Day 51: Railway Tracks 2

 

Me as cartoon person tied down to the tracks with a train coming.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up on myself and to resign and abdicate and separate myself from self-direction of myself through which I have accepted and allowed myself to give permission for myself to be directed by the workings of my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear what may possibly come up in my mind, and in that fear allow myself to be a victim of my mind, and give permission/accept/give way/be over-ruled according to the automatic dictates of my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to dread repeating the experience in which I saw myself as trapped between my body and my mind.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to see and realize and understand that what I show myself is my awareness of the consequence of what I have accepted and allowed myself to be.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to see that what I show myself is me both tied down to the tracks and also as the train that can’t be stopped, and also as the rails themselves:
In which I as ‘tied down to the tracks’, have accepted and allowed myself as petrified, enslaved to fear.
In which I as ‘the train that can’t be stopped’, have accepted and allowed myself to be as huge machinery of single purpose, oblivious to life.
In which I as ‘rails’, have accepted and allowed myself to be as fated, doomed, and pre-determined according to a course already laid down, planned and set for me.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to see that what I show me in the image of ‘being tied down’, is that I have represented who I am to me as ‘not to blame’ but that someone else is responsible.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to see or realize that in abdicating self direction that from here on as a consequence of my fear of facing this that I must live in blame and live in spite of who I am as Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in fear and for having accepted and allowed myself to fear myself as fear, and so have accepted and allowed myself as energy and not as Life.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to see that what I show me in the image of ‘the train that can’t be stopped’ is me as energy enslaved according to the laws of energy in spite of who I am as Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear this ‘train’ as me as energy and for not accepting or allowing myself to see and realize that me as fear of energy has in consequence become the train of energy I fear and therefore cannot stop this train of me as energy.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted or allowed myself to see that what I show me in this image of myself as ‘rails’, is that I have accepted and allowed myself to be as fated, doomed, and pre-determined according to a course already laid down, planned and set for me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the image of these ‘rails’ as me as programming to justify my resignation from my self-directive principle of me as Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself  as powerless and for accepting and allowing me as powerless to wait in hope for this experience of fear to pass away.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to what I show myself with fear through which I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage the self support I give myself in showing me an image of what it is I am accepting and allowing me to be.

 

 

See these blogs:

Heaven’s Journey to Life

Creation’s Journey to Life

Earth’s Journey to Life

And other Journey to Life  blogs

Desteni.org

Equalmoney.org

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~ by adamsblogs on June 9, 2012.

One Response to “Day 51: Railway Tracks 2”

  1. Insightful post, Adam. Thanks.

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