Day 62: Solution

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the energy that I myself have created and compressed inside me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I might lose control.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have ever had control, realizing that I have only been controlled by feeling and emotions and the mind…

 

and

 

THUS I realize that I must take self-responsibility as breath and walk myself out of the mind into the physical as actual self-control that is best for all life.

 

Seeing and realizing that the practicality of a solution does not come forth so easily as I stand before and in the turmoil of my mind, I ask myself so then what is my relationship towards Solution?

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in my mind believe that for me there is no Solution.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as special, or superior in my inferiority as in being much more fucked than others and therefore in my mind believe that for me there is no Solution.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to realize that this special fuckedupness that I see in me is only the judgement of my mind and therefore not real.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify a fear of change in believing that for me there is no Solution.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I might lose this apparently wonderful fucked up judgement of who I am and who I have become if I step from this into Solution.

 

I forgive myself that though I have accepted and allowed myself to realize and see and self-forgive the madness that I’ve lived yet still I am accepting and allowing myself to hesitate and not see the Solution.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to see and realize that what I find so precious in my fucked up life is my self-interest and that clinging on to this I fear to see the Solution that is best for all.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to see and realize that in believing that for me there is no Solution, that this is what I have accepted and allowed for all as me, and that therefore saying that I care what happens is a lie.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to see and realize the consequence of this self-judgement of my special fuckedness on the world and the effect it has to undermine Solution.

 

 

THUS I realize that I must take self-responsibility as breath and walk myself out of the mind into the physical as actual self-control that is best for all life.

 

 

 

See these blogs:

Heaven’s Journey to Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

And other Journey to Life  blogs

Desteni.org

Equalmoney.org

AND…Check the e-bookstore as well as FREE downloads at Eqafe.com

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~ by adamsblogs on June 20, 2012.

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