Day 214: Paranoia within Paranoia

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Day 214: Paranoia within Paranoia

 

-Paranoia as an illusory relationship of consciousness to its own reactions, in which it defines that relationship as a ‘reality’ over and above the reality of the physical.-

 

What I have trapped myself into and as in how I have defined myself within the word paranoia and what has become apparent is a charge of fear within this word that I have hidden and suppressed from my own awareness.

 

I have been realising this point: that my ‘reluctance’ to write ‘about’ the paranoia that is evident everywhere like a subtle plague infesting into all levels of human existence, exposure of which is of vital importance to All and Everyone at this time, which would in common sense be best for all – comes out of how I have lived the word paranoia as an energy experience as my self.

 

Believing in my mind that I can investigate this word in the outer aspect of my world by reaching ‘around’ and ‘about’ (myself as) this word itself, in which I have actually merged my living reality into and as an energy experience, I have accepted and allowed myself to overlook, and brush aside this ‘reluctance’, and not look strait-forwardly upon the fear of who I am as stored within, but justified myself into a positive energy experience as self righteousness through the excuse of a lack of knowledge and information, while in this ‘reluctance’, reach ‘around’ and ‘about’ this word that what I am avoiding (reacting in fear towards) is the realisation of who I am and who I have accepted and allowed myself to be within and as this word ‘paranoia’.

 

The realisation of these things opens an awareness of the real nature of this reluctance that I have lived in relation to applying this word to various phenomena in this world and this reality, because there is no clarity within this word as I have lived it, but a murky and unspecified ‘reluctance’ in which I have attempted the impossible of putting myself aside and write self-honesty. This itself is an example of the paranoia through which I have attempted to impose with my mind an energy reality to suit my self interested energy experience onto the phenomenon of self expression. So it is ‘important’ – being in the interests of what is best for all – that I remove and re-align, correct myself within and as the word paranoia, to no longer live my own definition of the word, of me as an energy experience, and take the paranoia out of the word paranoia so that I can be clear within the word as representing a relationship of mind experience towards itself, and no longer include within the contents of this word of my own personalized relationships of accepted and allowed fear and judgement, and shame.

 

My personalized contents of the word paranoia begin with memories in which for the first time I encountered the word and then drew it into my vocabulary. This encounter was in the context of self-doubt, believing that there must be something ‘wrong’ with me, I researched in books of ‘psychology’, and came across psychiatric ‘case studies’, libraries of classified human ‘types’, as finished objects, where I was looking for a matching comparison from which to define myself. So I was looking to get in-formed and within that defined from a starting-point of there being within me something ‘wrong’, like there was a belief that there must be an authoritative judgement by which I could measure this experience of being me.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect to the word paranoia, a memory of an experience of myself in which I consented to this statement that ‘there must be…an authoritative judgement in this book/library of who and what I am.’

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into comparison of lifes and from this to go into judgement of myself within the statement to myself that, ‘there must be… ‘something wrong with me’.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word paranoia in and as a judgement of myself, and from there to experience the word paranoia as a judgement.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to store the energy experience of fear within the word paranoia, contained in memories in which I have been and become this reaction of fear in connection to hearing the word paranoia, spoken about me, in connection to me, as a definition of who I am that I have accepted and allowed as me.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself within and as this word paranoia, or paranoid as if this were a description of my entire being, a finished product, like an open and shut case within what I believed to be myself as an example of ‘unchangeable’ humanity.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to store these negative judgements of myself within the word paranoia – and fear of who I am as I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself to be.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word paranoia out of my experience of myself enslaved to fear, an experience of myself through my self judgement, as an experience of shame.

 

I commit myself to clarify myself within living the word paranoia, to remove the energy experience that I have stored within it. I commit myself to the honest investigation of myself within who I am within the words in my vocabulary. I commit myself to clarify the words within my mind because I see and realise and understand that I have sabotaged and hampered my understanding of myself and of the world and my reality through relationships with words that I have accepted and allowed to be substantiated with who I am as illusion of myself as energy experience.

 

 

 

 

 

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Day 210: Prospecting for Money

 

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Day 210: Prospecting for Money

Making prospects. Prospecting for money – this is about moving myself in such a way so as to organize my receiving of some money, so that I can use this money to buy some food, pay some bills, continue to have a roof over my head, and for more prospecting for money, which also costs money. So this prospecting activity is about making deliberate connections into the money system in which I live, and depend upon for my physical living to continue. The reality is that when there is hardly any food, it becomes difficult to move and to work with physical energy, the body becomes depleted, and prospecting for money itself becomes practically difficult.

And so, the practicality – I print out words for advertising – my name and number for direct connection, along with skills and specific services, and place these words where people can see them – in local publications, and in shop windows, flyers to go through letter boxes, footwork, walking, talking. Into conversation I place the statements of my quest for work – in all of this there is hope of a result, a hope that feeding information into the grape-vines of my local world will bring about a meeting or an enquiry of some sort.

And so a job comes up; my function here is to be as a mediator in a way between the idea of a loft conversion and the physical reality of the actual house. In exchange for some money, I am to provide some evidence of how practically a flooring system can be fitted safely into the roof space of the house. In order to provide this evidence, what I do physically, from the top of a step ladder and using a spirit level, is to draw a single level pencil line across the surface of the plaster all around the walls of each upstairs room – from this horizontal line all measurements up into the loft space can then be made and then compared. From these measurements, the relationships between the heights of wall plates for example can be quantified exactly. The actual measured spans of future joists will determine their cross-sections and sizes. From all this information, a design for the flooring platform can then be practically costed and designed.

That horizontal line of levelness brought the whole structure of the house into a workable perspective. I was glad to assist and support in a decision making process. This took about four hours, more than twice as long as expected.

So that was how I got some money on this day. And a spin off from doing this – another job, in which I am to replace a door-frame and repair a door. I have always enjoyed making things, though I realise now that I have paid little attention in my life to actually making prospects for myself, much less in making prospects for others and with others in the wider world.

 

Tools.

The ‘spirit’ level is an interesting tool, you kind of have to move the tool itself, while relatively the bubble stays where it is, and then when the tool is positioned correctly around the bubble, then the straight edge of the tool is ‘level’. The relative ‘positioning’ of the bubble is according to the laws of physics, floating ‘upwards’ in the liquid in which it is contained; so that when neither end of the tool is further ‘up’ (or away from the centre of the planet) than the other, then the bubble remains stable between the two ends of the tool. It’s kind of ‘obvious’, or totally accepted, that when water settles into stability, that the surface plane, in small areas at least, is ‘level’. This level itself is defined by the stability of the gravitational field of the earth, which in turn is stabilized by the gravitational field of the surrounding universe.

Using level planes in combination with the L shaped right angle tool, produces the vertical ‘plumb line’, which is a line, as a weight on the end of a string, that points directly to the centre of the Earth.

These two lines, the vertical ‘plumb’, and the horizontal ‘level’ form the basic principles of the structure of buildings, reflecting the angles of maximum stability. There is a third factor in the stabilization of these two lines, which is the factor of ‘triangulation’. This triangulation is based on the geometrical property of the triangular form, which is rigidity. While a square or a rectangle can easily flop one way or the other into a parallelogram, and the lengths of the sides remain constant, a triangle cannot move like this. Hence triangulated struts give rigidity to building structures.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in times past within such considerations of my work and tools within the fabric of physical reality, put down and written into me layers of self definitions in my mind and body within polarities between the ‘cosmic’ and the ‘mundane’, that in seeing and realizing some form of ‘cosmic’ significance in the tools that I am using on a ‘mundane’ physical job of work, and projected myself into symbolic levels of sacred geometry and superimposed this ‘cosmic’ with a spiritualization and mystery of imagination, and then accepted and allowed myself to generate a ‘special’ energy from this within and as a personality of ‘specialness’, in which I have deliberately polarized myself into consciousness away from and above the physical equality of who I am.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define and negatively judge the Earth, and hence the substance of myself, within my definition of ‘mundane’, as inferior to ‘cosmic’, as a lesser, and crude, as a gross manifestation of existence, in which polarity I have accepted and allowed myself as energy to seek a moreness experience of myself as standing in this world, not of the world, but from the standpoint of the mind within and as an idea of ‘eternity’, above the world, beyond the world, as a projection of being from some other place.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than others and for defining myself within and as inferiority in which I have enslaved myself to live in fear of experiencing myself as a measurement of my mind, and for not allowing myself to realise that in believing in such thoughts and definitions of myself that I have in fact chosen to believe in and to make real the illusions of my imagination over and above the actual reality of who I am in this physical existence.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to postpone going out to find some work and hence get some money, choosing instead to live within an experience of hope that something may possibly ‘turn up’, or come to me, until the last moment almost when I realise that if I do not move myself then nothing will happen except the consequences of not having money, which is to jeopardize my ability to support my basic physical requirements to stay physically healthy and alive.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to look at my actual relationship to money. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see realise and understand in how I stand within this, as postponement to move myself to get some money. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in a life of ‘sailing close to the wind’, in other words, living close to the reality of a prospect in which the boat capsizes – and to realise that this has been my relationship to the money system of the world, and it has been a relationship based on my own self interest, as a belief in who I am as an energy system of consciousness, as a brainwashed entity, dwelling in constructs of hope and self righteousness, within the mind and imagination, as an ‘artist’ or an ‘artisan’, with a finger up to the world system of money, and a finger up to my own responsibility as a part of this. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed this relationship to exist, to stand by in separation from my self while the consequence of who I am as this has accumulated and rolled and washed me up as it were upon some shore, to face the reality of this reality being what I have accepted and allowed.

 

I commit myself to stabilize my own reality within making prospects for myself in getting regular work and receiving money. I commit myself to the work of not only making prospects for myself to the work of making prospects for all in the world, prospects based on the fundamental human rights as defined by The Equal Life Foundation, prospects in the practical design and implementation of an Equal Money System, that reflects these rights, an economic system for all people in equality that is based on the value of Life.

 

 

 

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Day 207: Humanity

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‘Humanity’ – This word purified would be a useful and essential tool in questions that I need to answer of the context of who I am in this world – where the question of how do I see myself in the context of Existence as a whole – remains unanswered – and unanswerable – because my ability to embrace this point through who I am as who I have accepted and allowed myself to be is limited and confined by these definitions I have imposed on and then lived as words.

Hence the question comes as a big knock on the door, as a great support, where in response I am forced to show myself a perspective of myself as locked within my brainwashed reality of energy experience. And as I push this door I realize that it leads both inwards and outwards simultaneously, and that where I have been has been not Here.

 

I had a visitor to my house and noticing that when I use out loud the word ‘humanity’ that there is a catch of doubt, and uncertainty, a hesitation with using this word – and that then there must be something contained in this word, as part of the definition I have accepted and allowed designed and lived. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not question why it is that I have an experience such as this reaction in using this word in conversation, but have simply brushed it off, ignored it, and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise that what I have written into this word is who I am within and as it, and therefore what it is that I communicate with using this word is this energy that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect and integrate within it, such as this doubt, this uncertainty, this hesitation concerning who I am within and as ‘humanity’, and therefore accepted and allowed for all within and as ‘humanity’.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give to the word ‘humanity’ a negative charge of energy, which I see and realize that I have done because there is a hesitation and a resistance to myself that comes up in me when I speak the word to another being, in which I see that there is fear. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to generate and live an energy of fear within me in connection to the word ‘humanity’.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word ‘humanity’ through accepting and allowing myself to define ‘humanity’ in energy as who I am as stored within me and when and as I speak the word.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed within me a fear of what another being might possibly think, and therefore how they possibly might see me, as I sound the word ‘humanity’ in a sentence of words as a perspective on the world that flows from this. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be defined by the judgements of others, and to fear the experience of myself that flows from this that I have accepted and allowed as real.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to listen to the backchat that says, who the fuck are you to talk about, to use this word ‘humanity’? I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be moved by a fear that arises from the belief that I am not qualified to use the word ‘humanity’ – within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am not qualified, allowed by the systems, to talk about or use the word ‘humanity’ to talk about myself as the ‘humanity’ which I am.

 

Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define within the word ‘humanity’ that I must be expert in knowledge and information to be qualified to use the word ‘humanity’, that knowledge and information in the ‘field’ of ‘humanity’ is a requirement for me to speak about ‘humanity’. Therefore I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as knowledge and information when I have used the word ‘humanity’.

 

Within this definition of ‘humanity’ as knowledge and information, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify ideas of inequality between human beings as in myself.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than others, within not having extensive knowledge and information in the ‘field’ of ‘humanity’, I forgive myself within this that I have accepted and allowed myself as less than in the word ‘humanity’, and to thence experience myself as small as I stand in separation from myself within the word ‘humanity’.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the experience I have of me when I use the word ‘humanity’ when talking to another being.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as ‘not good enough’ to use the word humanity.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to use the word ‘humanity’ when talking to another being, as another example of this ‘humanity’ of which I speak; within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that in using the word ‘humanity’ that I am in ‘danger’ of breach of contract, or treading on another’s ‘rights’ of secrecy within the mutual arrangements of respect for each other’s bubbles, where there is an agreement with me and for all to ‘bump’ along within and as our personal realities, because in looking in another’s eye and using the word ‘humanity’ I am somehow including who that person really is within themselves, possibly against their will and their consent, beyond a boundary that they themselves are as yet unwilling to go, and then I see this in myself, and so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to face myself as ‘humanity’, beyond the boundaries that I myself have made as personalities of energy, where I have accepted and allowed myself to protect my own definition of myself as somehow sacred ground within my secret mind.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek for a more comfortable way in which I can avoid my negative experience in and as this word humanity when talking with a human being, in which I have accepted allowed myself to exclude my experience of myself and for the other to be excluded also so that what is being discussed or arranged is mutual comfortability in personal energy experience and nothing more.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear a confrontation or a competition in which it is my definition of humanity versus yours, in which I am right or wrong, and I am looking for more energy in superiority and winning. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be side tracked into energy as I attempt to communicate with others in my world and in this I commit myself to see and realize and understand that real communication has failed for the sake of my allegiance to who I am within this fear of confrontation with another being in relationship to who we are as ‘humanity’.

 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define ‘humanity’ as if it is an abstract, as a concept or an idea of the mind, something that applies to all other beings with the exception of me, because I have accepted and allowed myself to exclude myself from closer scrutiny… and giving to myself this scrutiny, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realise and understand that a fear that I have accepted and allowed within my definition of the word ‘humanity’ is in the realization that within using this word I am in fact talking of myself directly as who I am and not as a picture in my mind of all human beings in the world outside and beyond me, therefore I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed this fear that I have put myself in the spot as this ‘humanity’ and into the realization of what I have accepted and allowed as this humanity as who I am, that I am in fact with no comprehension of this ‘humanity’ of which I speak because I have separated myself from me. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself in and as the way that I have lived and spoken this word to have promote a humanity that lives in uncertainty and doubt of its own reality in the physical existence.

 

Therefore I commit myself to walk this process into comprehension of myself as the physical reality of myself as ‘humanity’, and out of the consciousness imprisonment that I have lived within and as this word, in which I have accepted and allowed myself as ‘humanity’ as an image in my mind that is not Here.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ‘envision’ a ‘humanity’ that exists in an existence in separation from the physical world as the Earth on which this group of us as physical beings live off the Earth, and by the providence of Earth, sustained by Earth, supported and dependent on the Earth, in an existence where there is no separated physicality.

 

I commit myself to see and realise and understand the nature of my responsibility in this existence as humanity, custodian of life on Earth.

 

I commit myself to purify this word ‘humanity’ that I have lived within my mind. I commit myself purify this word ‘humanity’, to stand within and as ‘humanity’ when I speak this word as myself in certainty of the physical reality of humanity as who I am and in certainty for all as me. I commit myself to communicate the certainty of me within and as this word humanity.

 

 

 

 

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Day 204: Hope in Imagination and Fear of Powerlessness

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 continuing from previous post…

 

A bumpy ride through the objections and ‘buts’ as fear expressions in seeing this me that stands in self-righteousness and hope.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react with fear and anxiety in seeing and facing what it is that I have accepted and allowed as who I am in this relationship of standing in and clinging to self righteousness in hope.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the shame of the reality of what is that I have accepted and allowed and my responsibility within it, and through this accepted fear reaction to my own reality, to have accepted and allowed a smoke screen of confusion in my mind to not see clearly what it is that I have done or how it is that I have come to be this way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge self-righteousness as ‘bad’, and through this judgement accepted and allowed myself to avoid to see it in myself, because believing in this judgement, I fear to experience myself as bad.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize and understand that this self-righteousness is a position/stance that I have adopted as myself deliberately in order to create a positive feeling and thus feel better about myself – within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that together with the judgement that I hold of ‘self-righteousness is bad’, I have actually trapped myself into a compulsive ignorance of me, so that I have accepted and allowed myself to never see my own self-righteousness for what it is, so that I can continue in it as an energy experience in which I feel better, and yet actually have no comprehension of how I came to be the way I am.

 

So… The relationship of hope to fear of my experience of powerlessness, where from early days in this life, I accepted and allowed myself to not look into this -and hence to understand it and give myself the possibility of a solution to it – but instead to escape into hope and imagination where I could have a world and a make believe reality and an energy experience according to my own design and liking.

 

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to fear the experience of powerlessness in my life, and for not seeing and realizing and understanding that this experience I feared came out of the belief that I had lived of being powerless, and that this belief had come from my abdication of self-responsibility in my life, in which I had accepted and allowed myself to see myself and to be defined through the eyes of the world, and to be defined and moved according to the energy reactions within me. Within this I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize and understand that stability was something that I give myself and was able to develop for myself from a starting point that I had not accepted or allowed myself to see began within me. Therefore I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to blame the world as an expression of having given my power away to it by putting all responsibility for who I am upon it, and through this to fear the experience of powerlessness in which my experience of myself was entirely according to my energy reactions which in turn appeared to me to be within the hands of others.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand the nature of the negative experience of myself and therefore how and why I developed and evolved a character of hope and imagination, and how and why I came to protect and defend this with self-righteousness.

 

 

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Day 203: Hope and Grasping Belief

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 continuing from previous post…

 

Walking further into the Hope construct that I have lived and into the self-religion in which I see and realise that I have accepted and allowed for belief to be justified as a mode of existence. I commit myself to ‘take my life into my own hands’ – not as a statement of risk or peril, but as a deliberate movement into the physical and a step beyond the belief that fear and hope exist.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that ‘taking my life into my own hands’ is a moment of danger or peril, and for within that not seeing and realizing and understanding that within accepting this that I have accepted and allowed myself to define this life according to this consciousness that I have lived, in which this danger and this peril appear to be so real; and within this thus I forgive myself that I have not asked myself the question, that if I take my life into my own hands as such, then who and what am I accepting and allowing myself to be? Therefore I commit myself to take accept and allow into my hands the responsibility for what I am within the physical, to organize my life within the physical so as to support my life within the physical, so as to stabilize my existence in the physical and no longer live in hope, no longer live this construct of the mind within which I have accepted and allowed myself to justify belief.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the statement that what I should do is to ‘believe in myself’, and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that I am here, that I am the living proof that I am here, that in accepting and allowing this phrase ‘believe in myself’ to exist within me, that I have accepted and allowed myself to be as a belief within my mind, and have chosen to separate myself from me. Therefore I commit myself to live this living proof of who I am within and as the physical, within the practicality that is this movement that is my direction of myself within this physical world.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize and understand that within the word ‘justify’ that I have accepted and allowed that I am just if I … as a belief in who I am as just and therefore right, and that I have lived this word as a structural support of who I am within self righteousness, validating this existence in dependence on a victim or an object of blame for this image of myself to exist. Therefore I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek for ways and means within my mind to strengthen the belief in who I am as an image in my mind, and that I have accepted and allowed a process of further abdication and denial of the immanent proof of who I am the physical that is always here.

 

I see and realize and understand that I cannot just simply live as ‘letting go’ of Hope, without walking and retracing the steps that I have made in assembling this design of who I am, therefore I commit myself to research and investigate myself because I see and realize that it is only through review and realignment through self forgiveness and self correction of these mistaken commitments that I have made and built on, extended and evolved in further separation from myself, and further separation from who I am as this responsibility within the physical, that I can practically eradicate and ‘let go’ of hope. I see and realize and understand that letting go of hope involves me no longer requiring it or finding it necessary for it to be there, therefore I commit myself to research the fears that I accepted and allowed as real, and my beliefs that I could escape from this into hope and into the dimensions of imagination.

 

Continuing next post…

 

 

 

Heaven’s Journey To Life:  Who (or What) Determines/defines Life?

Creation’s Journey to Life: Investigating Human Rights

Earth’s Journey to Life

 

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Day 202: Removing Hope and Hopeless


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Day 202: Removing Hope and Hopeless

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the loss of hope where I have defined ‘hopeless’ as a negative. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed ‘hopeless’ to exist within and as me as negatively charged.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define ‘hopeless’ as in ‘doomed’, or ‘disastrous’, or as in there being ‘no escape’.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize and understand that ‘hopeless’ means in common sense, without the energy or feeling of hope, and that in being without this feeling or with this feeling has made no difference to this physical situation but my relation to it.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that a situation in physical reality can have the attributes of ‘hopeful’ or ‘hopeless’ and I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to see and realise that I have projected onto what is here my feelings and emotions.

 

Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look upon the physical reality and see attributes within it that are not there but are aspects of my self interest.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define ‘hopeless’ as a negative, in which I have defined a ‘hopeless’ situation as a situation that does not have a solution. Therefore I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define solution for myself within hope.

 

I commit myself to remove this hope as a solution from the design of me.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to realise that without hope then there is nothing for me to wait for, because within hope I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must wait.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within and as hope justify that I do not take responsibility for my world and my reality and commit myself to physical action and practical change in order to establish stability in my life and in order to support the stability in those around me, in alignment with what is best for all.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realise and understand that hope is a design of negativity and that possessed with hope I have accepted and allowed myself to live as negativity. Within this I see and realise my shame that in my life I have not learned to support myself, that I have not created a system of stability for me, have not taken responsibility for my own life and cared for me in this existence.

 

I commit myself to face the consequence of this, to stand up here and move myself to find some way to change my situation.

 

 

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Day 201: Hope and God


 

 

There never was a time where I did not associate God with Hope, and although there have been various times when I have found traces of God-connected thought patterns in my life which I have approached as if it were some kind of fall-out, or magic dust that I had neglected to clean up, having apparently expunged God from my life, I did not realise that this God idea was in fact a dispensable add-on in the constructs of my mind, and whether or not he was dead, or exploded, or had just neatly ceased to exist, it didn’t matter a hoot to the programming that I had accepted and allowed as me.

It’s like the idea of God actually had grown out of an energetic core of Hope- rather than visa versa; the story all about this superiority benevolence almightiness was like a surface feature really, it functioned as a justification so that I did not need to question the validity of this experience of Hope, while the Hope itself was the energetic reality within this myth, for having accepted and bought into it and lived within and as Hope, my existence became shaped by a positive experience of waiting and non action, apathy, justified by laid-backness, as if ‘everything’s ok’. And so while Hope was the actual subtle energy that emerged within me and warmed and comforted and mesmerized in a way, the God idea/interpretation was really an accessory. So at some point when I saw clearly that this God as I had defined it in my life was a projection of my self responsibility, the idea itself was rather too easily rejected, and I missed this point of Hope. It wasn’t just simply that this God had been as a projection of my self responsibility; it was also that this Hope in which I continued to live was the exact same thing, but under a different name, and very much closer to home, more intimately entwined with me – and I continued to tolerate it not realizing that in fact I had not really changed but only moved or rearranged myself within my mind.

 

So here I start a walk through this. Running from reality was a point that came up yesterday, and so this continues where I have made a decision to not face myself in my experience of fear and give myself the opportunity within that of understanding comprehension self forgiveness and actual change – but instead have gone into the experience of hope and into imagination and magical stuff such as God, and in my acceptance and allowance have created and reacted in this pattern over and over again.

 

 

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Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

 

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Day 200: Running from Reality

 

Backchat : What’s wrong with running away from reality?

 

This line of backchat came popping up into my mind as I was reading through a Journey to Life blog post about procrastination I take it to be as a self righteous protection and defence of the procrastination character.

It’s a tricksy question, because it implies that if there is nothing ‘wrong’, then hope can be established (made ‘real’) in it being ok. So here within this point, a self manipulation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate myself with using the word ‘wrong’ deliberately as a point that can be dismissed so as to establish proof of righteousness in the equations of my mind that it could then be justified and ok and excusable to be running from reality, if ‘only just for now’ in the context of procrastination.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify and validate a fear within this statement specifically within the word ‘running’, in which I make an implication of something coming after me within my mind.

I forgive myself that I have within this statement accepted and allowed myself to define reality as something separate from me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself within this statement to define myself as superior within being as my own god in defining reality itself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as less than this reality, while at the same time superior in that I can choose to live within a justification of running away from it. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realise and understand the multiple insanities in such a backchat statement, but that instead I have simply let it exist within and as me as a statement that is presented to myself as an answered question.

I forgive myself that I have within this backchat statement accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am the reality from which I run.

I forgive myself that I have within this backchat statement accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am justifying and validating a fear of my own experience of myself, in which rather than facing the reality of what it is that I am accepting and allowing as who I am, I have chosen to justify my fear and go into the experience of energy as hope within my mind and my imagination where in an alternative reality apparently I can escape from me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realise and understand and recognize this backchat statement as an element of mind control through which I have accepted and allowed myself as superior within an accumulation of energy in service of this consciousness as the energy authority of me.

I forgive myself that in this backchat statement that I have accepted and allowed myself justify myself as consequence of energy reaction, and as self righteousness within rejection of my reality in this existence which is as self responsibility in who I am and who I have become.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see in this backchat statement, that it is also part of an internal conversion in which I am being questioned, and that in my defensiveness I have interpreted in my mind as criticism or judgement.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed a question arising in myself as an attack on me, from which I have accepted and allowed myself essentially to stand up for me as my fears of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to store this backchat statement/internal conversation retort/answer back within me and as part of who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to point a finger of blame towards an imaginary questioner of who and what I am allowing myself to be. In this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to score again in winning as self righteousness against the voices of judgement. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react towards my own self judgements in being ‘wrong’. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify my judgements of myself so as not to listen to the question in and of my mind that obviously there is a problem here in that I am accepting and allowing myself to believe that it is possible to escape the consequence of me. 

Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in hope that I can have an alternative existence that is without consequence. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust this hope. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to stand up for and defend this hope in reaction games within my mind. Within all this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not notice that I have become possessed by energy within these distractions and that meanwhile who I am that is real remains not faced, not understood and so as unresolvable within the conflicts of my mind.

I commit myself to remove this backchat statement from my mind as part of the character of procrastination, and as the initiating trigger for a character of ‘life should be fun’.

 

 

 

 

New Interviews: Sunette Spies: 

Day 343 The meaning of Self –for-Gifting/Giving Life pt 1

Day 344 The meaning of Self- for-Gifting/Giving Life part 2

 

Bernard Poolman: Changing the Character of the World

 

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Creation’s Journey to Life

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Day 196: ‘No’: Reaction

 

The reactive ‘No’ of my refusal carries a self-righteousness, an appeal to my image of who I am as freedom, that I am in the instant of my reaction totally believing in. It is like an absolute denial of my enslavement, a commitment to an image in my mind of who I am as free, and standing as this as, superiority, as positive energy, and blame upon the bad one that seeks to undermine my freedom.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react with ‘No’ to what I have interpreted as manipulation, in which I fear that I am being tricked in some way, that I am being controlled, and in this reaction I forgive myself that I have manipulated myself to feel righteous and positive about not considering what is being asked of me, and just simply saying no, excusing myself from these considerations – in which there was an opportunity to find a solution that was best for all, given the facts of what needed to be done and what was here – so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be dwelling instead on blame about the way that I was approached, in which I have deliberately taken the situation personally as an affront upon my dignity or my authority, or my status as a free person. I forgive myself in this that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek to win within this situation by saying ‘no’. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see within this situation that I have reacted self righteously so quickly because I do not wish to experience myself as an inferior in this relationship, that in being manipulated therefore I have lost, and that within that loss, I do not want to experience myself as being exploited or utilized for the purposes of another. Within this also I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try and protect me from my own experience of myself by distracting me with ideas in my mind about the motivations of the other person where I seek out little prizes of self righteousness through blame and seek out instances of inferiority in the other person, rather than considering who they really are, or what it may be like to be standing in their shoes. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that the object of blame that I see through my eyes before me is an actual image of myself and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to see myself in how I myself have manipulated other people to make them do what I want them to do, because I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to ask directly, because I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the answer ‘No’.

 

I commit myself to release myself from the enslavement of these reaction games within my mind by facing who I am within them. I commit myself to when I am asked to do something to stop and breath and give me space and consider what it is that I am being informed is needed to be done so that I can respond to what is here in a way that is part of the solution of what is best for all. 

 

 

 

New Interviews: Sunette Spies: 

Day 343 The meaning of Self –for-Gifting/Giving Life pt 1

Day 344 The meaning of Self- for-Gifting/Giving Life part 2

 

Bernard Poolman: Changing the Character of the World

 

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Heaven’s Journey To Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

 

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Day 191: Reacting to Futility, and to WTF I’ve Done.

( Information that I have found very supportive in the walking through of the material in this post: 

Reptilians 170: How to transcend Shame and Transform it to Integrity

Creation’s Journey to Life Day 7: Letting Go of Regret

Earth’s Journey to Life Day 89: The Guilt Character )

 

 

Continuing from previous posts.  Reactions to Futility. Part 1, Self Blame.

 

More on the personality and my reaction to this personality that I have accepted and allowed within and as ‘futility’, where I have looked outward from this word at what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and to become throughout my life with a subsequential futilization of my reality that has flowed out from this, and reacted to myself with blame and fear.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have applied and projected this futility, written it into my beingness and into my very perception of the world, resulting in effects and consequences reaching deep into my physical being and far into my life and into the lives of those around me where I have accepted and allowed this ‘futility’ to justify a life as this my life to be essentially a life that has been largely squandered, and in which I have accepted and allowed a world and an existence also to be squandered, because I see realize and understand that what I accept and allow in me, I therefore accept and allow in others.

 

Various layers of shame, including fear reaction and ashamed of who I am as a shame layering system; shame and fear of shame, and shame of fear. Starting at the top, shame of who I am as not having walked through this point, not having fully understood the problem, not having reached any clarity as the solution of change. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to enter into a pattern where I react towards the truth of me with fear, and so go into a loop in which again I do not give myself the opportunity of change.

 

So in this point of shame of fear, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that I have accepted and allowed myself to define shame and fear together as an experience of who I am as energy in my mind.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than an image of myself within my mind, an image of myself as being one and equal to the act of dismissing all the fears within me that obstruct me, and arise before me, an image of myself that walks ‘serenely’ through my fears. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not forgive myself but instead to further judge myself in this, and for not allowing myself to see and realize and understand that the fears that I myself have established in myself and conditioned into me have been laid down by me deliberately in layers, so that in this expectation of myself to simply walk this process without fear, I am not being honest with myself but continuing in separation from myself as an image of myself within my mind.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that this ‘serenity’ in which I see myself in my imagination is an energetic quality that is in polarity with a suppressed ‘disgrace’ within me as ‘ashamed’.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that in this process of gradually exposing myself to my own reality that I am going to release evoke provoke uncover self judgements and experiences of fear that were hitherto unconscious and hidden, because I have suppressed these bad judgements of myself that I have believed in, and so have layered fear around these points.

 

And so I commit myself to breathe and stay with me here in breath and to realize that I am learning to face these fears as they come up and so to look at them and understand who and what I have accepted and allowed myself to be in these relationships within my mind, and so to change them, and so to penetrate and specify this fear and so to let it go. In this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not give to me the possibility of comprehension.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize and understand that in this process of judging me, that I have accepted and allowed myself to be my own parent authority figure internalized within myself as a system of energy that I have imitated and modelled on my life experience and accepted and allowed to be my guide in place of me being here and trusting me, and that in this I have accepted and allowed that I should be ashamed of myself in this situation that I recognize in having done something bad or something wrong and hence give to me my own self inflicted bad experience and within that acceptance definition connection of me to this, that I am bad or wrong, but get the energy reward of being seen as therefore someone that is good, as a self-punishing system of energy. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed feelings of guilt embarrassment and regret as energy reactions within and as me as an avoidance of the opportunity of comprehension of myself and the gifting to myself of the possibility of actual change, in which I see my own responsibility in what I have done and see also the mistakes that I have made and as well the reasons for the decisions that I have made that led to the consequences and effects that I have seen as not best for me or best for alI, and so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see how in this I have made a decision for a substitute of energy experience, and non-comprehension, instead of actually exploring further into me and into the actual point that is relevant here.

 

Hence in this situation of accepting and allowing myself to create a personality of futility and then to act from this futility accepting and allowing myself to see around me futility and through this to futilize my world, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself and to allow myself to go into these same patterns of reacting with self judgement and fear, to see simply that I have done this, to myself and to my world, but to instead stay with me walking this in breath so that rather than running off again into my mind as fear and shame and energy reactions, I can see and realize what I have done and so bring myself to change.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize and understand that this experience of ‘ashamed’ as guilt, regret, embarrassment entwined is actually a reaction to myself as blame, and within that blame of ‘who I am’ that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that this is the ‘human-nature’ that I am, unchangeable. For this I forgive myself. In this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that throughout my life I have programmed me by accepting and allowing myself to be as I define myself, or as others have defined me, so that in blaming me, I am accepting and allowing myself to not see and realize my own responsibility for who I am, and my own responsibility therefore in changing me. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify a fear of change.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attach to the word ‘shame’ the fear of experiencing myself according to the judgements that I have made of me and then accepted and allowed as real. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in and be controlled and directed by a reality that has been dictated to me by the authority that I have accepted and allowed as consciousness as who I am, and as part of that this fear as who I am in which I have accepted and allowed myself to experience myself through and as an  accumulation of energy awareness as fear through which I have accepted and allowed myself to be controlled by fear. In this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and to become controlled by fear.

 

 

Continuing into this next post….

New Interview: Sunette Spies: 

Day 343 The meaning of Self –for-Gifting/Giving Life

Bernard Poolman: Changing the Character of the World

 

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4 Count Breath as Emergency Tool of Self-Support

 

Heaven’s Journey To Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

7 Year Journey to Life @ Facebook
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