Day 79: Character of Shame

…continued

 

To distinguish clearly shame from fear, I look up shame in the dictionary and find no mention of fear, but see that it is defined as being a feeling caused by consciousness of ‘wrong’ behaviour, and then, taking a look at the nearby word of ‘sham’, I find this to be an action of pretending to be someone one is not.

 

Shame: a painful feeling of humiliation or distress caused by the consciousness of wrong or foolish behaviour.

Sham: a person who pretends to be someone or something they are not.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed this energetic mind polarity of ‘right’ and ‘wrong’ as real.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect a positive energy experience of myself to being ‘right’.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect a negative energy experience of myself to being ‘wrong’.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself according to this energetic mind polarity of ‘right’ and ‘wrong’.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define reality according to some experience of energy within my mind.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear this definition of myself as that I have made of me ‘wrong’.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that fear is real.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear this definition of myself that I have made of me as ‘false’.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to NOT see and realize and understand that these characters that I have accepted and allowed as me are not real but constructs of experience of energy awareness in my mind, and that in judging who I am as these definitions of myself that I have made, I make more characters in relationship to characters as more and more experience of energy awareness in my mind.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to NOT see and realize and understand that this experience of energy awareness in my mind is NOT in physical reality, but only energy as consciousness with the single purpose of attempting to survive, attempting as a program to continue to exist as energy by feeding off the substance of myself, which is done through my permission, my acceptance and allowance of myself as these characters of energy that I have accepted and allowed myself to be to become, and then to act out in the world.

 

I commit myself to stay within my breath and with my body here in physical reality and not allow myself to further energize these characters of mind experience as me as energy awareness, I commit myself to walk this process of me writing out myself and self forgiving me and correcting of these ways as characters of mind that thrive on inequality within myself and without myself, understanding seeing and realizing that what I have accepted and allowed for me that I have accepted and allowed for all as me, and therefore that I have through my acceptance and allowance of myself to be and to become these characters of energy of mind have voted for a world of inequality and slavery and abuse of life and of the physical reality that supports all life.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to NOT see and realize and understand the purpose and the structure of this character of shame that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and to become.

 

I commit myself to remove this construct of this character of shame from the system that I have accepted as myself and from all as me. In this process I commit myself to deconstruct this character of shame as now I see and realize and understand that it has component parts:

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to the judgements of my father, through whom I accepted and allowed myself to experience myself as ‘not good enough’ within his eyes.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself and who I am according to an image of myself as in ‘not being good enough’ within my father’s mind.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react with shame towards myself in accepting and allowing me to see myself through my father’s eyes.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make an image of myself within my mind according to the image of myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that I perceived within my father’s mind.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek a definition of myself within how I believe that I am perceived within the minds of others.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek a definition of myself according to the reactions of my father and my family to me.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take in and to try to live this statement of my father that ‘I should be ashamed of who I am’.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and to become this character of shame, as a judgement towards myself as less-than in my very nature as a belief that I have lived as who I am.

 

I commit myself to through breath as me to realize the actual reality of my nature as a being as life in physical reality and to remove these constructs in my mind of who I am.

 

…to be continued

 

 

 

see Heaven’s Journey, The Garden of Eden

see these YouTube Vlogs:

The Reincarnation Characterization: JTL Blog Review by Bernard Poolman

4 Count Breath as Emergency Tool of Self-Support

Catch up on:

Heaven’s Journey To Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life


7 Year Journey to Life @ Facebook
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Desteni.org

Equalmoney.org

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~ by adamsblogs on July 9, 2012.

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