Day 29: Spite

 

Day 29: Spite

A TV screen:

Military and religious systems working together as a branch of the same tree of the systems of All United Corporations of Ruthless Self Interest as Free Enterprise:

A cluster of military bases, they control all openings around a land of poverty/extreme abuse. The military support/assist, they open up the gate to an army vehicle with a red cross, dispensing ‘charity’.

What is this that I am accepting and allowing within myself , that we must ‘be humane’ and ‘keep alive’ these beings?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as a ‘humanity’ that sees its own nature and yet does nothing to change, because it sees within humanity the belief it can’t be changed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as a ‘humanity’ that sees its very own nature as being human within the statement that we must only keep them alive and not act immediately to see to it that this situation does not arise again.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as a  ‘humanity’ that sees it very own nature as being human within the statement that I will protect with ruthless violence the rights of all with money to freedom in abuse, I will stand my ground here with a gun across my arms and look into your face, you who get nothing, while in my mind it is all explained and justified, and I forgive myself that this is what I live, I forgive myself that in my life I do not question what I am living.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as ‘spite’ as a  ‘humanity’ that sees and observes its own nature within being human as spite, and in this being of it as ‘human nature’ putting it beyond question beyond examination, the trump card of justifications in Life as the energy of a game, expressed as spite, as human.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed within myself to activate a protective ring of spite that would go to all extremes in order to protect itself. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to include spite within my insistence of myself within this definition of myself as human nature, and therefore justified, so as to protect my own self interest as a system of abuse.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek accommodation for my spite within the relationships I make, so that there should be a place for me as spite, so that always I could act destructively should that become necessary according to the orders of my mind, and so that always I could express this wave of spite as if it were ‘only me’ as human.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see inside myself the spite which I have required in this relationship to me, as human, and so within myself accepted and allowed for all, so as always to have a place for spite as human.

I commit myself to change this humanity that I have accepted and allowed as me as human, as what I have accepted and allowed, I disconnect ‘unchangable’, I take a step of self direction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself within my mind to define myself as this unchangability as me as human that I accepted and allowed myself to protect with spite.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see unchangeability as an image of who I am as human so that I can stay within the system that I have designed to keep it as it is.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed this system of spite as self protection as unchangeable to become like an automatic system that becomes fast as lightning in the service of my needs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see daily in the world displays of organized spite and never thought to look at how and what for I organize the spite within my mind, towards myself and in allowance towards without myself as all.

I commit myself  to within writing self forgiveness and self correction change this ‘humanity’ that I have accepted and allowed within my mind, to understand the purposes and the functions of my own spite in keeping the same the system that I have accepted and allowed as me.

 

 

 

see: Heaven’s Journey to Life

and: Creation’s Journey to Life

And other Journey to Life  blogs

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~ by adamsblogs on May 16, 2012.

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