Day 61: Learning Self-Support

After a conversation, the question rose inside me, “Why did you not support me there?” And I noticed how I had converted a statement of blame into a question.

Learning self-support, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek for validation in the eyes of others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame an other not supporting me within which I have accepted and allowed myself not to realize and see that I have rejected my responsibility to me to give myself support and stand by me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek for validation in the back-chat of my mind.

Mind shift into back-chat a picture of self being judged in the context of imaginary gossip. What happened? A thought arrived in front of my attention, then I reacted to it, accepting this negative validation to be true, then I felt bad, spiting myself, hurting myself, punishing myself for being who I am, which is who I now accept myself to be, according to this picture in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give away authority to mind through which I have accepted and allowed a state of me divided, undermined diminished and unstable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give away authority of validation to consciousness through which I have accepted and allowed myself to listen and to respond to back-chat of my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed this pain of self inflicted spite in my body and for having accepted and allowed this judgement of myself as less-than in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress/forget the cause of this experience in my body which I have done in order to protect myself,

thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to re-experience this self-spite in the act of remembering the cause of it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I cannot separate the memory of this picture from the reaction that I make of spite towards myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be protected by my mind in which I give permission for my mind to take care of me by showing me the judgements of the world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed an automated system in which I judge myself and spite myself in reaction to a thought that comes into my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that self expression is a dangerous thing, that I must be careful how I express myself, and therefore that I need this mind to guide me.

 

 

 

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Heaven’s Journey to Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

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~ by adamsblogs on June 20, 2012.

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