is here to be done, defining it as something that does not matter, something that is less than me, something that can wait, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define this freedom as a right, and not seen realized and understood that what I have defined within myself as a right is to follow the demands of energy as self interest, with freedom as this positive that I have accepted and allowed myself to fight for, to protect, and to defend.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live out freedom not seeing how I had defined it as a limitation. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become addicted to the thrill of asserting who I have accepted and allowed myself to be as ‘freedom.’ I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become enslaved to energy within this word that I have accepted and allowed as ‘freedom.’

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to be free to move myself without the motivations of the energy. I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to be free to embrace this responsibility that instead I have reacted to and then said ‘No.’ I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the word freedom to obstruct my own expansion in which in saying ‘No’ I am in fact saying yes to the systems of the mind.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect ‘No’ with ‘Yes’ to the systems of the mind as who I am in ‘freedom’. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself that I have grown comfortable within this arrangement, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as unworthy within this comfort. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel ashamed of who I am as unworthy in my judgement.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to enshrine this word ‘freedom’ within my mind, as an existential birth right, as a sacred resource, or an inner fire, as a reference to an inner definition that I have accepted and allowed as who I am, but never really looked at closely. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not recognize that who I am as defined in freedom is as an emotional/feeling experience.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look at how I am to then define for me who I am in freedom, how I am to apply this freedom in practice in my life, how in application of this freedom I can then direct myself to learn to be for example free to speak the words that are within me, free to move my body, free to reach out to others in my world, free to collaborate with others plans to make this freedom practical and real.

 

 continuing…

 

 

 

 

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Day 290: A Spurious Freedom

Communication Errors 12: A Spurious Freedom

 

Been looking at previous posts; the various discontents that I have lived in relation to ‘authority’, and how I had defined within and as this relationship/experience as a personality, a construct of ‘freedom’ in my mind, in which I have accepted and allowed ‘freedom’ as a positive resource, as an expression of ‘winning’, while at the same time, the word ‘authority’, with a multiple of negative wirings, and negative experience in diminishment, and subjugation and subservience, and losing. Within all of this, the ‘freedom’ that I have sought to defend and protect, I have done so in the fear of losing it, and within this fear I have not looked at this, that I have never actually ‘owned’ this ‘freedom’, that it is not a quality that I have discovered to exist within me, that I am one and equal to, but that it is rather as a collection of ideas and aspirations in my mind, an idea of ‘me’ within a state of freedom, a state in which my preferences reign supreme. And seeing and realizing this ‘freedom’ that I have lived to be a spurious freedom, as a kind of main anchor of this personality, then it sets off a tremble in me, so deep into the flesh that I have lived this. As a unit of Humanity, here is a pattern or configuration of a wider disempowerment.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to incorporate this conflict into my flesh, into the substance of myself, that I have accepted and allowed a regime of self-hostility to continue to exist within me, that I have accepted and allowed a make-believe that I can escape from this within my mind as referencing a freedom that is not real.

 

Such as in the dreams of Electric Sheep, in which two replicants discover how they share exact same dreams and memory implants, that they thought were intimately theirs alone; an image of a bird spread-winged against the sky, as an experience of freedom, or the ripples of a flag, tethered in a breeze, where freedom merges into victory, and the mind experience of righteousness merges into ‘God’. So many of the song lines of the sixties carried off this ambiguity of echoing the psalms while at the same time pining for love, for oneness with self through the means of a relationship. As a teenager in those times, I absorbed the music the mood, the stance, the programme. A decade of economic boom, born from out of war, a decade in which going to the Moon did not seem like a mad idea, a decade in which for the new generation everything seemed possible. These were like the cultures out of which I emerged, that bringing to me now, I see how much the constructs of this personality reached into the constructs of the times, and that gradually I remove the nested gold-fish bowls, like Russian Dolls.

 

 

 

 

 

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Day 283: Communication Errors 5: BANG! BANG! BANG!

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Day 283: Communication Errors 5: BANG! BANG! BANG!

 

An incident – the bang bang bang of a fist – as if in my mind – of the law at the door – not like, knock knock, politely, Is there anybody there? – But in my mind, a command – like, Open the fucking door, come out, I know you’re in there! Ref. Imagination, world media library, query: ‘bang bang bang’.

 

I got caught up into a fear reaction when someone banged three times very loudly on my door, I started up and crossed the room, pulled the door open, there was a man with a black case of files and a tablet, saying about the electors register, and checking who I was. This seemed in my mind a stupid exercise, I was looking for a way to undermine him, because in my mind that authority trigger had been tripped; the banging on the door, that jolt of fear, and so I became quite bristly. When I closed the door, I gave it that extra ounce.

 

It’s interesting how this one comes up now; an example of that shift that I have been looking at in recent posts, where I see I am showing me now the question, Have I really walked through this?

I commit myself to live Respect, in living Effort in respect for my effort to see realise understand and change these things.

 

So yes, out from Life comes another example where too late I recognized the trigger, but seeing it in more detail now, recognizing more and more the aspects of this personality that compromise my and other’s current reality. It was when I closed the door that I thought, what was all that about? How come this wave of anger through me…and, Oh yes, oops ‘authority’. On the time-line, I had been startled by the sudden noise, and then I had interpreted: I added to the noise that it was angry, I added to the noise that it was inconsiderate, I went into blame on the source of the noise that I was being disrespected, I went into blame that I was being disturbed, I went into blaming the source of this noise for the experience that I saw it as ‘making me’ have. That was before I opened the door. Unfortunate for the man, because I assaulted him, probably with some scathing look, but fundamentally, with the judgement. He pressed a button on his tablet, turned around and walked off quickly.

 

In the centre of this reaction, an image of an ‘officer’ of the local system, taking the office personally, becoming angry with people who had not yet returned their forms. Officers of the court, of the law, officers of the army, this point in me where it is like a trigger, seeing the manipulations of authority, with as it were, the strings attached into and through the minions, with the minions becoming personally involved, striking at the closed doors with fists of anger. And looking here at how a corporate system with its hierarchy of officers as positions, that is positions – with replaceable physical human content – is operating its controls through anger, where the operative has volunteered the personality reaction to enforce authority.

 

Looking into this one, various memories come up, an image of soldiers in the army, carrying out their orders, but doing so in hatred: The police-man banging on my car window in the middle of the night, in the middle of an empty landscape because of a bi-law about parking: Many instances. It is in this that contains the formula of my contempt, where I have in a way looked into the eyes, of a potential meeting, but have instead seen a void, and become aware of a massive injustice, and not seen realized or understood the significance of what I’ve seen, but have instead taken it personally as an injustice in relation to my self-interest, in relation to Me. And then have gone into blame and into contempt of this perceived subservience, targeting both authority and its operatives.

 

Contempt for those manipulated by authority in which the authority is judged, as well as acceptance of it, and the simulation of it, and the mimicry of it, in which I see through the tube-vision hatred of the personality, a perceived reality that consists within the prevailing conditions of resonance of authority as the negativity through the very definition of myself as in retaliation to authority. Designing a self in retaliation is like designing a self as a negative exact copy, the illusion being that I am free, being everything ‘not this’. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed this definition of freedom to exist within me and as me.

 

I commit myself to walk through this, to open up and live these parts of me that I have pushed away, put a veto in my mind, not to go there, to not be allowed to think a certain thing, to not look square on at this subservience within me, this who I am as not-free in all ways, that is enslaved, that I have so harshly judged and banned, from this, as it were, my kingdom of contempt.

 

I commit myself to face the consequence within me of that massive injustice to self that I have become aware of in projections, within which I stand as obviously responsible: Kingdom, because the ripples and the consequences of my actions throughout the years have spread far and wide; the resonance of this contempt projected onto everything, and manifesting through the actions and behaviours into physical reality, into events in physical history, within this I commit myself to face the responsibility that I have in the very fabric of the world in which I live, and have lived, and to change according to the principle of Life the resonance that comes from me.

 

More on this…

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Day 257: Purpose 1

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‘How’ the question of ‘why’ we are here specifies into ‘what’ is our purpose – ‘here’ – meaning on this ‘Earth’ – Were we ‘meant’ to be someone, do something? In using the word ‘meant’ it is clear that we are referencing the question of our definition – where from out of our awareness spills a spectrum of interrogatives – where the existence of the question attests to an expansion of our awareness. A world bereft of questions is an automation, an unfolding consequence of algorithms – in such a world, what would be the function of mere witnesses, except as kind of like inspection portals within the great machine…

 

Okay grounding myself here, I breathe.

 

How have I in my life defined the word ‘purpose’ and lived accordingly? Because seeing this in itself as being a massive question – then what of this question asked of all of the awarenesses within humanity at once – that is so vast as to be incomprehensible – like how does each of us everywhere define and hence live and experience this word? Seven plus billion definitions of a single word, within seven plus billion individualized vocabularies… and the consequential chaos of a mass of beings unable to see why they cannot walk in one direction.

 

I remember as a teenager, a moment where this question of my purpose on Earth had come up – I was looking at my hands – I was asking what these hands were for, with their palm lines and their finger prints, their size, their strength, their sensitivity – like were they specialized in some way – could I read from them some clue about my purpose? It’s a significant memory, to me, because it is a record of the fact that I was searching to find my purpose, rather than seeing and realizing that my purpose was in my hands, and that it was a decision that I wanted support in making, but instead I was kind of looking for a label in a way, some pre-written function.

 

Even within making my purpose ‘my own’ – it was not clear to me that though this was my decision, it was a decision to follow my programming – to reinforce, protect, defend, maintain my mind constructs – within which, ‘justification’ had become acceptable to me as a substitute for reality, and within that, I defined this word purpose as subservient to ‘who I am’ as defined and limited by my relationships to energy. That is, I utilized my definition of purpose as justification to follow absolutely my self interest as a working system of energy relationships to which I was enslaved, but in which I saw myself as ‘free’. That these energy relationships were based on words such as also this word ‘free’ that I had, like the word ‘purpose’, taken up within my mind, slanted and shaped and energized, brought to side within the preference of the personality configurations within my mind, that I had become possessed by.

 

Again, bringing this all back here, very much not a pretty sight, though I have decided for and with myself in self forgiveness and understanding of these things – not at all pretty – because in seeing how I might have answered, what is purpose, what does purpose mean to me, and through that, what I am ‘meant’ to do here on this ‘Earth’ – I would have answered emphatically, to be free, to be free to express myself, to live the life of an artist, in total disregard of others, in total disregard of the practicality of taking care of my body – where ‘art’ had seemed to me to be convenient channel to glorify my reaction to ‘the system’ – where out of that word ‘glory’ came a resource of justification, as being ‘special’, as having special dispensation.

 

It’s interesting how my definition of purpose was kind of like an outflow of ‘entitlement’ – a combined belief about suffering arising out of my own imposed self secrecy in guilt and constrictions of self punishment through judgements – transcending as energy into the positive domains – where I was somehow ‘free’ to build and inhabit my own design of Xanadu in the form of massive extravaganzas of colour, and through which I had resolved to live a life of energetic pleasure. It is as an example of how I had incorporated this word purpose into primarily the exigencies of energy management. In a sense I had stolen purpose from the world, possessing it with this automated ‘my’ and snipping off all reference lines to the physical reality, to who I really am within myself as located in the physical world. And from there in such serious realization, to shift again into the pattern and feed the voracious guilt in the darkened underworld of secrecy.

Man, where is your fucking dignity? Sounding these words, I realise that I have in my abuse of purpose, become separated from the word dignity – where what comes up is shame. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have exiled myself from living dignity. I commit myself to learn to live this word.

 

Back to this emphatic purpose: ‘to be free’ – I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define freedom of expression within and as a positive energy, and for not allowing myself to see that what is really in fact expressed in this is who I am as possessed by this pattern of energy, acquiescent to the programming, hidden away from my responsibility and my own directive principle within the folds of guilt. Therefore I redefine this ‘freedom’ as my decision to release myself from energy, where as directive principle I learn to move myself, in which freedom I can stand in purpose, and strengthen it, expand it, specifize it. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define freedom in such a way that sabotages constant and consistent purpose.

 

 

 

Two very supportive interviews on Purpose: Crucifixion of Jesus Parts 41, and 42

 Living Words: Purpose – Part 1

Living Words: Purpose – Part 2

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Day 231: Freedom

Human Rights and the Equal Life Foundation  •  Desteni.org  • 

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Living Income Guaranteed: The Proposal

 

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Day 231: Freedom

 Freedom is that there is but One Way to Go

“We are now within the physical reality existence where every detail minutest tiniest smallest part of ourselves is fragmented into everything that is here as this physical existence, and now we are in a living manifestation of our absolute utmost separation, so with being within that total separation from ourselves as reaching the complete and total bottom darkest deepest pit that we can find ourselves in within existence. There is only one way to go now, which is walking ourselves back to ourselves, in bringing everything of ourselves back to ourselves, and returning our selves to our selves. And we have got our entire map which is our minds and this physical existence – its all manifested into individual parts, individual manifestations, individual experiences, individual expressions – all we have to do is take ourselves part by part to ourselves back to ourselves within ourselves.”

Extract from The Atlanteans 14 Establishing Individuality

 How can our reality described in these words be apprehended and realised while all the words are defined and charged as energy by our consciousness interpretations – because these words – from the Portal interview – are not referring to the world mind consciousness illusion, the everyday energy awareness reality – the words refer to the actual physical reality that is here in Equality and Oneness. Reacting to these words one would define themselves in energy, and then be unable to grasp the actual facts presented, the simple facts of ourselves here in separation from the one and equal in and as the physical – where reactions such as judging the contents, defining them as something, and within that dismissing or replacing them with replicas as knowledge and information, making relationships of comparison, activating feelings, all movements of the energy, movements of defined and networked system energy, and all of it in relationship to this I defined in energy, valued in terms of energy, defined in separation from this physical reality. That is how the mind is like a map – we have to walk our definitions of ourselves, in self forgiveness give ourselves back to ourselves, walk ourselves out of the energy awareness reality in which we have accepted and allowed for ourselves to become defined.

I commit myself to as and when the word freedom arises, to stop and breathe, I stay with myself here in the physical, I cross reference within me for connections that I have accepted and allowed, the definitions that I have made of me in separation as energy, because I see and realise and understand that the only freedom is in realizing what I have accepted and allowed, and how I did it, and walking out of it. I commit myself to align my actions in and as this word freedom as a tributary of this purpose for all, as what is best for all. 

 

Creation’s Journey to Life : Day 529: Bubbles and The Theory of Everything – Part 3

Heaven’s Journey to Life:  From Responding/Reacting to the Mind to Response-ability/Direction in Reality (part2): Day 478

 

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Day 198: Negativity as Freedom

  

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as fear in relationship to debunking my own lines of backchat that I have accepted and allowed within me and as such so to remain. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed fear of realization of who I am as programmed substance, responsible within this for what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and to become, responsible within this as fear of change, and fear of realization of this responsibility I have in writing into me this fear of change. I see and realise and understand this fear of change to be essential to the integrity of energy constructs as personalities, therefore I forgive myself that in accepting and allowing this who I am as fear of change, to be standing by and as this primary relationship through which a personality can exist, define, evolve itself and continue to survive as an aspect of this consciousness.

 

Continuing here to investigate the contents of the word ‘No’ as I have substantiated it with who I am, and so defined it and lived it. Here I look at how I have contained within this word ‘No’, experiences of energy in the context of using it within self-righteousness as retaliation – in seeking to lay the blame onto others- and then have accepted and allowed these sentences as automatic program-speak within my mind as backchat.

 

Some ‘No’ Refusal/Retaliation Backchat:

 

“No! – I won’t do it – because – you can’t make me, why should I, this is MY-LIFE, I do what I like, I don’t feel like it…”

 

A catechism – I mean by this, …’a series of fixed questions, answers, or precepts used for instruction in other situations.’ (dictionary def.) … This backchat as I have written out here comes over as a catechism in the sense of it being a list or a series of self vows, behests, beliefs, self instructions to justify this ‘who I am’, what I stand for and as in the self-religion of me as a system of self interest. As such they are expressions of self as negativity interpreted and justified through consciousness as positive self-judgements as ‘freedom’.

 

You can’t make me.

Subtext: I see the issue of whether or not I can be ‘made’ to do something to be necessary to state in this refusal.

In this I emphasize my stand as fear of manipulation, (see previous 2 posts) and so also to divert me from the realization that I hide from me awareness that I am acting according to how I have been ‘made’ ( this word ‘made’ as in both ‘constructed’, and in ‘forced to act’) within the programming.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create strategies in which I do not see the detail of the mind-control that I have accepted and allowed, through which I see myself as ready-made, as unchangeable, as positive within standing in loyalty to this consequence of me. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to stand as self righteousness in protection and defence of this ‘me’, as blame of others as in defining their request of me as abusive and undermining, that in asking me to do something, that they are trying to make me into something other than what I am.

 

Why should I?

Subtext: There is no ‘reason’ why ‘I’ should do this. I align myself to ‘reason’, to the equations of this consciousness, and within and from this platform of reasoning, I know that I can always find a back door open for me in which I have justified and excused my ‘No’ refusal, and through this to have found a positive energy reward within self righteousness, and blame of others in that I am making them ‘at fault’ within being unreasonable.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refer to and to revert to the laws of reasoning within my mind as me in separation from myself, in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have left who I really am – as this awareness that I am here – out of my own equations.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within imagination, seeing myself as strengthlessness, as a loser within complying automatically to a request, that I am being pushed around by others, and so within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as superior and as strength in saying ‘No’, and also within this I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to see realize and understand that I have accepted and allowed myself as automatic within this and have not allowed myself to see that in this automation I have moved so fast to not see the decisions that I have made, or that I have accepted and allowed the programming to make for me while I stand aside in separation.

 

 

This is MY-LIFE.

Subtext: This life is according to how I have defined it in my mind.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within an ignorance of how I have actually substantiated and so defined and lived these words of ‘Me’ and hence ‘My’, and ‘Life’, and I commit myself to walk these words within and as this process of self realization. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be blind to what I have accepted and allowed as ‘Who I Am’, within and as these words by justifying to myself that this is ‘obvious’.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define who and what I am as life according to the mind, and for within this that I have accepted and allowed myself to define what is ‘me’ according to the mind, and hence what is ‘mine’, and within this I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see realise and understand that in this statement, ‘this is MY-LIFE’, that I have defined myself according to my definition of myself which is as the MIND.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that with this MY-LIFE I am free to do with it whatever I ‘please’, which includes as ‘my’ property, my freedom to abuse. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realise and understand that within this I have accepted and allowed myself as absolute in separation from life itself within an image of myself as an impossibility in apparently being the ‘owner’ of it, and being superior to it in this relationship of ‘my’ ‘property’.

 

I do what I like.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to align myself to acting in my self interest only according to preferences of energy as in avoidance and attraction.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to align myself to be limited within and as apparent choices to only serve self interest.

 

I don’t feel like it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be as consciousness and scan to ascertain whether or not there is good feelings for me as energy reward to be generated out of these actions. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to stand within and as and for good feelings as this positive assertion of myself as ‘free’ to ‘not do’ if I see no energy reward within it.

 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that underneath this list of backchat lays a consistent refusal that I have accepted and allowed as refusal to see my self responsibility in all of this, that in this backchat I am attempting to justify my separation from myself, appealing to illusions of and as myself as righteousness, while fearing who I am as wrong or as less than good enough. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize and understand that I have created an energy reality and superimposed it onto what is here as relationships between points of blame.

 

I commit myself to release myself from and to change this programming that I have accepted and allowed within the word ‘No’. I commit myself to stop and breathe when there is a reaction in me that would be as this programmed version of myself within the word No, and with stopping me to learn to actually live this word in stopping my acceptance and allowance of this backchat to exist. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed this word as permissions for my system.

 

When and as refusal comes up in me, I stop within the simplicity of this word ‘No’, and I breathe, and I remind myself that the only strength within this reality of myself is my own strength because there is no one else here within me but me, that I am seeing this strength of me in separation from myself and that I have accepted and allowed myself as less than it. Therefore I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own strength, and I now allow myself to breathe and I embrace this strength as me.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

New Interviews: Sunette Spies: 

Day 343 The meaning of Self –for-Gifting/Giving Life pt 1

Day 344 The meaning of Self- for-Gifting/Giving Life part 2

 

Bernard Poolman: Changing the Character of the World

 

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The Quantum Mind
This series is for a serious student that cares about LIFE and endeavour to understand how creation functions in fact in specific details.

 

4 Count Breath as Emergency Tool of Self-Support

 

Heaven’s Journey To Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

 

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Day 196: ‘No’: Reaction

 

The reactive ‘No’ of my refusal carries a self-righteousness, an appeal to my image of who I am as freedom, that I am in the instant of my reaction totally believing in. It is like an absolute denial of my enslavement, a commitment to an image in my mind of who I am as free, and standing as this as, superiority, as positive energy, and blame upon the bad one that seeks to undermine my freedom.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react with ‘No’ to what I have interpreted as manipulation, in which I fear that I am being tricked in some way, that I am being controlled, and in this reaction I forgive myself that I have manipulated myself to feel righteous and positive about not considering what is being asked of me, and just simply saying no, excusing myself from these considerations – in which there was an opportunity to find a solution that was best for all, given the facts of what needed to be done and what was here – so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be dwelling instead on blame about the way that I was approached, in which I have deliberately taken the situation personally as an affront upon my dignity or my authority, or my status as a free person. I forgive myself in this that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek to win within this situation by saying ‘no’. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see within this situation that I have reacted self righteously so quickly because I do not wish to experience myself as an inferior in this relationship, that in being manipulated therefore I have lost, and that within that loss, I do not want to experience myself as being exploited or utilized for the purposes of another. Within this also I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try and protect me from my own experience of myself by distracting me with ideas in my mind about the motivations of the other person where I seek out little prizes of self righteousness through blame and seek out instances of inferiority in the other person, rather than considering who they really are, or what it may be like to be standing in their shoes. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that the object of blame that I see through my eyes before me is an actual image of myself and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to see myself in how I myself have manipulated other people to make them do what I want them to do, because I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to ask directly, because I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the answer ‘No’.

 

I commit myself to release myself from the enslavement of these reaction games within my mind by facing who I am within them. I commit myself to when I am asked to do something to stop and breath and give me space and consider what it is that I am being informed is needed to be done so that I can respond to what is here in a way that is part of the solution of what is best for all. 

 

 

 

New Interviews: Sunette Spies: 

Day 343 The meaning of Self –for-Gifting/Giving Life pt 1

Day 344 The meaning of Self- for-Gifting/Giving Life part 2

 

Bernard Poolman: Changing the Character of the World

 

NEW

the FREE DIP LITE Course now available to All  – simply sign up and start- http://lite.desteniiprocess.com/ This is a powerful free introduction to real self-exploration, and self realisation using the Desteni tools, with online support. This really is an opportunity of a life time.

 

 

The Quantum Mind
This series is for a serious student that cares about LIFE and endeavour to understand how creation functions in fact in specific details.

 

4 Count Breath as Emergency Tool of Self-Support

 

Heaven’s Journey To Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

 

7 Year Journey to Life @ Facebook
http://www.facebook.com/groups/journeytolife/

Desteni.org

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Books Interviews Information Music Eqafe.com

Day 139: Postponement Character

Postponement 

Another belief about myself that I noticed today was my right to not change, to not move, until convenient, like if the moment comes up when I must respond, then I see it as my right to make a kind of deal, which goes, ok I will do that, but in exchange for this, I want some time, as if it is I am doing a favor to myself to move at all. Like ok but first I finish this moment of doing nothing. It’s like first of all there is a reaction to not respond, and a thought about being cornered, or being forced. This reluctance in my physical is a holding back, a stiffness, a heaviness. This belief in my organization of lies as my self religion is a belief in freedom, that if I am to respond immediately to what needs to be done, then there is a loss of freedom. But this ‘freedom’ is being free to ‘play’, rather than to take up responsibilities, being free to indulge habitual characters of positive energy experience, and in the automation of these temptations, the ‘freedom’ is like a justification of why it must be so. But in the face of this addiction, the freedom itself is exactly the opposite of what it represents and so is a complete lie. What I have done is attach a positive energy experience to the word ‘freedom’, while what it actually represents is allowance of continued addiction and automation. Ok that may be so, but rather than to actually begin to play with these thoughts and ideas, I bring myself back to practicality, because in fact I do want to change this nature of myself for real.

 

So the question of how to actually practically change the consequence of being directed by these characters that are all designed and orientated towards production of energy and satisfaction of self interest, how to practically step out of that and into self direction, self direction to actually live the reality of what is best for all. How to practically change and actually live equality and oneness.

 

And so I commit myself to walk the dimensions of this postponement character that I have accepted and allowed because I am seeing and realizing the main role that the postponement character plays in my life, in a looping process of opposition to actual change. Reading Heaven’s Journey to Life blogs on the postponement character I realize how the characters that I have looked at in my blogs play parts as backdoor characters within the main driving force of postponement and distraction, towards an end of doing nothing to change what is happening. And the ‘I don’t care’ character that nullifies my own negative reactions and judgements of myself in seeing who I am within postponement, I recognize this one too, as well as my projections as judgements onto those I see as ‘not caring’.

 

 

Ok that’s the plan, I start this walk next blog.

 

 

 

Changing the Character of the World

 

The Quantum Mind
This series is for a serious student that cares about LIFE and endeavour to understand how creation functions in fact in specific details.

 

 

4 Count Breath as Emergency Tool of Self-Support

 

Heaven’s Journey To Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

 

7 Year Journey to Life @ Facebook
http://www.facebook.com/groups/journeytolife/

Desteni.org

Equalmoney.org

 

Books Interviews Information Music Eqafe.com