Day 227: Humanity – the Word
“We are all of us each other in different lives.” Bernard Poolman.
Thus… we are all of us on a journey to eventually see realise and understand and live the reality of this statement. Ok there’s a way to go but ‘Eventually’: this means after a long sequence of events, and a sequence of events is the reference to the timeline on which we stand here in our existences. This transitional aspect of our lives here is one and the same for all of us, and the realization of who we are as beings in process, beings in a life history, family history, generational and cultural history, in a history of existences here on Earth, realisations and perspectives of who we and each other are within this context, with all of the manifestation of the consequences of ourselves in an infinite variety of forms – these are steps along the way. Writing this – me writing this – who am one of these – existences – beings in transition – in process of change – can only look within me to see what others are – and thus to use the word Humanity from the starting point of who I am.
Who I am as a single element of humanity becomes clear when I sound the word humanity out into physical space and in through my physical ears, in my voice, my resonance, and I realise that there are charges of energy within this word that I have accepted and allowed to be connected to it, contained by it – the question thus before me is how do I as a being substantiate the word Humanity, what do I impulse and project into the world and into the ears of others from this, how do I live this, how do I react to me as this.
Walking through the point of judgement, self judgement – not as a single point – that illusion of singularity seems to be part of the nature of judgement – such as this point of seeing an other through my mind as one thing, one definition, one assessment, one dimension, or as seeing myself through the same narrow focus. So yes this is an aspect of judgement that has opened up, where I realise that I have in fact been defining judgement in terms of judgement, where I have focused on and judged the content of that judgement, rather than seeing the limitation of the breadth of it, the narrowness that is the nature of it. For example: this judgement of myself that ‘I am not good enough’, where I have been satisfied with the authority of such a statement, defining ‘who I am’ in total as this one single thing and accepting by implication an active ignorance of the total breadth and scale of this existence, this history, this sequence of lives, this presence of this being in and throughout Existence as a whole.
So here I make an experiment in writing the word Humanity, and speaking it out loud in public lol. And I have seen how in writing it I have gone into a reaction separating myself from it – I have been participating in an act of observing me writing it and I realise that within this that I have opened up a point of my programming where I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself in speaking the word Humanity – I have put myself as less than equal to this word – with backchat such as ‘I am not qualified to speak about Humanity, or as Humanity’ – that only some people are allowed to talk about Humanity – that I need a mass of knowledge and information before I can write the word Humanity – such audacity to publish me in the act of writing the word Humanity – yes, this word Audacity comes up – so I will open this up too.
This is a strange situation in which in writing out the collective noun of who I am that I react and complain really about me writing the word Humanity. Within this there is a point of denial that we are substantially one and equal, a hidden assertion that some humans are various different and special cases about whom I would require extensive special knowledge that then in turn would give to me validation and authority to speak about or as Humanity.
Making judgements of myself in writing out this word Humanity, up comes this other word, Audacity, like in how can I have such audacity to mention Humanity? Looking up this word audacious and audacity that comes from it, I am surprised – did not expect – to find that it carries no judgement of good or bad, it simply means ‘bold’ – and so I realise that in my memories of first encounters with this word that I heard it spoken or shouted rather with a charge of energy, such as ‘How dare you’ – challenge my authority – not respect oppression – such as the angry school teacher – so here I realise that I have defined this word audacity in my mind connected to this charge of energy, fear, fear of anger, judgements such as bad and ‘cheeky’, and in some way in the context of the class room – groundless – and that – I should have kept quiet – This ‘I should have kept quiet’ – plays a part in audacity – and in the backchat that comes up as I write the word Humanity.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I should keep quiet and not use the word Humanity
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have no ground when I speak the word Humanity
A feeling of vulnerability comes up as I speak the word Humanity – vulnerability and exposure – in which exposure is like a reaction as fear of loss of protection and hiddenness that I am exposed as standing out in comparison to others as in having been ‘audacious’.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am protected by keeping quiet, and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within this belief conserve fear of what might happen if I speak.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attach fear to hearing the sound of my voice.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react with fear when I speak out loud or write the word Humanity, and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a ‘less than’ in speaking the word Humanity, or else as pretending to be more than I am in speaking the word Humanity. Within this I forgive myself that I have judged myself as ‘dishonest’ in speaking the word Humanity.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience myself as groundless and as having nowhere to stand as and when I speak the word Humanity, and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I should have the ground of qualifications of knowledge and information to talk about Humanity, rather than the ground of who I am within and as myself, a human being. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as separate from Humanity, observing it as a stranger in my mind.
As and when I sound the word Humanity, I commit myself to stop and breathe, and in my breath to breathe in the reality of who I am one and equal with Humanity. As and when I sound the word Humanity I commit myself to stop and breathe and to remember this specific change that I have made to who I am, I check to see there is no movement in this word, no resonance of fear contained within it, no resonance of energy to impulse into the world and into other beings, or into my inner being. I commit myself to clear this word Humanity, to learn to live this word Humanity in awareness and respect for who I am.
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EQAFE: ‘The Crucifixion of Jesus’, has been a great support to me because hear within these interviews, presented through the Portal, the actual teachings of Jesus, rather than the ones that were to be, after his death, tweaked and twisted into the four approved versions of his life as the Gospels. How the political message of Equality and the reality of Equality and Oneness were skewed into a religious mantra so as to suit the interests of the system.
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