Day 109: The Spite of Daydreams

 

It gets clearer how this addiction to pre-occupation within the mind as taken up through my deliberate consent as the daydream character is actually an act of spite, in that I have accepted and allowed myself to make a judgement in my mind that my daydream world is more important than this physical reality which includes obviously by extension the whole of physical reality, and every being in it.

Walking through last blog…

 

First part, “…that now I’m safe within the secret kingdom of my mind…”

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make a relationship towards the world in which I define myself as separate from the world.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that this experience I have of me is due to and because of this world that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate me from.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the world for my experience of me.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my experience of me within myself by making a relationship of fear towards this experience of energy inside myself that I have accepted and allowed.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as a victim that can be hurt both by the outside world and by my own experience of energy within myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define as separate things.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek out strategies to protect myself from the outside world from the starting point of fear of being hurt.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to build walls around myself to protect myself in which actions I have accepted and allowed myself to become a character like a sentry on a watchtower always on the watch in fear of what may arise within me and without me.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to keep guard over what may come out from inside myself across my lips in words, because I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my own words can be used to hurt me if I let them cross my lips and manifest within the outside world.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my own words into a relationship of fear.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create an idea in my mind of being ‘safe’ within my protected world of absolute control and suppression of these energies that I have separated myself from in relationships of fear that I have accepted and allowed.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect a positive experience of energy to the word ‘safe’ in the relationship of myself towards the secret mind.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become addicted to this experience of myself as positive energy within being in safety in my secret mind and for accepting and allowing myself to live within this experience of hope of more and more of this as this character of a day dreamer willing to sacrifice reality itself to satisfy myself within and as my mind, and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that within this definition of myself in safety that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify a world of fear.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as more than others in this secret mind within my own ‘kingdom’ where I believe that I have absolute ‘control’ because I have chosen to let nothing in that can hurt me and let nothing out that can hurt me.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have ‘won’ within this game of competition that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe is going on within this relationship of me towards the world, in which I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as losing through expressing who I am within and through the words I speak.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manifest a character that acts on automatic as a gate-keeper and as a sentry on the parapets of the castle that I have made as the limitations of myself that I have accepted and allowed as who I am as this secret mind.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to utilize this sentry character to act for me so that I as the day dream character can get away and run off and play within the safety of my secret kingdom of the mind.

 

I commit myself to investigate these characters that I have employed to protect and support this day-dream character. I commit myself to follow the development and evolution of these characters in my life.

 

Continuing next blog…

 

 

 

 

Changing the Character of the World

 It is my Opinion  see also the Opinion Character

Journey to Life Day100: Giving it your All – 100% Life Commitment

4 Count Breath as Emergency Tool of Self-Support

Catch up on:

Heaven’s Journey To Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

 

7 Year Journey to Life @ Facebook
http://www.facebook.com/groups/journeytolife/

Desteni.org

Equalmoney.org

AND…Check the e-bookstore as well as FREE downloads at Eqafe.com

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~ by adamsblogs on August 15, 2012.

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