Day 435: Ancient Footprints

Day 435: Ancient Footprints

 

Looking at relationship to mind – to pre-programming – I realise how I have invested into this word – a fear reaction – with preprogramming as a background of the mind – and with the prospect of a journey into it – I am having some reluctance – that familiar reluctance – as an awareness of some implicit snag. And with the word Invested coming up of Fear into the word of Preprogramming a question comes up of: What have I got to lose in my intention to forgive my preprogramming that is present in the background of my life? Is it that I was invested in a definition of myself as innocent in ‘having been’ preprogrammed, that my blaming the creators was therefore righteous, and that what I had to lose was this righteousness? This implies that what existed was a form of coziness around the issue of preprogramming, as if there were a backdoor of some kind that could be justified.

In preprogramming, the Word, in my imagination what I see is an image of a dimensional conveyor belt – a sort of retro-science-fiction/fact scenario – of Heaven as it was, recycling beings, repeating lives on Earth for the purposes of Heaven’s energy requirements – something – done unto – beings and families of soul group generations – where an individual pops up from time to time on Earth in some family or another, with limited awareness of the situation – with no awareness of a preprogrammed life design, or of a cosmic history. And though this has been so, in the past, as I understand it, it is not happening any more, and so what remains is a legacy of the ripple effect of past preprogramming as it comes, through the generations, through the parents, through the family history, through that atmosphere I breathed in daily in my childhood, in a way, like those given and accepted fundamentals in my life that became the very nature of my conception of existence that I took to be reality. And yet if I remove the blame I have to recognize that all of it was me: I have been treading in and so following my ancient footprints for what seems like an eternity.

For an exhilarating insight into the depth of history of our being and our relationships to energy, and within those relationships, our personal definitions of energy, I recommend the recent recording from Anu: How Do I Create Energy (part 2).

Also: a point that came up during this recording, that stuck out for me was this:

“When is your mind at its weakest? When you are actually in an emotional state, because there it’s bringing in all its energy charge that it’s got in a point.

So when you’re reacting in a moment, that’s when you should change: because that’s when the mind is going full force bringing out all the, let’s call its militant force, up, and if you stand like an absolute unexpected whirlwind of a tornado that just rips through the army of the mind, because you stand as a point of change, right there and then, it discharges all the energy of the point in that immediate moment, and you change.

Meanwhile everyone consciously thinks, like, if you are in a reaction you are actually at your weakest. No, that’s what your mind wants to make you think, but you’re at your strongest, that’s where you should change. It only feels difficult because your mind made you believe that you are weak. Stop believing it!”  From: How Do I Create Energy Part2

How we create an emotional energy within and around the word Weak inside our minds is explored and opened up by the Atlanteans (Part 137), and how through that, creating the belief of one being weak in relation to facing a point within the mind, or facing a challenge within your life and living experience. In this recording the Atlanteans open up the question: How does consciousness or the mind benefit through one’s acceptance and allowance of such a self belief, or such an emotional experience of being weak or weakened?

“Here in this polarity between strength and weakness in the mind it … takes the strength force in relation to the thought pattern that you’re facing, makes you believe that that strength or that force of that thought pattern is too overwhelming, is much more, is much bigger, more extensive than yourself, then the other dimension or polarity, your self very easily aligns and merges with the force or emotional energy of and as weakness, feeling weak, experiencing yourself to be weak… And in that relationship the mind thus contains you in the two primary points where we tend to fall when it comes to energy. The one, where we find it challenging to stop participation, and the other, where we very easily believe ourselves to be energy, and that to be all that we are and what we are within ourselves.” From Weakness: I am Weak.

Some Self Forgiveness statements on the self belief that I am weak:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am weak, and to have accepted and allowed this belief as part of the nature of me. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in this self belief for so long and so frequently that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a signature and resonance of me around it. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to identify myself within and as this pattern. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed this belief in who I am as weak, as part of the nature of me to become a point that constantly comes up in me, in the midst of many a reaction that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in. I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to see that this is because this belief exists within my very relationship to energy. I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to see and realise and understand that I can stop and change my relationship to energy. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in my perception of an energy pattern within me as being more than me. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself with an energy within me and then found myself in this comparison, to be less than it. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed this belief that I am weak to play a part when and as I find myself in many reactions and many kinds of energy. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate for example in a reaction of anger and then have accepted and allowed myself to be swept away within it because I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in this belief that I am weak, that I am less than this reaction, that I cannot stand, in this moment, that I cannot simply stand and redirect this energy and change, but instead must simply let it play out. I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to see that this pattern which I go into and get swept away into reaction depends upon my belief in weakness as who I am, that in being weak, I cannot change this pattern that I am in, when and as this pattern is unfolding. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed this belief in weakness to become a part of me, to become a part of my normality of me, within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear change. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the belief that I am weak as part of my normality that I recognize as me, and that within and as that belief, that I cannot change my normality. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed this belief in weakness as a trigger point in giving up on me in the midst of a reaction. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed giving up on me in the midst of a reaction as a part of me. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that because I am weak that I cannot change a pattern that I am participating in. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed in going into giving up on me in the midst of a reaction to not see or realise the trigger of my belief in who I am as weak. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience this belief in who I am as weak as a judgement on myself, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed this belief in who I am as weak to be hidden in my experience of judgement, to be hidden in the experience of being down on me because of who I am. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for being weak, and for not allowing myself to see that I am judging me because of this belief that I am weak. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress my belief that I am weak through my acceptance and allowance of a judgement of myself for being weak. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the shame that I have created in myself around this point of being weak. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to look at this belief that I am weak, because I believe that I am weak. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate myself around this point of believing that I am weak. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create comfort zones around accepting the belief that I am weak, that in being weak, therefore I do not have to try, do not have to make an effort, do not have to push myself. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not make an effort to push myself and make a stand within this programming for fear of discovering within my efforts that I am weak. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that once that I have gone into a reaction, that it’s too late for me to change, because I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am weak. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from me still further in the midst of a reaction. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to split myself between a part of me that I have made strong with a part of me that I have made weak. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must wait for the energy to subside until I can collect myself and then forgive myself, rather than simply standing in that moment and saying no to the energy that is moving me, and redirecting it. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am weak and within that to create a point of disempowerment in relationship to the energies that move within me. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abandon my responsibility for my own energy within me with my acceptance and allowance of this belief that I am weak. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to confuse my lack of presence as my awareness as myself within this program in my mind with a perception of weakness.

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