Day 30: Fear of Spite

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect fear to spite, and in defining one within the other so that in fear of spite I am in fear of my own fear.

 

I forgive myself that in my processes of profiling for relationship I gauge and measure my fear in people according to their availability to spite.

 

I forgive myself that in my processes of profiling for relationship I seek out ways to justify my spite through the spite of others.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be comfortable within a relationship of spite, to participate in a world in which spite is deemed acceptable.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear spite.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear myself as spite.

 

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see how I project this spite I fear upon the world.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look for the spite in all beings so that I can avoid the experience of spite.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize how in hiding from myself as spite, I have accepted and allowed myself to become possessed by it.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear becoming possessed by spite, and to fear of others that they may become possessed by spite.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in fear of spite, to fear not being in control within a relationship.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in fear of spite, to fear being challenged within a relationship.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in fear of spite, to fear the destruction of the relationship.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in fear of spite, to fear change in the relationship.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as this system of energy in which as long as I am getting enough energy out of a relationship then everything should stay as it is, within my own control, within my own definitions of what it is.

 

 

 

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~ by adamsblogs on May 17, 2012.

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