Day 96: The Give Up Character 1
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget about my breath and within that to forget about my commitment to participate in physical reality.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize and understand that this is a physical existence and that if I stand before it as a witness in my mind then I cannot be anything but separated from reality, and as such not actually real.
I forgive myself that I lived a life in which through fear I have sought out means and ways to efficiently negate and to deny the responsibility that always has been here, and then to wonder in my mind why it is that I cannot easily speak or write self-honesty.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize the consequences of the character of giving up that I have accepted and allowed as me, and have allowed for all as me, in which I stand in an existence as in myself that has given up on actual life and has settled for a contentment in oblivion. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately give up on myself in favor of being drawn into the mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up to the give character that was somehow ready made for me as in examples all around me that I accepted and allowed myself to emulate because I saw it as a possible way to not walk me, and in doing this I myself became an example of the give up character, given up on me.
I commit myself to assist and support me to walk my process of writing, self-forgiveness and self corrective application in releasing myself from this character of I Give Up.
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