Is it possible for the Fact of Life to be at the forefront of my everyday reality, would that be too intense, would it even be possible for me to then get on with the practicalities of my days? And is this really such an odd question, or is it that the oddness of it brings my own relationship to it into focus, seeing in the question that I keep it to the margins, taking it as granted, and then, from the premise of ‘Given that we are here in the Fact of Life, then this, then that…’we kind of lose the premise and everything becomes just only this then that and so on, it becomes an institution of Then this Then that, giving rise to groundlessness as if it were just the way things are, like living on a train that comes from, goes to, nowhere…
Also, looking at this question, I come to look at ‘too intense’, and the reaction of something to the effect of Holy Shit I am Alive, we are all Alive, Oh My God, can I even be aware of that and at the same time do this thing that I am doing? There is like a fear of that intensity, of realizing the profundity of the situation, while at the same time, implicit in the question, a fear of becoming lost in the distractions of the day.
The Fact of Life, The Principle of Life: it was from realizing that somehow and in some way I felt uncomfortable with the word Principle that I write this, and now I see more clearly that the word for me was kind of problematic, so that in saying the words ‘The Principle of Life’, that I was in some way accepting a definition of Life by the measure of this discomfort in me, by the measure of my experience within and as the word.
Principle: here is a word that stands within all things: the Beginning/starting-point/infrastructure/law/blueprint… and yet looking at these words that spill from Principle they do not to me describe a living thing, but more my personal way of sketching out attempts of understanding it, that maybe possibly with these and other words, I might eventually embrace it. I mean the Principle of Life must obviously be a living thing, that the Principle of Life as Oneness and Equality as What is Best for All has to be within and as itself a living thing.
Looking into this I see how much I had absorbed and so imprinted into me the context of religious morality, as determining the compass of the word, and with that a relationship of less-than to it. That to me a life of ‘principle’ was a life devoted to some higher thing than life itself, that the paragons of Principle were statues raised on pedestals, that the Principles were the domains of high philosophy, that for me in my early days of meeting with this word, the teachers of principle in my early years were usually coming down at me from righteousness and judgement.
So this is what I begin to see now within this: the nature of that vague discomfort that I sort of skirted round in writing out this word, and of sounding it. Really the discomfort of resonating my own dishonesty in how I had defined it into me, and in overlooking how I in consequence was actually living it, saying unconsciously ‘me, talking about Principle? come on’, ‘this is not me’, ’I can’t live this’, ‘who I am is less than this’; and then within my sounding of the words ‘the Principle of Life’ experiencing my own hypocrisy and my own self judgement without awareness of the detailed nature of my own discomfort, or awareness of the fact that what I had accepted and allowed in skirting round my physical experience of what I had become within this word was to limit my expression of the Principle of Life to something of the mind.
With Self-Forgiveness, releasing me from these as-is conditions of the word, and of my acceptance and allowance of how I’ve placed myself within it, I give myself the space now to look more at how I’d like to be, how I’d like to place this word, how I’d like to live it, how I’d like the Principle of Life to be clear within me, as an intimate part of me, recognizing the Principle of Life as a living thing and me within in it living one and equal.
What comes up for me as I write this are the Eqafe recordings of the Clouds: in which examples are described of the nature and extent of communications in just a single moment, within even just a handful of atmospheric substance, a group of countless living particles, organizing what is best for all both collectively and on an individual level to manifest some rain, or else to do some other thing: and using that example of that handful of the atmospheric substance, and extending it and applying it to the infinite particles of the air around the Earth, and the water substance of the Oceans, the continents, Nature as a whole, that exact same nature and extent of communication happening constantly, that we embrace as one, as the Fact of Life: within that, Principle stands out as permeating all things everywhere, my physical body one and equal, my fifty trillion cells, all universes of their own, and yet dedicated unconditionally in the name of All.
It’s like here in these examples coming up I am showing me how there is nowhere in physical space in which Principle is not the active, crucial, organizing element, nowhere that is not replete with particles of awareness in constant actions of adjustment and decision. The revolution in my definition/redefinition process is to turn deliberately from a definition coined in consciousness – of Principle – as preference, or as a virtue, as something morally good, superior – and my definition of myself in relation to that, as separate to that, as less than that – to Principle as an integral part of everything and everywhere – and who I am the same as All, a manifestation of that Principle, an example of that Fact of Life. In this redefinition process then there is the recognition of the Principle of Life as a living thing and of me also as a living thing in which for Principle to become a living word for me I see that I must kind of learn to merge with it.
In the process of redefining and living words, it is like deliberately making a bridge from belief in self as an isolated being to realisation of self as an integral part of the reality of living awareness.
Some personal Self Forgiveness statements that assisted and supported me to release some self definitions that I had been existed as and so resonating in my sounding of the word Principle:
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge Principle when it has seemed to me to undermine my choices and decisions taken in my self interest; I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define Principle as a threat to my furtherance of my self interest.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to protect my choice of giving to my consciousness directive principle by blaming principle, by judging Principle.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define Principle within and as Morality. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge Morality. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to embody a personality of reaction to Morality and hence within that to Principle.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge other people as inferior in interpreting their stand within Morality and Principle as being examples of subservience to the system, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed within this for me to not see my own subservience to my mind in acting to protect my decision for the mind and for the furtherance of my self interest.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself to beings that stand in principle and then to judge myself and define myself as less than in my self. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define Principle as the domain of intellectuals and then to compare me to other beings that I have defined as intellectual, and in that comparison, find me lacking and so judge myself as less than and define myself as less than those I see as being equal to understanding, living and defining principle.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define Principle as something isolated, something separate from me. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as an isolated being in a world of isolated forms. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define Principle as something that exists only in the minds of human beings.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to exist within me in relation to the word Principle, backchats such as ‘this is not me’, ’I can’t live this’, ‘who I am is less than this’. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to listen to this backchat and in doing so strengthening my definition of myself as less-than others.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress these definitions of myself that I have attached into the word Principle. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress a judgement of myself as fraudulent in speaking of the Principle of Life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see into or pay heed to the discomfort that was in me saying these words.
I commit myself to clear this word Principle for me; I commit myself to clear the limitations of myself that I have defined for me to live within this word. I commit myself to continue to release the energies that I have stored within this word. I commit myself to clear the Principle of Life in support of learning how to live the Principle of What is Best for All in my immediate world. I commit myself to walk the redefinition of this word Principle, and to expand myself from out of the constrictions that I have imprinted into it.
References to the permeation of communication and decision and the application of Principle within the substance of the atmosphere come from these two recordings of The Cloud in the Earth, Nature, and Weather series from Eqafe: