Day 66: Under-Stand and Sub-Stance

 

Fear of de-construction going into desire for ‘understanding’ with the mind.

Investigation of a pain inside my gut.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become fear in a relationship that I have made to de-construction of what I have accepted and allowed myself to be.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself through fear to qualify this deconstruction within and as de-struction in fear of loss of structure of this me that I have lived within belief that this is who I am.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that while I deconstruct this me that I have accepted and allowed and have become, that I remain.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become hope that I might ‘understand’ within my mind this deconstruction of myself so that I may replace/upgrade the structure that I fear to lose.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become anxiety of hope and fear that I may not reconstruct before destruction of this personality of mind.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manifest this knot of fear and hope anxiety and desire as a pain within my gut.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manifest a fear of structure-less existence in the tissues of my gut.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become fear of what may be beyond the structures of experience that I have accepted and allowed within my world as all that is.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear myself as life.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not look down and realize and see that this anatomy of personality that I have accepted as myself in fact has no gut and has no breath.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not look at the words of under-stand and sub-stance and to not realize what it is I show myself in what they mean.

 

 

I commit myself to this decision of who I am within and as the substance of this breath. I commit myself to let go of these structures of control and understanding of mind. I commit myself to realign the structures that I have accepted and allowed as me within my mind through this writing-out of me and through this self-forgiveness process and through this self commitment of myself  to actual life to walk in life as who I am as life.

 

 

 

 

 

 

See these blogs:

Heaven’s Journey to Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

And other Journey to Life  blogs

Desteni.org

Equalmoney.org

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~ by adamsblogs on June 24, 2012.

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