Day 36: Keep you Head Up (1)

 

 

Today, simply to observe, go down into breath, direct myself to let it breathe, to not be interfering, just to see what happens, in my body, where it goes, and how it moves.

 

Discomfort in my neck. A knot of tension in the top end of trapezius where the tendons root beneath occipitals, so that contraction elevates the head, raises the nose. A part of my physical body that seems to be directly involved in the process of me shifting into me as mind; this thought of ‘not be interfering’ brings up a point of ‘control’.

 

 

‘Keep your head up’.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ‘keep my head up’, as in presenting to myself and to others an image of myself that ‘I can’t be hurt’, and that ‘I am above it all’, and that I am ‘not effected’.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own reactions inside me, and that I have used a strategy of contraction with the muscles of my neck to cut off from the energy of my body, in an effort to protect myself from me.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ‘keep my head up’, as a method of cutting off from my emotions of rage and spite and anger and for believing and fearing that I might lose control.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that ‘I might lose my head’.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to anticipate and expect that I might lose control, and so have brought about that sometimes I have lost control.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have won within believing that ‘you can’t hurt me’.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have lost if I show that I’ve been hurt.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have lost if I show that I have lost control.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I can be hurt without myself accepting and allowing it to be so. Within this belief I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify my spite and blame.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have won by holding onto blame.

 

 

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~ by adamsblogs on May 24, 2012.

3 Responses to “Day 36: Keep you Head Up (1)”

  1. “I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own reactions inside me, and that I have used a strategy of contraction with the muscles of my neck to cut off from the energy of my body, in an effort to protect myself from me.”

    Cool Self observation, thanks for sharing Addam

  2. cool self-support here Adam, thanks for sharing!

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