Day 33: Talking, Walking
Entering into conversation, noticing how many words pre-charged, no way through, a maze of reaction, within this me trying to justify, no good, stop and breathe. Just stand here and breathe.
Walk in town, buildings soar into the sky, making like shadowy gorges between them. Interesting how a building claims a piece of the land, and then it has stories, according to money, and stories pile on stories till there is a tower, and each story justifies the story beneath it, and all together occupy this piece of land.
Stories justified by stories justified by stories in this system of money where the ‘streets are paved with gold’ = we’ve turned the ground itself into money.
‘Follow the Money’, a sound strategy for investigators of all crimes and scams, and as the old story goes, investigation tends to flounder as the clues lead closer to the source where all the money is, then the investigator or journalist’s job becomes at risk, and then it becomes acceptable after a phone call for the editor that the story frazzles out and blames and justifications be distributed. Or else if it’s got too hot, eventually the MD steps forth to announce, ‘I am not responsible’, meaning I am not to blame.
Interesting how like an energetic system that all sounds, how it protects itself, maybe because it’s so well known, a kind of play that gets repeated over and over, and also because it’s a reflection of the system of me. The equivalent, inside, of this would be to follow the Energy within my own investigation of myself as all the parts of this. So within the film the dramatic part, going straight to the exciting bit, lol, would be between the story getting dropped and the investigator finding the resolution to go on. That would be the hook for me, that in this moment there lies the only chance for the energy not to be recycled but met, and stopped and realigned.
By a strange path I seem to have picked up on this point of resonation within the symbols of this film.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up on myself as a reaction to the backchat in my mind of fear.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately separate from resolution as me and then to believe that I have lost it.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in fear of loss.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deny my own responsibility for who I am.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that my responsibility in all things is also my freedom to change what I have become.
I commit myself to stand up and realign myself within the principle of what is best for all as what is shown to me in the Equality and Oneness of my physical body as what is shown to me in this physical natural system of this world, as what is shown to me in common sense as best for all.
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