Day 73: On the Road 2

 

(Continued from yesterday)

 

How easily to slip my hand into the glove of this character as it were, and then to activate this network of connections to the words of ‘On the Road’, and then to accept and allow the consequential expression of this character to voice for me who I am to this, in a relationship to this Journey to Life.

 

I am finding now, that the character that ‘investigates’ the words is also keen to take a part. I stop again and breathe. Fuck fuck fuck , more stamping necessary.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and to become this character ‘investigator’ whose value is in that he is not involved in any way with the ‘case’ of who I am.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept within and as the character investigator that there must have to be some crime involved, and thus I set the context of the investigation of these characters within the field of judgement.

 

To continue:

 

I realize today that a character is inseparable from the story.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and to become the character of one who has realisations every day, not realizing that realisations in themselves are not real, but only little orgasms of thought within my mind lol.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give value to the character that ‘has realisations’ as one who is apparently ‘waking up’ and becoming ‘conscious’.

 

To continue:

 

Inseparable from stories: so the stories that I have read or seen as films or heard of quoted by admired authorities/stop…That was a character that Lies within the rhythms of the words. The story-telling character, the one beneath whose influence I accept and allow myself to fall into a trance. De dum de dum, de dum de dum, de da de da de da.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give away direction of myself while in the presence of this story telling character that I have activated and allowed as me to express for me.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to stand beside a false expression of myself because it seems ok, because the words that come up simply fall into the rhythm, and then sometimes ‘happen’ to rhyme.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify the automatic aspect of my expression of myself within and as a character within believing that this must be ‘intuition’ and therefore ‘right’.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let a character step in and tell my story for me because I have judged that they are better at telling stories than I am.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give more value to a well told story than to my own expression of who I am as life.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give value to a well told story within the way it is performed, the timing, the crafting of it, because it gets response attention from the audience, which as this character I have accepted and allowed myself to have more value than the expression of who I am as life.

 

Ok, so queues of ‘helpful’ characters all ready to join in, each and all of them as part of their own story, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and to become along with characters in my mind, the unfoldment of a story that surrounds them.

 

 

I will go on with this next blog.

 

 

 

 

4 Count Breath as Emergency Tool of Self-Support:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fN0CyeOK3GU&feature=youtu.be

Perspectives on ‘Character’ in these blogs:

http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-79-stepping-out-of-character.html?m=1

http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/looking-for-more-of-myself-day-78.html

http://earthsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-44-character-game.html

http://rozelledelangeblog.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-22-me-as-main-character-within.html

http://journey-of-lindsay.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-79-kill-buddha-hes-just-character.html

http://mayaprocess.blogspot.com/2012/07/my-life-as-character-overview-day-79.html

http://spiritualjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-45-characters-i-allow-as-self.html

http://malingunilla.blogspot.com/2012/07/day-79-im-nothing-but-character.html


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~ by adamsblogs on July 3, 2012.

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